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Good Morning, GHers!

Thanks to all of you who left words of encouragement for our Sweet Sarah! I hope she feels surrounded by all of us, even if only in spirit!

We Love You, Sarah!


Todd Manning is looking to put down ROOTS in Port Charles, but that only means that a whole lot of weeds for PC’s residents! Todd has nothing good or noble to add to the landscape of our favorite fictional town! I mean, he was only passing through, and look at all the damage and heartache he’s caused already! ūüė¶ I wish he would take his newspaper, his abs, and his daughter and hightail it back to Llanview! Like yesterday!

Heather is pure evil, but other than Olivia, the viewers must be the only ones who see it! Is Steven really this clueless about his crazy mother? I don’t even get it! There is no reason that Steven would feel the kind of bond with Heather that might make him show this much faith in her. I just don’t get it! The only ROOTS Heather has ever cultivated in PC are those of insanity and danger. Why is it so hard for people who know this about her to imagine that she might go off the rails again?

Let’s just hope this time, Olivia isn’t her next victim. Liv is getting dangerously close to to ending up like Maggie – especially with words like “nut job” flying around! Luckily for Liv, Spin seems to have returned to his PI ROOTS with a renewed sense of urgency, and hopefully, he will turn up more than whatever root-less things Heather has “planted” out there on the country road.

So Luke and Anna completely eschewed both of their romantic ROOTS in order to hook up like it was 1979! They were barely even awkward around each other the morning after, as Luke was sitting there watching her sleep, and then making mention of their “dirty deed” without either of them blushing! I know there are those who think Anna and Luke are just wrong because of Robert and Laura, but you know what? I disagree. Robert and Laura are their past, not their present, or their future (based on all current indicators!) AND…If there must be a triangle, I am so glad it includes these three, and not a currently married couple!

Although I will say that I feel badly that Tracy is going to be hurt once more because of her love for Luke. ūüė¶ Tracy has proven herself to be more than Luke deserves, as she loves him unconditionally, no matter what she says! It makes me sad to see that Tracy really only has Luke – and well, apparently now Alice, to lean on. The Quartermaines used to have the strongest, most widespread ROOTS of any family in Port Charles, now this once great family has withered way to almost nothing. I wish the writers would come up with a way to turn that around!

I guess the best way to turn that around and to keep the Quartermaine Family ROOTS growing is to add to the Family Tree. The writers did that by making sure that Jason, Jr. is alive, even if they had to tear his poor mother’s heart out in the process. Poor Sam, having to endure another loss, another service to say goodbye to her child, another funeral, another attempt to pick up the pieces of her shattered heart. (I must say that not only do I believe the writers see Sam as a strong woman, I think they see Kelly as the strong actress she is. As much as we all hate this storyline, it has given Kelly opportunity after opportunity to show off her incredible talent. She had me tearing up from the moment she walked into the cemetery, and it only got worse from there! Kelly is an outstanding actress, and I am so proud to be her fan!)¬†

I have to admit that there is something I must give the writers props on, and that is that we got to see, throughout the entire episode, that Sam has put down and cultivated her own set of ROOTS in Port Charles. I love that the writers allowed Sam to be supported by so many, and not just her family – even though I adore Davis Girls scenes. Sam has lived and worked in this town for almost ten years! It would only make sense that there would be people who get her loss, and wanted to be there to support her! I thought the scenes between Spin and Sam were heartwarming and sweet. Spin telling Sam that he loved her and was sorry felt perfectly right, and made sense. Having Michael want to be there for Sam, and telling her that she would have been a great mother were touching and warm, and really reminded us that Michael would know, as Sam has been such a presence in Michael’s life. The scenes with Carly caught me completely off guard, and left me weeping! While Carly and Sam have never been BFF’s, I am glad the writers chose to show us that no matter what, they do share a connection. Sam needed all the support she could get, and deserved all the support she got, and more.

Because of his family and friends, Jason Morgan has among the strongest and far-reaching ROOTS of anyone in PC. He is connected in some way to just about every family, and everyone. However, as we heard him talking about those connections with Michael yesterday, one thing was quite clear: Jason has no deeper ROOTS than the ones connecting his heart to Sam’s. I will be the first to say what an ass Jason has been throughout this outrageous storyline, but I cannot ignore that Jason seems to be unable to thrive without his wife. I was so thankful for his conversation with Michael, because it was good for me to hear that Jason understands why Sam cannot let him back into her heart right now. It was also good to hear Michael being the voice of reason, and telling Jason what all of us would have been screaming at the TV had he not. Michael telling Jason that what Sam said, was not necessarily what she needed, was something I’ll be grateful to Michael for, for a long time! Perhaps hearing it from the first child Jason ever held was the secret to Jason finally putting his fears and his feelings aside for the woman whose heart is breaking over the child she believes she will never hold again. I am so glad that Jason finally got out of his own way and showed up for Sam. Had Jason let that opportunity pass him by, he would have regretted it forever. No matter how it turns out tomorrow, and no matter what Sam says out of her unimaginable pain and loss, it was crucial to the nurturing of their ROOTS as a couple that he be there during Sam’s darkest moments. She will never forget that he was present. No matter what.

I think it is part of the MAGIC that Steve and Kelly have not only created, but perfected, that Jason and Sam didn’t saw a single word to each other, and barely shared 10 seconds onscreen, and yet, so many of us were so deeply affected by what they did share! In those couple of screenshots, I read so much into what they were feeling: Love, Concern, Need, Fear of Losing Each Other, and again – LOVE.¬†I know that there are still some hard to watch moments and several weeks of tough stuff that will try our patience and loyalty, but it was like a shot in the arm to be reminded by Sam and Jason themselves that they are deeply and totally in love! Thanks for the crumbs, Mr. Carlivati and Writing Team! I will take it!

You know, our love for Jason and Sam has served as the ROOTS of the wonderful relationships formed and nurtured here! It’s so important that we not turn our backs on the thing that brought us all together, and helped so many friendships BLOOM! Keep supporting our couple and their Love Story, even when things seem bleakest. Keep fighting to keep their Love Story going, because this chapter will finally give way to another – hopefully more blissful one. Just think of all the chapters we’ve already experienced together over the years! There have been some we hated along the way, but we must remember that we are working towards a Happily Ever After, and that rarely happens without conflict and angst along the way!

Hang In There – for JaSam and for GH!

Hopefully this will serve as inspiration: “It’s All Coming Back To Me Now” Credit: jasamlova1028

We can do this! Together, we can do just about anything!

Love you all,



A Tale Of Two Women

Good morning, GHers!

I hope you all had a restful weekend, and for all of the moms – I hope you were spoiled rotten on our special day!

I actually got in a nap during GH today, as I found it to be a bit boring, but I did manage to catch up, and realized that for just about all the men in Port Charles, the story trying to be sold was A Tale Of Two Women. 

For Todd it was a double whammy. First, he overheard the tortured confession of Kate Howard her attorney, stating that she thought Connie might have been the one to shoot out Anthony’s ¬†tires that night, in effect being the reason for Cole and Hope’s deaths. I must interject here and say that it would be rude of me not to mention once again what an outstanding job that Kelly Sullivan is doing with this storyline! I mean, wow! I am now entirely pulling for Kate here, because how could I not? The woman had no control over Connie’s actions, and Kate is so convincingly remorseful that I honestly feel for her! Somehow, Ms. Sullivan has even managed to get me to feel for Connie, who was only manifesting in order to “save” Kate from a fate known as death. Todd heard enough that he now knows there is A Tale Of Two Women, but he didn’t really know what, or who, the hell Kate was talking about, but I have a feeling that Carly is going to be all too happy to fill him in! Which bring me to the next Tale of Two Women surrounding Todd (because God forbid that an OLTL character not have more story than a GH character)¬†Carly finally met the other former Mrs. Todd Manning, T√©a Delgado. I may not be a huge fan of all the OLTLers taking up so much screen time without even giving the GH viewers a chance to warm up to them, but I will say this: T√©a is one character GH could use more of. She is strong, independent, and smart as hell. I love that she immediately gee Carly a run for her money at bitchiness, and I love that Alexis will have another smart woman to spar with. Carly thinks she likes Blair more; I’d bet it had a little something to do with the fact that T√©a told Carly exactly how things are, instead of pulling up a chair at the MC bar to toast crappy exes. T√©a would much rather do something about a crappy ex, than just get drunk and commiserate over him. Wouldn’t it be interesting if T√©a’s brother Tomas really does turn out to be the man formerly known as Lorenzo Alcazar, as rumors suggest? I don’t think she and Carly would be bonding as in-laws any time soon.

Also not bonding as possible future in-laws are Liv and the crazy-ass Heather in Steve Webber’s unfortunate Tale Of Two Women. Both women claim to love him, but one woman is dangerous to the health of any other woman around him, and always has been. Why Steve can’t seem to piece together that his mother’s arrival in his life almost completely coincided with Maggie’s mysterious confession and suicide is beyond me, especially when Olivia, who by her own admission is not really that familiar with mental illness, seems to have the whole thing under suspicion, if not figured out just yet. If nothing else, I would think Heather’s ill-timed suggestion for a “celebration” over a BLT would have set off an alarm bell for Steve…but apparently not. And to think that Steve was once a specialist in forensic medicine. Pffft…shouldn’t he at least investigate Maggie’s death?

Speaking of Heather, she is quickly becoming the other woman in A Tale Of Two Women in Luke’s life, besides Anna. You’ve gotta hand it to Robin Matheson, she can play SOAP crazy with the best of them! Her phone call to Luke was comical, if not indicative as to how seriously deranged Heather really is. I thought it was cute that Luke, who plays cat and mouse with the sinister Helena Cassadine and thinks nothing of it, immediately had his number changed just to keep Heather from being able to reach him. She freaks him out like no other loon can, and even Anna thinks that is hilarious! I must admit that I am liking the Luke and Anna bonding more than I thought I would. I thought that moment where Luke realized he was kinda mesmerized by her smile was sweet, and the shock Anna registered was equally so. Even nicer were the scenes where Anna and Luke were bonding with their grandchildren – something that might never have happened under Guza. I think I might like where this is going…

It appears that Ron Carlivati is trying to convince viewers that there is A Tale Of Two Women in Jason’s life. And while there may be two women crossing paths with him, it is quite obvious that there is only one woman in Jason’s heart. I think I may have said once (or twice) before that it never ceases to amaze me that so much of Jason’s “relationship” with Liz must involve a child. For years, it was Jake, and how he served as a connection for them. *sigh* This time, it was Emma, Robin’s daughter, who served as the thing that created something for them to seemingly connect over, though I am not sure the connection had anything to do with them, but Jason’s past relationship with Robin. Either way, Liz seemed more than thrilled to have a reason to talk to Jason, even though once again, even she could not deny the obvious: that Jason loves Sam. Jason was dangerously close to making this into A Tale Of Three Women, as he is (to quote Jason himself) “acting like a little bitch!” I don’t know if it’s Liz’s effect, but he has gotten so freakin’ whiny! Whaa, whaa, whaa! Sam wants to be closer to McBain. Whaa! Sam doesn’t need me! Whaa! I can’t stop think ing about Franco! Oh, please! Jason, get a freakin’ grip! I still swear that Jason is the one experiencing “sympathy” hormones for his wife, because he is a hot mess! He is so afraid of saying the wrong thing, or doing the wrong thing where Sam is concerned, that he doesn’t even know what to do anymore. To be fair, this is all fairly new to Jason. Sam has been the only woman he has ever fought to keep, as every other woman he has just watched walk away. And it’s been so long since he had to fight, I think he is a little rusty…or even a little chicken…or maybe a little of both. Maybe Jason really does believe that Sam wants to be with McBain because he fears that he is not being what she needs him to be right now. Maybe he does worry that Sam doesn’t need him anymore. The problem is that unless he overcomes the fear that he just may be right, he may lose her by default! One thing was crystal clear: for Jason, it’s A Tale Of One Woman.¬†The minute he left Kelly’s, (right after Liz told him she would be thinking about him), it was clear to everyone that Jason was thinking about one woman. His wife, Samantha Morgan. So, without really stopping to think about it, he rushes over to the motel, just to wish her a “Happy Birthday”. He didn’t need to be reminded that it was Sam’s birthday, and he didn’t really know what else to say, but he needed her to know that he remembered. That was a step in the right direction.

From what I understand, it will be a long road before us JaSam fans are back to feeling the love we were feeling under Garin Wolf, or even Guza for that matter. Ron Carlivati has a sad, twisted idea of what we want to see onscreen. Other than reminding him every day via every available mode of communication, and logging out of our Nielsen boxes when we are getting something we don’t want to see, I am not sure there is anything else we can do but wait as patiently as possible.

However, I will tell you again, that losing by default is not an option! There will be no giving in, giving up, or giving them any thing without a fight!

It’s more important than ever that for TPTB, we don’t each become¬†A Tale Of Two Women,¬†where one minute we are #TeamJaSam, and the next minute we are jumping ship, and choosing one or the other. This is the time to be rock-solid supporters of our couple, even if we detest the way they are being written!

Let’s hang in there, JaSammers!

Love you all, 


Call: GH Comment Lines: 818-460-7477, Press 1, then 2, then 3, then 464, GH LA: 323-671-4583



Snail Mail:¬†Ron Carlivati,¬†Headwriter /¬†Frank Valentini,¬†Executive Producer/Kelly Monaco/Steve Burton…(or any other actor)
c/o ABC-TV General Hospital, 4151 Prospect Avenue, Hollywood, CA 90027


Good morning, GHers!

That question actually did not start out as rhetorical…we (The Sicks is what we are calling ourselves these days) were just talking about how when your fever is spiking, you can hear yourself “double”. LOL.

But, the conversation stuck in my head, and when I went back to rewatch the show, I found that I was asking the question,DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF?¬†of many of our Port Charlesians, and not just the feverish kind. ūüôā


~ Todd Oh, how it bugs me that I even have to write about this, because I actually couldn’t watch OLTL when RH because the “real” Todd again. I thought it was a slap in the face to TSJ, and to fans, who had to be convinced that TSJ was the real Todd in the first place. The fact that he is now on my GH, and that he will inevitably be part of this blog gets on my nerves. ūüėõ But really, Todd, DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF?¬†How does any father think they are helping their daughter by trying to convince her that the attempted murder charges hanging over her blonde little head are just going to go away? DOes Todd not see what being his daughter has already cost Starr? Does he not see the influence he has had on her life choices has been toxic? Ugh.

~ Olivia This disappoints me, because if Liv ever had a saving grace, it was her sense of family, and her loyalty to hers. Watching her treat a clearly distressed, depressed, and damnified Kate like some leper was not what I expected. I thought where Liv comes from, family sticks together, even through thick, thin, and handcuffs. It’s gotta take a seriously stiff upper lip to see your own flesh and blood in that condition,a nd not feel a morsel of sympathy. Olivia was just plain cruel, which didn’t really register with me. Liv, DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF? ¬†Liv is doing a better job of sticking by Steve, who she’s known about 10 minutes, and knows for a fact that he really did kill someone! *shakes head* Liv went on to make a really big deal about how Kate tried to leave Connie behind – as if that’s the unpardonable sin, but really Liv better take a closer look at the glass house she lives in. Liv left a whole lot of secrets buried in Bensonhurst once, too. I know she hasn’t forgotten that her son was shot by a man who didn’t know he was about to murder his son! And I don’t know, but if a doctor called me to talk about my cousin, who is freakin’ handcuffed to a hospital bed, you can bet your bottom dollar (sorry for the dollar bill reference again, Kate) that D.I.D. would be a helluva a lot more than a “fancy medical term” to me. Liv owed it to Kate to try to find out exactly what she is dealing with, and how she can be helped. Eh, yeah I know she gave in and hugged her in the end, but it still left me cold. Liv is going to have to earn some points back with me in the family department. She shot whatever points she had straight to hell!

Something definitely NOT leaving me cold? Kelly Sullivan’s portrayal of the tortured, terrified, and truly repentant Kate! I hated that RC was gonna write this s/l again so soon after leaving behind Viki/Niki and Jess/Tess/Bess, but Ms. Sullivan completely changed my mind! She had somehow managed to make me feel sympathetic towards Kate, and yet still make me giggle at Connie sometimes. I hope she knows what an extraordinary job she is doing! *applause*

~Sonny What was it I said yesterday about Sonny’s abandoning Kate? Make that a double after Wednesday’s episode! Sonny is completely in denial about the fact that mental illness exists outside of his own mind, and that other people may actually have bigger, deeper struggles with this disorder. In his narcissistic ¬†little head, he must think that he can be the only one with a legitimate excuse for behaving completely out of character, and for being so out of control that others need to take over parts of his life for him. Hey Sonny,¬†DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF? Because we all did, and considering that Jason’s right in that what Kate is suffering from is worse than what you’re dealing with, you really did sound like an ass!

(I feel I need to preface this with a disclaimer. I am, and will always be, #TeamJaSam. That will never change. When I can find an insight I feel I can share regarding Jason’s less than swoon-worthy behavior, I will gladly do so! However, my loves, there are times, that even I cannot find rhyme nor reason to what is going on inside his head – or in this case – his dialogue sheet. That is why I didn’t even try with yesterday’s post as far as my thoughts on Jason. Simply put – I felt it was lack of integrity of the character, and I could only place that on the writers’ shoulders. Either way, Jason is sometimes going to be on the receiving end of a few choice words from me. He should consider himself lucky – I wouldn’t bother if I didn’t care so much about him. ūüôā That being said, I am not giving up, giving in, or giving them anything but my full love and support! I Promise! *curved pinky* )

Moving right along to my list of people I ask the question of…

~Jason Well, lucky for Sonny, no one sounded like a bigger ass today than Jason! I’ll let you in on a little secret about me. I actually twitch in church when I hear someone preaching about something he has no business preaching about because he is the worst offender of them all. *getting heated just thinking about it*¬†Jason made me twitch so bad, I do believe I threw something at his head, but it could have been a hallucination from the fever. I’m just not sure. What I am sure of is that there was no one who made me ask this question more loudly or more incredulously than Mr. Morgan himself! UUUMMM…JASON...DO YOU FREAKIN’ HEAR YOURSELF? In case Jason, or anyone else missed it, these were Jason’s exact words to Sonny, after Sonny reminded Jason that Kate’s not bi-polar: “No she’s not, what she has is worse. Kate’s in a lot of trouble. Her life is a mess, and it’s nothing she chose! I understand that you’re angry. Can you try to understand that she’s sick?”¬†*twitch, twitch* Oh, Lord, someone hand me a fan, because I feel like I’m at church! I must ask again: Jason Morgan,¬†DO. YOU. HEAR . YOURSELF?

Better yet, ¬†could Jason just stand in front of the mirror, and have that same conversation with himself, inserting Sam’s name in the appropriate places? Here, I will help:

Jason, no Sam’s not Franco’s sister, what Sam is, is worse. She’s his real victim.

Sam’s in a lot of trouble – she’s facing this without your help, and because of this, she is always tripping over McPain. Not only is she in trouble, but her heart is troubled. She thinks you can’t love this baby, and because she is a mother first (Don’t know how you forgot that about her when you watched it happen with Sonny over Baby Lila), Sam will put her baby first. (We are so proud of our girl!) She thinks she cannot be with you if you can’t love “her” baby. Hmmm. Come to think of it, Jason, maybe you’re the one in trouble, because we all know that if you lose her, you yourself are lost.

Sam’s life is a mess – your wife is pregnant. Pregnant! This is a time she should be enjoying moment by precious moment! This is the miracle she dreamed of for the entire time you’ve known and loved her! Instead of enjoying it, she has been stressed, tormented, teased into a false sense of security, feared losing you to death, feared losing you to your jack-ass-ity, teased once more into thinking everything was okay, had her mind blown, felt abandoned, made to feel like it ¬†was her fault, and now fearing the future of her marriage for the sake of her baby. While staying at a motel. Alone. *smacks forehead*¬†Jason! (Or maybe it’s your evil alter ego we’ll call “Ronnie”)¬†Whatever happened to, “You have me, everyday, for the rest of my life.” ?????¬†Do you even remember trying to convince to trust in marriage with you? Meanwhile, you are solving Sonny’s problems, being Kate’s defense attorney, visiting the grave of the son you could never visit at home, and having a pissing contest with McBain over Sonny. GET A FREAKIN’ CLUE, YOU BIG LUG!¬†(Oh, don’t even get me started on the lug nut and what lug was supposed to symbolize!) *sobbing*

And finally…most devastatingly true:

It’s nothing she chose – Hey, ass! Sam didn’t choose to be Franco’s victim. She didn’t choose to “get raped”. She didn’t choose to “get pregnant by him”. She didn’t even choose to be in McBain’s orbit. She chose to be your wife. To stand by you. To love you, no matter what. How you could think it’s okay for Sam to be worrying about anything other than you counting her calories, or her servings of calcium or folic acid, is beyond any of us! Sam deserves to be loved and cared for now, more than ever, for still caring about your wellbeing when any other woman you’ve known would have blamed you for everything that happened to her because of your “life” and your “enemies”. Why can’t you see that?

We get that you’re angry – Be angry! At Franco. At what he did. At how you failed Sam…yada, yada, yada. Be angry at the fact that McBain has been there for your wife, and that she trusts him and turns to him in confidence. Be angry that he saved her and “her” baby because you were too busy solving Sonny’s problems. ¬†Yes, be angry. But first, FIRST be angry at your damned self! Be angry that you keep making the same mistakes with the woman who’s made you happier than anyone, who has loved you unconditionally, and forgiven more than you deserved. Be angry that John McBain could only fill up not just the space, but the ROLE, ¬†you left, and keep leaving, wide open for him. Be angry that you are pushing Sam to turn to him, instead of putting on your big boy underwear and ¬†pleading with her to turn to you, even though you’ve failed her miserably so far. Once you’ve done that, please move on to your own final step:

Can you try to understand that she is sick…and tired – Of Fighting: To stay strong. To seem brave. To deal with what happened. To keep you from going over the edge. To keep you, period? Can you see that Sam’s heart is as sick as Kate’s? That it’s hurting because you are hurting? Because your marriage is hurting? Because your friendship is hurting? Because she fears her a baby will grow up hurting? Can you try to understand what Sam has already been though, so that maybe you’ll stop putting her through so much more?

All of your advice to Sonny was really good stuff. The question remains: DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF?

If not, trust me, you will hear all of us…



Call: GH Comment Lines: 818-460-7477, Press 1, then 2, then 3, then 464, GH LA: 323-671-4583



Snail Mail:¬†Ron Carlivati,¬†Headwriter /¬†Frank Valentini,¬†Executive Producer/Kelly Monaco/Steve Burton…(or any other actor)
c/o ABC-TV General Hospital, 4151 Prospect Avenue, Hollywood, CA 90027

“It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy”

Good morning, GHers!

Forgive me for being MIA on Wednesday. We had a friend in crisis, and that took me away from my computer, and from all of you. But know that I missed you all.

It was a long night followed by a long day, but when I returned, I found confirmation in the mail (though I’d been told over the phone a week or so ago) that I am now officially RETIRED, with full benefits (and about 25 years before I ever thought I would be).¬†Now, I can explore the other passions God has given me, (maybe I’ll finally write a book!) without worrying about helping to provide for my family. I am overwhelmed at how blessed I feel right now!

I am telling all of you before I even post it on Facebook for a reason. Having my accident was devastating. The surgeries that followed were a nightmare. The constant battle to try to get to a place where I could go back to teaching, my life’s passion, was disappointing and depressing. Through it all, while friends and family were back at work, doing their thing, not even realizing that I was losing myself and any sense of purpose, YOU GUYS WERE THERE.

I would not have made it to this day of celebration without you. It’s not just something sweet I want to say to all of you. It’s not something that I think. It is absolutely something that I know, and am certain of. Hearing back from you guys in those first days of this blog made me feel “connected” to the outside world again. It gave me something to look forward to. A real feeling of purpose in two years. From that, the friendships that we formed, and the love that I have come to feel for so many of you is The. One. Thing. That. Saved. Me. You will never really understand just how deep and heartfelt that sentiment is, but that’s okay. I just had to say it, and I just had to celebrate with you guys.

Thanks for the years of well wishes, prayers, finger crossing, kind words, encouragement, understanding, and support. I love you all so much, and I thank God for you every single day. I mean that from the bottom of my heart.


Moving right along… ūüėČ

That McBain is quite the sneaky cop, isn’t he? He’s got Sonny’s place bugged, and he’s getting more than he bargained for as Sonny pours his broken heart out to anyone who walks through the door. I was kinda hoping that Sonny would not dump that whole messy truth about finding Kate and Johnny in bed together (complete with sound effects) on Michael, bit who am I kidding. Sonny is nothing if not clueless about what’s appropriate to lay on your children. He’s been telling Michael way too much since he was about 5 years old! While Michael was lamenting the unfortunate end of his father’s birthday, John was reveling in the fact that Sonny was finally getting some of what he thinks Sonny deserves. In fact, it was John who said, “It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy.”¬†I try to feel badly for Sonny here, but honestly, he went after Johnny in every way that hurt for a really long time, even after John showed some real kindness and restraint – especially concerning Sonny’s kids. Karma, apparently, is a blonde.

Carly and Connie have been simmering for weeks! It was only a matter of time before they totally forgot that they are supposed to be grown women, and more importantly – women, period. They went at each other like two guys brawling in a back alley. That was one crazy fight, and I shudder to think what it meant for business at the Metro Court when both of its owners are rolling around on the lobby floor, ripping each other’s hair out. Honestly, I couldn’t even pick a side. They both deserved an ass whooping – so¬†“It Couldn’t Happen To Nicer Guys.”

Liz and Liv should really have left the sleuthing to the professionals. *yawn* It took them way too long to jump to conclusions, make assumptions, and basically waste each other’s and our time, only to end up calling the police anyway. Neither one of these two is someone I would want trying to save my ass if I was Steve, that’s for damn sure. And considering Liz’s track record, the same goes for Ewan. If Liz doesn’t get herself fired for breaking confidentiality laws by going through Ewan’s patient files, she and Liv may just get themselves killed for getting themselves stuck between A Psycho and A Double Crazy. Actually, now that I think of it,“It Couldn’t Happen To Nicer Girls.”

Johnny is on a collision course with disaster! No matter what he does, it seems to lead to trouble! Even when trying to be there for Starr, the young woman who just lost her family, he can’t help but say all the wrong things, or do all of the wrong things – like putting away his gun where desperation could reach it. *shakes head* John is dealing with a whole load of problems – from his decimated relationship with Carly, to trying to stay a step ahead of a murderous Sonny, to an illegal operation dealing with human organs. Add to that the fact that Starr has now gone after Sonny with Johnny’s gun, and John may as well turn himself in. I can think of a few people who might think¬†“It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy.”

While some may have had a tough time with Jason and Sam having yet one more argument, I was actually okay with it. First and foremost, they were finally in the same space together. Second, and most importantly, they actually did more than just argue. Jason and Sam, though tough for us to watch, finally got some of the tough stuff said. Jason had to stop hiding behind his ¬†jealousy and had to face the cold, hard truth out loud that (they think) Sam is carrying Franco’s baby. Sure, it’s hard for Jason to hear, but guess what, dammit? It’s even harder for Sam to say to herself every single day! ¬†I was so proud of Sam for not apologizing anymore, not even for John McBain! She told Jason he couldn’t blame her for any of that, because he just kept showing up – and she had no control over any of it! *applause*

FINALLY! Sam has nothing to apologize for, and furthermore, she pointed out to Jason just how hypocritical he was being in that he was angry at Sam for talking to someone she barely knows, but he was talking to someone he has a history with. The look on Jason’s face when he heard it for himself was pretty damned satisfying. But, you know what was even more satisfying? Watching Sam point it out, and then hearing her move on to the fact that neither Liz nor John are the problem for her and Jason! *Shouting hallelujah!*¬†I hope the haters lined up to have their butts handed to them, because for all of their talk about how insecure Sam is, I didn’t hear a shred of insecurity in her statement! Sam used Liz to make a point about how clueless Jason was about the double standards he was placing on Sam. That’s it. Sam was all about her and Jason and the issue they are facing – which is whether or not Jason can love the baby, and obviously he is struggling with the thought of it right now.

I give Jason (a smidgen) of credit for telling Sam that it’s not her fault, because even though she knows it, she needed to hear it from her husband. However, I really think Jason needs an (over)dose of reality. And his reality, as we already know, is that Jason “knows what his life is like without Sam, and he wants her in it.” ¬†I think we saw that in the shock that caused him to let Sam’s hands drop when she said she was moving out. Those scenes reminded me so much of their painful conversation after their second kiss on December 9, 2004, where Sam was leaving because she felt she had no choice, and Jason just didn’t know how to ask her to stay. Back then, it was the unknown that made Jason feel he had no right to fight for Sam, and I felt that same uncertainty in him today. Jason would never want to purposely hurt Sam, and he sees that it hurts her when he can’t make her any promises about the baby, as hard as that is to believe. Just like back then, he thinks the least selfish thing to do is to not ask her to stay through the uncertainty, and while I HATE it, I have been a fan long enough to understand how he could slip back to being that kind of emotional chicken. There were other reminders of that first time Sam left as well. His not knowing what to do when she came down with her bag, his trying to come up with a different solution, it was all so familiar to me. When Sam walked over and picked up the dragon, and told him she still believed that they were stronger together, I felt a lump immediately form in my throat. When Jason asked, “Why leave?”, my lips trembled, because I know what it cost for him to ask that, when he thinks he is doing the right thing for Sam. But when Sam answered she was leaving because she needed him to believe that, the tears came. Believing is the key, and unless he can do that, she knows there’s no use in staying. (Just like in ’04 *tears*) I have to admit that the little things that went into this scene really did strike a tender chord with me: The fact that Sam took the dragon with her, and not the phoenix, was beautiful and meaningful. It shows that she still believes in Jason’s ability to be the protection she told Jason the baby needed. That says so much to us about her love and her faith in him, even when he has no faith in himself.

My JaSam-Loving heart heard all of the unspoken stuff loud and clear. Like when Sam walked past him to take her suitcase, and Jason put his hand on the handle, fighting the need to wrestle her for it. (Anyone remember Jason taking Sam’s hand off the elevator button?)¬†Back in 2004, Jason let Sam go, even though it tore his heart out, and even though it made us want to throw him down the elevator shaft. Jason let her go today, too. The best parallel I see in all of this is that it didn’t take Jason long at all to realize the mistake he’d made. Not then; not today. Jason was left to suffer silently as he cried and held only the tiny phoenix in his hand, and reminisced about the sweet moments where they exchanged the perfect gifts. Those memories made Jason realize that Sam was, in fact, the one to “turn bad luck into good.”¬†The pain in his eyes made me terribly sad as he stared at Sam’s (lovely) picture. But I had to admit that¬†“It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy.” This hurt is exactly what Jason needs right now to help him see what was right in front of him all along: Together, he and Sam, the phoenix and the dragon, bring double happiness.¬†

Hang in there, beloved!




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Hola, GHers!

I hope your day is off to a great start!

So The Avengers came to town, huh? Hey, anything that gives me the chance to lay my eyes on that adorable Cameron is just cool beans! But I will let you in on a little secret. I love the word, AVENGER. In fact, I love the meaning of the word AVENGER.

Merriam-Webster’s Dictionary defines it like this:
1: one who takes vengeance for or on behalf of
2: one who exacts satisfaction for (a wrong) by punishing the wrongdoer

I love the word so much that when I was little, I would dream of growing up to be an AVENGER. Not the kind in the comic book series, though I am sure they are exciting and awesome and everything a comic ¬†series should be. But the kind of AVENGER I wanted to be was different. I got bullied by our neighbors for the first few years of my life, and believe it or not, my chubba-wubba, tom-boy, rough n’ tumble little sister (I am not proud) would come out and do some crazy hulk thing, and chase all my tormentors away. At night, as I would lie in bed, my scrawny butt shaking for fear of what the next day would bring, I dreamed of growing up into a scary, strong, AVENGER with a death stare that would make all neighborhood bullies pee in their pants.

I got my wish, except for the strong part – the¬†gym and I never really got along. ūüėČ Somewhere along the way, I realized that fear is in the eye of the beholder, and I never let anyone see fear in me again – unless it was their own. Even now, when my kids’ friends are in trouble, or being bullied by anyone, my kids come home to the AVENGER (NON)MANSION, and tell me all about it. I once cornered their school principal on the front lawn of the school, and ripped him a new one for teasing a student about his “skips”. I let him know in no uncertain terms that I would make sure he never made a child feel embarrassed again. When I noticed a commotion from the corner of my eye, I glanced towards the school to see the boy I was defending and his entire class standing on the benches in the hall, pasted against the plate glass windows, cheering and pumping their fists…and that was long before Jersey Shore. LOL.

It feels good to know that you are defending those who can’t do it for themselves; to be an AVENGER. Those of you who’ve been an avenger know what I am talking about, and I imagine many of you have been, just because I feel a connection with so many. I can hear it in your comments, and I can see it in your reactions to the story lines we’ve experienced together over the years we’ve been taking this journey via this vehicle. It makes me proud, and gives me hope for our soap, even when ¬†it looks like it does right now.

More on that later, though.

For now, let me just point out that THE AVENGERS weren’t only on the big screen in Port Charles. They were everywhere; avenging someone who needed avenging.

Awww, Spinelli! As undeserving as Maxie has been of his love and loyalty, he is still spending his every waking moment trying to be THE AVENGER who comes to her rescue, gets her cleared of all charges, and gives her her life back! You’ve gotta love Spinelli’s willingness to hang in there when all Maxie wants to do is hang herself, and Matt is at the movies with Liz’s son. Spin is already the superhero to me!

Dante and Olivia obviously need to learn that “crazy bitch” doesn’t just mean that someone is acting like one of their crazy Falconeri Clan. In Heather’s case, “crazy bitch” means she’ll rip your world apart, and you’ll be lucky to find yourself still standing when she’s done, a la Jeff Webber, Diana Taylor, Edward Quartermaine, and lest we forget, Luke Spencer. Why Dante and Olivia are having that big, old, all-important conversation about Steve’s secrets within her earshot is beyond me, but I know one thing: Heather will be preparing to take on the role of THE AVENGER. Whom she will be avenging, or against who she will be seeking her vengeance, remains to be seen. But don’t take your eyes off her, or you may miss it.

It’s too bad these two Falconeris are embroiled in Steve Webber’s case, because there is one crazy Falconeri who could really use their help. Connie. Or is it Kate? Or Konnie? Frankly, I am having trouble keeping track, but the one thing I will tell you is that the only thing even keeping my eyes on that screen for this hot MESS of a JESS/TESS/BESS retelling is the fact that Kelly Sullivan has found a way to make me feel, if not sorry, for Kate, at least empathetic towards Connie for doing anything and everything she could to protect the refined, yet wimpy, Kate from becoming a victim of Sonny’s love again. I get why Connie needed to be THE AVENGER for Kate, I really do! Not that I agree with this newest sex scandal to hit Port Charles, but I get why Connie felt so desperate to sever all ties between Kate and Sonny permanently. She didn’t trust Kate to get it done. I give Ms. Sullivan props for being able to switch so much more seamlessly from when this story began between crass, cold-blooded, Connie, to the terrified, repentant Kate, in an instant. It’s pretty cool to watch – if not the story, at least her portrayal of both personalities.

I really HATE the fact that Johnny crossed the line he himself had drawn in the sand, and went against his very instincts. All that to take on the role of THE AVENGER, only to feel good about it for less time than it took to undress. Here, too, I totally get why John would need to avenge his sister’s-I mean mother’s – death, and even the hell Sonny gave her; I do. I just wish that we didn’t have to deal with one more time where a woman is victimized sexually only in an attempt to feed storyline. Why am I saying that she was victimized sexually when Connie nearly raped John herself? Because all you needed to do was take one look at John’s face when he had to break the news to the hysterical Kate that they had slept together, to know that John himself saw her as a victim. And if he sees her as the victim, it’s only natural that he (and thousands of others) will see him as the…

It makes me wonder if Frank Valentini didn’t tweet that Brandon Barash wasn’t going anywhere because he knew that in a few days, there may be those who cannot separate character from actor, who are demanding he be fired. (We’ve all seen that before) I really do hate how this went down, and it left a knot in the pit of my stomach that John, who really is a decent person, would have any part of this.

In contrast, I really LOVE that Carly was the collateral damage in this train wreck, only because for years, we have watched everyone else be the collateral damage of her own train wrecks, while she walks away unscathed. It did not surprise me one little bit that Carly made her way over to Sonny’s to play THE AVENGER for…herself. She is such a selfish bitch – it didn’t even occur to her to give Sonny some time to mourn getting another year older AND finding his girlfriend in bed with his worst enemy all on the same night. It makes me wish Sonny would roll Carly around on the floor towards the blazing fire that’s eating up his memories of Kate. Maybe her hairspray would catch on fire! ūüėČ

Allow me to preface my next paragraph with this one true statement: I DETEST THE WAY JASAM’S STORY HAS BEEN WRITTEN SINCE THE LAST TIME THEY WERE AT THEIR CABIN, BONDING OVER THEIR THEN BABY BUMP. I think the writers gave up a golden opportunity to actually write a phenomenal, original – and therefore unrivaled, Baby storyline here. I honestly think that had they written this Baby Morgan without all the same, played-out Who’s The Daddy crap all over again, viewers might have fallen in love with the idea of a husband and a wife sharing the love, the natural ¬†and spontaneous issues that come with every pregnancy, the roller-coasters of hormones and emotions, and the magic that comes from this once-in-a-lifetime experience. More than that, having Jason and Sam actually enjoy this pregnancy without all of this darkness surrounding it, would have been the one thing soaps fail to do 99% of the time, and would have made GH the trailblazer once again! *smdh* I cannot even remember the last time I enjoyed a soap baby’s arrival with the only cliffhanger being whether it would be a boy or a girl. What a missed opportunity!

That being said, I have to admit that I saw something in Wednesday’s scenes and heard something in the dialogue that gave me a rare moment of pause. I had to share it with you, and see what you all think. It occurred to me that maybe, just maybe, in his own, dark, twisted way, Ron Carlivati wrote himself as THE AVENGER in this story. Hear (read) me out before you think I am the crazy one here. When I think of all the times Jason and Liz have spoken over the past couple of years, I felt that there was always a play on words that would pacify one fanbase while infuriating another. While I still don’t think both fanbases were thrilled about Jason confiding in Liz, I did see a marked difference in these scenes. Liz wasn’t making references to their “connection”, or trying to tell Jason something covert without saying the words. Mostly, she was listening and telling him the only thing she could tell him, which was to talk to his wife, because OBVIOUSLY Jason is heartbroken and completely falling apart at the very thought that Sam is confiding in another man. Yes, you read that correctly. Jason, the one who should hang a freakin’ shingle outside his door identifying himself as a women’s therapist as he counsels every past lover he’s ever had, is upset because his wife is talking to A man. Singular. As I watched Jason coming apart as though he were the hormonal, pregnant one, and jumping to all kinds of conclusions about Sam not wanting him at her appt. with Kelly Lee, I realized that our Stone Cold – or shall I say this time – IRON MAN Jason Morgan, is terrified that he is losing his wife! Of course Liz had to lock down her whoremones! Even she could see that Jason is about a day away from crying like a girl over the thought of Sam turning to someone else to be her Captain America and save the world! I mean, go back and watch the scenes. Take note of how many times Jason, who deals in black and white, is stumbling blindly into gray areas of “What Ifs” regarding his fears about what Sam’s connection to John might really be. “She wasn’t alone. She was with him.”¬†“If I hadn’t shown up at GH for that checkup, Sam might have had McBain beside her for the DNA test.” ¬†And my personal favorite, “Sam and I should be talking about this together, working it out together, but she’s confiding in McBain, and that’s the problem.” ¬†Fear is a funny thing – it makes Jason suddenly want to be a talker, when just earlier that day, he was telling Sam “talking wouldn’t change anything.” ¬†And perhaps Jason forgets that until a couple of weeks ago, he was morphing into The Hulk every time anyone said or did anything to him that he couldn’t control. Maybe Sam just needed to let it all out without a fear of killing him or turning him into some creature with bulging veins! Jason couldn’t even see that he is upset at Sam for turning to someone for a listening ear, when he stormed off onto the roof and did the exact, same thing – with yet another one of his past lovers. If I wasn’t sure that he would survive because of his super-longevity like Thor, I might push him off the roof myself, Big Baby! ¬†Perhaps Mr. Carlivati is avenging all of the times that Sam had to wait around, and walk away, and leave the room, while Jason “was there” for Carly or Robin or Courtney or Liz or Brenda. Perhaps the only way to do that was to give Jason a taste of his own nasty ass medicine!

It doesn’t mean he – or we – will like it, but who really likes medicine? Besides, if it’s being forced down our throats, there’s not much we can do, except make a whole lotta noise about how AWFUL it is, the way our kids do!

I also think that the writers are so intent on avenging Sam’s heartaches and hurts over the years, that they have also cast McBain to serve as THE AVENGER onscreen, a.k.a. Plot Point. Listening carefully to the dialogue of this story that sometimes makes me want to beg for mercy, I hear John McPain saying all of the things that, try as we might, we cannot ignore or deny. When Sam told John that Jason was furious that she opened up to him at the church, John answered, “Good, next time he won’t leave you there, crying.” For a minute, I thought I was in church, and cried, “Amen!” as if he had just preached gospel! We can’t shut off the truth in the fact that Jason has failed Sam here. This nightmare isn’t her fault. Franco is not on her. Being raped was not her choice. But loving Jason¬†has always been her choice, and putting him first has always been her choice. So, if Jason has to be brought down by fear and insecurities in order to make him see just how piss poor he has filled the role of husband during this latest test, so be it. If Jason feels that he has to fight like hell for his wife, or lose her to someone who’s listening to, supporting and understanding her, then avenge away, McPain In My Butt!¬†

I just want to remind us all of something. In the past, there have been many times we have wished for Sam to have her own Carly to turn to, just so that Jason could get a feel for it. There were times where we ranted at the TV, angry that Jason lent an ear, or a shoulder, or the regrettably pink room, to one of his former concubines, while Sam was left to learn to live with it. The shoe is finally on the other foot, and class is in session for Jason! If we can enjoy NOTHING ELSE about Funeral Hospital these days, let THAT be it: The fact that Jason will finally have to be the one on the outside looking in. I hope that time on the outside chills him right down to his balls, and that he is paralyzed with fear at the thought of losing THE. BEST. THING. THAT. HAS. EVER. HAPPENED. TO. HIM. 

I still believe that even the our new fearless (of losing viewers) leaders know that the love story Jason and Sam share is so much of THE BEAUTY OF GH.¬†Jason and Sam will triumph.¬†They may tinkle and toy with them, but they’re not stupid.¬†

Why risk having to face the wrath of all of us?  THE AVENGERS OF TRUE LOVE!

Don’t wait to let them know exactly how this storyline, and all of the other tragedies happening in Port Charles make you feel! Let them know that you are fighting to keep GH alive, but there’s nothing we can do if they are intent on killing the very heart of the show!

SO, AVENGERS ASSEMBLE! And let them know we are #TeamJaSam!

“And there came a day, a day unlike any other, when Earth’s mightiest (SOAP) heroes were united against a common threat – CANCELLATION! On that day The Avengers were born ‚ÄĒ to fight foes no single hero could withstand!”

I believe in you, guys! And I can’t wait to bask with you all in the glow of being THE AVENGERS!

Fight fearlessly,



TGIF, GHers!

I hope that you are all enjoying the same kind of fabulous weather we are enjoying in Jersey! I LOVE IT!

Am I the only one who finally exhaled after today’s episode of GH?


Truly, I thought Luke’s warning to Lulu:¬†“Brace Yourself, ‘Cause You’re Not Gonna Like It!”,¬†was a bit of foreboding for us all. Thankfully, it was just a sign that GH was gonna deliver some good ol’ classic soap.


Still, had I been given the opportunity to warn Spinelli myself, I would have warned,¬†“Brace Yourself, ‘Cause You’re Not Gonna Like It!”¬†How difficult it must be for Spin to keep slamming into the brick wall of his Maximista’s resolve to punish herself for Robin’s death by self-destructing and taking the blame for Lisa’s murder. Bradford Anderson rarely gets the chance anymore to show us what he’s made of, but I have not forgotten. He never fails to show us Spinelli’s vulnerability and innocence, in spite of the fact that he works for Stone Cold. Today was no exception. I was completely sold that Spin’s hearts literally breaks for Maxie and the pain she’s feeling over Robin’s loss, and it reminded me that once upon a time not that long ago, Spin and Maxie were a couple I was rooting for. When he brought in Maxie’s makeup, I felt a lump in my throat. These are the reasons that I will always believe that Maxie walked away from the man who would love her like no other, and most importantly, would always believe the best of her first. What a mistake. And to think that Maxie is even involved in the Lisa Niles’ murder mess because she was afraid for Matt and his involvement in it just adds to the heart ache, because he is so undeserving. Perhaps this nightmare and the support that stays the staunchest will help Maxie to see that she still has a choice about the man she trusts her heart to.

I am hoping that Maxie will be allowed to have some friends nearby during this crisis. Perhaps when Lulu is done hanging out with her dad’s crowd over at The Floating Rib, she can take some time for her old friend, especially since Maxie made it easy for her by getting herself stuck at her job. Lulu’s relationship with her dad hasn’t been an easy one – or a healthy one. When Lulu walked into the bar formerly known as Jake’s and started berating him for being in a bar on the anniversary of Jake’s death, I thought to myself that this role reversal is one of the biggest issues for her. Lulu is always doing the parenting in this relationship, and maybe she needs to leave that responsibility to Luke from now on. Of course, it would help if Luke wasn’t always about to say something to his daughter that required¬†“Brace Yourself, ‘Cause You’re Not Gonna Like It!” as a preface.¬†Luke should know better than telling Lulu something that he was going to ask her to keep from her “cop” husband. Hasn’t his being her dad put enough of a strain on her relationships?

Besides, Dante’s already got his mother keeping secrets from him – and it is a mother of a secret, too. I was actually a bit surprised that Liv would lie to her baby’s face, especially while he was on the job, all in an effort to make a deal with her ex-lover to save her current lover. I would have to say that before Dante is told what his mama was really doing at Johnny’s, someone issue the familiar warning:“Brace Yourself, ‘Cause You’re Not Gonna Like It!”

Awww, was I the only one who was happy to see Anna and Noah come face to face again? While I have to agree with Noah that I wished it was under better circumstances, reunions like theirs I’ll take under any circumstances! I am sure that Anna would have welcomed the opportunity to catch up with Noah, chat about their granddaughter, and discuss how they could help Patrick get through this together over a cup of coffee and some shared tears, but Noah had other plans. “Brace Yourself, Anna, ‘Cause You’re Not Gonna Like It!”¬†No one would like having to hear what Noah had to say when she was already saying the very same thing to herself. Noah let her know, in no uncertain terms, that he was not going to let Anna take out her pain on Patrick. It was interesting to see both parents reacting to their child’s pain, in spite of the fact that their connection is about more than their children having been married. I thought Patrick coming in to back Noah off, because he earnestly felt he deserves everything Anna had to say, was just the thing to convince Anna that she was doing the right thing by offering him heartfelt apology. I wept during their conversation, mostly because as a mom, I totally understand everything Anna has felt: from wanting to rip Patrick a new one, to being devastated at realizing that her daughter had kept things from her. Mostly I understood when Anna warned Patrick that the ass-kicking Robin saved him from by not telling her about his cheating would have been a bad one. What mother wouldn’t want to beat the crap out of anyone who hurts her baby? And as Anna said, what mother wouldn’t want to murder the woman who tore her daughter’s life apart? If I were Anna, I would console myself with that. That Robin didn’t tell her because she knew Anna would have murdered that crazy bitch at the first sign of trouble. It might someday even give her a reason to smile.

One thing that did not give me a reason to smile was Jason when he first got home. In fact, when Jason yelled at Sam that “it was his life,” I had an Ally McBeal moment where I walked in, stood between him and Sam, and asked him to hand me his gun. So that I could shoot him between the eyes. As for the rest of it, I tried really hard to try and look at this issue between him and Sam as impartially as I possibly could. Sam never thought that what she was doing in keeping the truth from Jason was the right thing. And she never thought there weren’t intrinsic consequences that would come as a result of her choices. In fact, she told Carly that she would rather have Jason pissed at her, but alive. I am not saying that Sam deserves any of the bullshit Jason has dished out at her, and neither am I saying that Sam was wrong. What I am saying is that she knew it wouldn’t be the right choice for Jason, and she was still okay with that, because the benefits outweighed the risks. It’s something I would have done myself, placed in the same position. However, I would have to be prepared to do something else Sam did, and that was apologize. I was having a tough time today in trying to understand how Sam apologizing for something she knew was wrong for the man she loves was seen as weak by some. I thought Sam was giving as good as she was getting in their conversation. I thought she was fighting for Jason to see her side. That didn’t make her weak – that made her the fighter I know her to be. So easily, Jason could have shut down, focused on what Carly convinced him was a betrayal, and stayed there, but Sam was not allowing him to stay there. I’m sorry if it upsets you when I say this, but Sam did owe Jason an apology, and she knew that the moment she made the decision. Offering an apology doesn’t make someone weak, it makes them strong enough to admit that sometimes we do the wrong things for all of the right reasons under the sun. I loved that Sam apologized for doing the one thing Jason hates the most, but I loved even more that she was willing to tell Jason “Brace Yourself, ‘Cause You’re Not Gonna Like It!”, but if I could go back, I would do the same thing.¬†I’m sorry, but that just doesn’t sound like a weak, pathetic woman to me. Sam made apologies for doing something she knew would not sit well with him, but she wasn’t making apologies for the reasons she did it. That’s the Sam I know and love.

As for Jason, sure he was holding on to the fact hat Sam took away his power of choice like a dog with a bone, but I thought he seemed to get it when Sam defended her rationale. As for Jason¬†“rubbing Liz in her face”, I’m sorry. I just didn’t see it. To me, it would have been a hundred times worse for Jason to have come home and not told Sam that truth right away. And judging from Sam’s reaction, Liz is not a threat to their marriage, and therefore, neither was the truth about them talking about their dead son on the anniversary of his death. There wasn’t even a need for Jason to offer an advisement of¬†“Brace Yourself, ‘Cause You’re Not Gonna Like It!”¬†I thought the way he told Sam about seeing Liz on the bridge was very matter-0f-fact, and inconsequential to them as a couple. I didn’t see him saying it to hurt Sam at all. Even when Jason said that Liz said it wasn’t Sam’s fault, and he knew that, I took that to mean just that. Liz said it, but he knew it. Liz’s comment was superfluous, because the fact that his anger and pain weren’t Sam’s fault wasn’t something he was even entertaining. I must say that I know Jason pretty well. I did say yesterday that this was about two things for Jason, and both of them involved Robin. 1. He couldn’t save Robin, and 2. Robin saved him. Jason told Sam today that he was angry with Robin, but we all know that more than that, Robin’s death forced Jason to put down that superhero cape of his. Of course he doesn’t know what to do with that. Jason was lost. Sam and their baby were his compass this time, and helped him find his way back. That’s why he loves her.

Do I still think the writers were way off on his reactions towards Sam for a couple of days there?¬†ABSOFREAKINLUTELY!¬†We know our Jason as well as Sam does! But what’s done is done. They did a good job at bringing me to a place where I could be as content as Sam was, lying in her husband’s lap, and finally able to get some sleep after a few sleepless nights. Jason and Sam talking peacefully on the couch like the good ol’ days was The Beauty of GH for me today. Like most of you, I couldn’t stop thinking about Jason’s outrageous behavior towards Sam either. Let’s just be thankful that the thought of Sam leaving their home freaked Jason out as much as it did us, and he grabbed onto her, told her he loved her, and didn’t let go.¬†Most of all, let’s be thankful that Mr. & Mrs. Morgan needed to reconnect almost as much as we needed them to! (Hence the over 1,000,000 YouTube views of their wedding night!)

Too bad that it should have gone without saying that even with the new headwriter in place, we should have recognized the warning.“Brace Yourself, JaSammers, ‘Cause You’re Not Gonna Like It!”

Of course Spinelli would arrive with information that could not wait just as they were racing up the stairs for some “rest!”



The least of our worries, I’m sure!


Keep watching, GHers! It’s now or never!



“I’d Take A Grenade For You”…


“Throw my hand on a blade for you”…

What a day for the books, huh, GHers?

I’ll tell you this: GH watching is no longer for the fainthearted, or the undecided.

You’ve gotta make a decision to love our soap – come hell or high water, explosions or well-intentioned lies, RIGHT NOW. THIS is what soaps used to be about! I feel as though we have been yanked from the stand-still world of GH, where people stood around for days talking to everyone about nothing, and dropped into a a fast-paced drama, where if you take a bathroom break that lasts longer than the 2 minute, 2 second commercial break, you will miss an important piece of a crucial conversation that will leave you stumped later.

So much is happening in Port Charles right now, that I can barely believe how fast the hour flies by. This is what we all wanted! Now that we’ve got it, I get the sense that people just can’t handle it. ūüėČ It’s kinda like being at the amusement park, and people are crying out for the ride to slow down right after it’s taken off. ¬†The thing is that it’s Do or Die for GH right now. Go Big or Go Home. I don’t think there’s time for slowing down while everyone adjusts at this point. It’s buckle up, hunker down, and let’s go!

I am on this ride ’til the end, even though I have a feeling it’s about to get really bumpy.

I am going to be honest and tell you all that I had a few moments of trepidation when I finally caught up on the feedback from Wednesday’s epi. I thought about going to Youtube to spend my time revisiting happier, less stressful moments in GH History, instead of sitting down to post between a rock and a hard place. I know I am about to opine in some way that is going to piss someone off, as there are lots of different opinions on what went down out there. We are not always going to see eye to eye, and we haven’t always seen eye to eye in the past, but when emotions are simmering as they are right now, I dread stepping on any of the toes that make their way over to Bella Mafia regularly. I appreciate all of you, and want you to understand that I respect everyone’s right to their opinion. That being said, there wouldn’t be a Bella Mafia if I didn’t share my own opinion, so I’m going to take a deep breath and do just that.

I hope each of you will take from my opinion what you can agree with, and just leave what you can’t agree with right here. On Thursday, there will thankfully be another episode of GH to enjoy on our screens – and THAT is what’s most important.


Was I the only one humming Bruno Mars’ “Grenade” after GH yesterday?

Perhaps it was Sonny who started the whole thing with his heartfelt declaration to Dante that he would lie down in front of a train for him. While that may have sounded clich√© to our ears, it’s exactly the kind of thing Sonny would say. I know that there are some of the opinion that this whole Dante and Sonny bonding was a bit too much, too soon, but if someone being willing to take a bullet for you doesn’t warm you up to them, NOTHING will. Besides, we can’t forget that while Dante was Dominic, and working for Sonny, he really grew to like Sonny in spite of himself. Let’s not forget that Dante always missed having ¬†a father in his life, and from personal experience, I know that even when we deny it to the death, the lure of having that relationship we missed is terribly tempting. I can’t really blame Dante for wanting to put down the anger and the resentment in order to take up a possibility for a relationship with his dad. In fact, I am pulling for them to be able to work it out. I think¬† Dante has a very positive effect on his father.

Kate has already taken a bullet for Sonny, but apparently, that’s where she draws the line. She is not willing, or perhaps¬†not able,¬†to watch Sonny take a bullet; not¬†for anyone, not even his son. Once Olivia was able to get Kate to “come back out of herself” again, she got her off that parking garage floor and away from that crime scene and to Sonny’s side. Kate’s reaction to seeing Sonny was more than relief, I thought. It was like a bunch of bottled up emotions came rushing out at the sight of him, and I find that to be incredibly interesting for what it could mean! We have all seen the trauma that the violence surrounding Sonny’s life has caused Kate. I don’t think she ever really got over her own shooting. Seeing Sonny shot, and perhaps even wondering if she had anything to do with it, seemed to affect her in ways for which she wasn’t prepared. Kate is hanging by a thread, and has made it very clear to Sonny that if he retaliate against Anthony, putting himself in the line of fire again, she is done. (Though I’m thinking she may already be done, and just doesn’t realize it)

Spinelli has also already taken a bullet for Maxie, but it didn’t end there. He continues to give her all he has, but she won’t do the same. I think Maxie has used up all of her selfish credits with me for the freakin’ year! She has been unusually self-centered, even for Maxie. The way she’s played Spin, her absence from Sam’s life at such a crucial time, the awful way she minimized Robin’s work in the lab, and the way she treated her before setting off the gas leak that caused the explosion, have all rubbed me the wrong way. So much so that I can’t even balance it out with the way she has handed Liz’s butt right back to her at every turn. While I think Jen Lilley is doing an awesome job making this role her own, I guess I am having a tough time finding the sympathy I can usually drudge up for Maxie with Jen in the roll. It’s nothing personal against Jen; it’s just that she brings a different feel to the character, and I guess I just haven’t connected with it yet. That’s not to say it won’t happen, it just hasn’t happened yet. Either way, Maxie is going to have to come face to face with the people who’ve been hurt by her selfish choices sooner or later. I just don’t know how she can keep facing Spin without seeing just how much she’s hurting him.


I mentioned yesterday that I don’t normally cry over Scrubs’ scenes, but did during that tragic goodbye scene on Tuesday. There is a reason why. Someone mentioned that this storyline has made them look up Scrubs on Youtube. I get how that might happen, but for me, it’s a little different. I watch GH live every single day (except in the case of emergencies), therefore,¬†I’ve watched Scrubs since their very first meeting, when Robin interrupted his romp with a nurse at the hospital where he worked before coming to GH, in order to get him to come to Port Charles to operate on Jason. I didn’t miss a thing, and watched their relationship evolve, and¬†watched their love grow. It’s not that I didn’t like Scrubs, it’s just that I didn’t really consider myself a Scrubs fan. I guess you could say they never pulled me in, or that they didn’t affect me the way other couples have. There is a reason, and I thought I should share it. You see, while Robin and Patrick made for a great love story – two superstar doctors, experts in their respective fields, both control freaks – getting on each other’s nerves and under each other’s skin, until they realized that under all of that annoyance and bad blood, they were really in love. Classic and sweet, yes. It’s obvious that this was a formula for success, as Scrubs have many loyal fans. As for me, I was happy they worked it out. Happy Robin got pregnant and that Patrick was the father. Even happy that they had two weddings, and finally got married. However, I wouldn’t have shed a tear if any of those things hadn’t happened. Why? Theirs is not the kind of love story that appealed to me. That’s not a dig, or a putdown; it’s just a fact. I guess it stems from the fact that Patrick and Robin never convinced me that they were willing to put each other first. Throughout their relationship, it has almost always been a battle over whose needs came first. When we go back and look at the rough patches in their relationship, it is almost always because of selfishness, or a lack of being able to put the other first. I’m not saying that Patrick and Robin weren’t willing to catch a grenade for each other, because I do believe they were. It’s just that in the little things that matter to me as a viewer, thy didn’t convince me those things mattered to them. That didn’t make them bad people¬†– it just made them Patrick and Robin. It’s who they were. Personally, I have a hard time investing in a relationship like that, even in real life, but that’s just me, and I guess the other viewers who didn’t count themselves among the many Scrubs fans.¬†The thing is, that as I read the comments, the texts, fb messages, and took a peek at my Twitter timeline (before feeling the need for a Valium),¬†I saw people blame Patrick for what happened to Robin. I saw people blame Jason for what happened to Robin. I saw people blame Sam for what happened to Robin. I even saw people blame Steve and Kelly for what happened to Robin! (The occasional delusionals are constantly looking for a new way to hate)¬†What I did not see enough of was anyone placing blame where it belonged. On Robin herself.¬† *takes cover*¬† PLEASE. Hear me out. As I saw the tragedy surrounding The Doctors Scorpio play out onscreen, I was immediately struck by the sad and disappointing fact that Robin making the choice to ignore her husband’s pleas and warnings that going back into the lab was too dangerous, and making a run for the lab, in spite of those pleas, was a last act of selfishness. Now, I hate to speak ill of even the fictional dead – but Robin’s need to be the one to save Jason took precedence over her need to put her family first. Yes, Robin is a doctor, and saving lives is what she signed up for, but dammit – she is also a wife, mother, daughter, niece, and friend. How dare she not stop to think of how her actions would affect her loved ones?Robin had to drag her unconscious husband out of the lab after he passed out from the fumes! Robin knew that going back in there was almost certainly going to end in tragedy, and she knew taking off like that while Patrick lay helpless to stop her, would leave him with the burden of her death should she not make it back out. She did it anyway. When you love someone, you have to be willing to put your own needs aside, and be willing to do whatever your partner needs FIRST. And Patrick needed her to stay safe. Alive. There for him and Emma. Robin neglected his needs because she needed to get the protocol. Patrick wasn’t asking Robin to take a grenade, put her hand on a blade, or anything nearly as drastic. He was asking her to do quite the opposite. I’m sorry, but how can anyone not hold Robin herself responsible for that?

Sam took a lot of heat today. She also took a lot of heat yesterday. I have a feeling that she’s going to take more heat over the next couple of weeks than a bun in the oven would. I am not surprised, but it doesn’t mean that I completely understand. In fact, I remain completely in Sam’s corner, and I will tell you why. Sam happened upon the scene of the explosion in time to see Patrick fighting to get to his wife, and since his wife is also the one person holding her husband’s life in her hands, whatever happened to Robin would have a direct impact on Jason’s very life. Sam was there when Patrick got the news that Robin was gone, and saw the beginning of his emotional breakdown, but in my opinion, Sam had no business approaching Patrick. It was a private moment over a very personal loss. Sam and Patrick don’t have the kind of¬†relationship that would give her the right to intrude upon his grief. I also don’t think that Patrick needed someone to hold his hand, or offer words of comfort just then. He needed to do exactly what he did – let it out.¬†I thought Sam did the right thing in leaving. I also think she did the right thing in going¬†back to Jason, as we saw that she got there just in time before Jason weft off on¬†his own. I guess I am having trouble understanding why people are upset that Sam is all about Jason. He is her husband. The love of her life. The father of the baby she’s wanted more than anything. Why must that translate into being weak or needy? *shaking head in confusion* You know, anyone who knows me personally will tell you that I am a strong, independent woman. I have always been my own person, and I don’t think anyone would call me needy or clingy, even behind my back!¬†ūüėČ However, when my husband was recently in the hospital with what turned out to be gall stones, I was by his side,¬†holding his hand,¬†every second. I only left him to go hunt down a doctor, or to harass a nurse for pain meds, or to see to any other need he might have had. While we were waiting for answers from the doctors, as gall stone episodes often mimic a¬† heart attack, I was terrified. The mere thought of losing my husband was enough to bring me to my knees! I will not make apologies when I tell you that as long as my husband was “in danger”, I had one priority, and one priority only: him. That didn’t make me weak or pathetic, it made me the kind of partner he has been to me. I totally understood why Sam needed to be near Jason in those moments after finding out that his one hope of survival has just died. I would have run through the hospital and into my his arms! Sam is being the kid of partner Jason has been to her! Jason, even before he and Sam acknowledged the love they share, has aways been right by Sam’s side whenever she was the one in the hospital. Why wasn’t anyone worrying that Jason was being weak or pathetic? I’ll tell you why! Because we were all too busy falling in love with Jason and Sam a little more each time they demonstrated that kind of love that we all want, and deserve! Sam probably took the most heat for lying to Jason about Robin’s death. This, to is mind-boggling to me! If you go back and rewatch the scene, Sam is clearly shaken when she reaches Jason, and is trying to find the words to tell him what happened to Robin. (She still took less time than Patrick did telling Anna! ūüėČ ) Sam told Jason there was an explosion. She told him that it was in the lab. She told him it was Robin’s lab. And then Jason got one of those headaches. that. could. kill. him.

I am going to guarantee you that anyone in Sam’s shoes, who knew that any kind of stress could KILL the person they love, and had information that would cause stress unlike any other, they would lie their ass off! I know I would! I guess what I am having the toughest time wrapping my brain around is that I know had Sam told Jason the truth, and he went tumbling to the floor and into a coma, Sam would have been raked over the freakin’ coals for telling him! She’s damned if she does, and damned if she doesn’t.

I think the most unfair attack regarding Sam was the accusation that she is selfish for lying to Jason. WHAAAAAAAAAAT??? No one understands more clearly than I just how important it is for Jason and Sam not to have secrets, much less a lie, between them. Anyone that thinks it didn’t kill Sam to lie to Jason, knowing the repercussions a decision like that could have on their relationship, is in serious denial. I think the fact she would rather lie, than risk his life, shows just how unselfish Sam is! For her, it was more important to keep Jason alive than to worry about how angry he would be with her later.¬†Sam wasn’t¬†trying to keep Jason from finding about Robin simply because she didn’t want him to know. Obviously he is going to find out at some point. It’s just that finding out now – before he gets the treatment that would keep his brain¬†from exploding, ¬†would most certainly kill him. As far as I am concerned, Sam made the only choice she could, and even Monica agreed with me.

After talking to Monica, Sam , who is pregnant, hormonal, exhausted, scared to death, sleep and nutrition deprived,¬†facing the possibility of bringing a child into the world on her own, and basically all over the place, was trying to absorb the mind-numbing realization that Jason’s only chance at survival just died with Robin in the explosion. Can you imagine what that feels like? Nor can I. Do I wish that Sam had been able to get the words out about how sorry she was for Patrick’s loss¬†before she laid eyes on the test tube with his name on it? Of course! But I can certainly understand how any other thought completely flew out of her head when she realized that there may be hope after all. If we could ask Sam, I’d bet she’d say hate her all you want. I’d dare say that given the choice, Sam would live with that hatred in a heartbeat, as long as it meant Jason gets to live as well.

Yes, Sam would take a grenade for Jason, throw her hand on¬†a blade, jump in front of a train…she’d do anything for the man she loves. As Jason would for her.


It’s also why I am willing to take the grenade that will surely come from my position on this impossible situation for Sam.

It’s okay. She’s worth it!


Much love,