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That’s The Only Way This Story Ends

Good morning, GHers.

I wonder when the tears will end while watching GH. Surely I can’t cry every single day until Jason comes back to his family!

As I told you guys yesterday, I am weary of trusting those in charge of what comes out of Sam’s mouth, so I take it day by day. I wasn’t sure what to expect from our Sam today, but I must say that I was not disappointed in the least! While it broke my heart to think that Sam was in such denial that she wasn’t dealing with her pain, I am glad I didn’t rush to judgment.

I kinda had the same reaction as The Davis Girls. Not sure what to think, and wondering if Sam might be facing a breakdown, and flat out worried for her. It seemed at first that Sam just wasn’t dealing with what had happened the night before, and I could totally understand why Alexis and her sisters might feel that she was simply in denial. Everyone deals with tragedy and grief differently, and so her family just assumed Sam was dealing with it by simply convincing herself that it didn’t happen. What else could they think as they sat there in stunned silence as Sam said, “Jason’s coming back. I know he is. That’s the only why this story ends.  Let’s be honest. If we were any one of the Davis Girls, we would have been exchanging the same, exact bewildered looks between ourselves.

When Sam explained how last spring she was handed a dead baby and told that it was hers, and how everyone accepted that truth, except for her, I immediately felt the lump form in my throat. When she said that’s exactly how it was now with Jason, I cried, because Sam can feel that Jason is alive. She knows it in her heart, just as she did with her son, and this time, she doesn’t want to waste any time going against what she knows in her heart. *sobbing* What courage and resolve Sam showed in the face of being looked at as though she had six heads. How many of us would even dare to believe in a situation like this hers?

I will say that I give Alexis so much credit for reacting so quickly and trying to appease Sam by agreeing that it was possible – for Jason, specifically, to have survived, because he had certainly survived worse over the years. I am not sure how many mothers would have gotten it so quickly, but it was obvious to Alexis just how badly Sam needed someone to believe with her. (The poor thing) I felt for all of them, because I know it was an impossible situation for all involved, as Sam is convinced that her husband is alive, and her family was desperate to help her through something she refuses to accept. Molly especially broke my heart, because no one has been a greater or stronger supporter of Jason and Sam’s Love Story than Molly. Watching her with tears swimming in her eyes at the thought that the one true Love Story she had dared to believe in would end tragically after all was tough. I would hate it if Molly lost faith in True Love, especially since Jason and Sam championed on its behalf so often with her.

Alexis and the girls’ mistake was in talking about what about what they really thought about Jason’s chances within Sam’s range of hearing.  Her no-holds-barred reaction to hearing them talk about how unreasonable it was for Sam to be so hopeful clearly stunned Alexis and the girls, but I totally get that Sam just cannot abide any other belief than the one that Jason is alive and coming back to her right now. She is fighting like hell to keep that hope alive and surrounding their son, because she fears the alternatives so terribly. *wipes tears* 

When Sam held that door open and told them it was time for them to leave, I was torn. I knew that it was hurting her family, but I am not sure that they truly understood how much it hurts Sam that they won’t believe her heart – AGAIN. In the end, that is what today’s showdown was about. Sam is believing what her heart, not the circumstantial evidence, is telling her once more, and her loved ones are finding it nearly impossible to do the same because it just doesn’t make much sense. Then again, neither did the thought that Sam was given the wrong baby make any sense, and just look at how that turned out.

I did appreciate the fact that Alexis came back before leaving and kissed Sam and told her that she loved her and would be back. Whether Sam wants to hear that right now or not doesn’t matter; as long as she can remember what Alexis said when she needs it most. Clearly, Sam is struggling with the fact that Jason is gone at all, even if he is alive. She wants him home. With her. With their son. She is all too aware of how much time was lost, and somewhere deep down, she blames herself because she didn’t fight hard enough for what she knew in her heart after she was told her baby died. She is going to refuse to make that mistake again. Every moment that was lost to them as a family because of that mistake is a moment she will forever regret, especially now that Jason isn’t with her and Danny.

{Which is why God help Liz Webber if that paper she tried to crush like leaves into that harbor was proof that Jason was Danny ‘s father. If she ran her own test and never told Jason or Sam, I hope Carly personally crushes her like leaves…right off of the highest bridge possible.} 

Anyhoo…

I imagine that it will be a rough and lonely road ahead for Sam as she tries to hold onto the hope that’s keeping her going, as the rest of Jason’s loved ones try to deal with the loss and try to get some closure. Everyone, including Sonny, Carly, and Monica, seem to have accepted that this time, Jason isn’t coming back. That will not be easy for Sam to accept.

However, Die-hards, it wasn’t a coincidence that Sam realized how important it was for Jason to have enough hope for the both of them while they were kept apart by fake circumstances. I bet that realization will help her to have enough hope for the both of them now that they are being kept apart by fake death. They will be together again…“That’s The Only Way This Story Ends.”

I, too, have enough hope for the both of them. What about you?

I hope this inspires you: “JaSam: Hope Now” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1fvgSL44KeM Credit: aproditebeauty

Angelique

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“The Truth Shall Set You Free”…

Hola, GHers!

By now, I hope you’ve all gone over to Facebook to tell them who your favorite GH couple us and why. If not, here is the link: https://www.facebook.com/generalhospital/posts/10150930992478731 There are several Jizzers who post every couple of pages…so sad. *shakes head*

The saying “The Truth Shall Set You Free” is something we’ve all heard throughout our lives. My grandpa always said that there was never a circumstance where the truth wasn’t better than a lie, even if you can’t see it at the time. There have been times in life when I’ve seen people crushed by a truth and questioned that certainty, as in some of those times, the truth has ripped someone’s heart out, or was cruel, or at least I thought, was unnecessary. However, I would have to agree with my grandpa that is does set you free…whether you want it to or not.

For Kate and even Connie, the truth is the only thing that shall set her free from the terrible guilt she is carrying for thinking she murdered Cole and Hope, and yet the one person who can give her that truth is Johnny. Oh, how I struggle with loving Johnny one minute and wanting to whack him myself the very next! Until Kate can remember that Johnny asked Connie to take the blame for shooting out Anthony’s tires, the blame and the guilt will be her burden to carry. And Johnny knows this. *sigh* I know that Johnny thinks he has truly learned his lesson about being consumed with trying to hurt Sonny and the collateral damage it causes, but while that’s a step int he right direction, it’s not enough! Kate has been through so much – and just found out that she went through so much more she didn’t even recall. She is dealing with so many things she feels so guilty about! Johnny owes it to Kate to sit her down and say, “The Truth Shall Set You Free”, and then give her the truth she needs.

Perhaps then Johnny will stop being haunted by all of the  people whose lives he took because of hatred and anger. While he thinks that giving Carly his very best from here on out, and while he is working so hard to give Starr A life back now that he’ stolen the one she had and loved, he still feels imprisoned by his oh-so-guilty about the things he’s done. It’s why he cannot shake the hauntings from Anthony and Hope! Johnny needs to realize that his only hope for any real peace is that “The Truth Shall Set You Free”. 

Sonny continues to move heaven and earth to protect Kate. Too bad he has cried “Wolf!” one too many times when it comes to Johnny being responsible for something terrible, especially since this time Johnny really is the wolf. The Big, Bad One. Dante is riding Sonny about coming clean about Kate, but I have to say, that I am not sure I would trust Dante either if I were Sonny. Last time Sonny trusted him with the truth about Michael’s guilt, he found out that  “The Truth Shall Set You Free” isn’t always…TRUE.

I have always liked Luke and Tracy. Honestly, I have always liked the Tracy part of Luke & Tracy more, and never thought he deserved her love and devotion, but she loves the big lug! I really wish Luke didn’t find it so easy to break Tracy’s heart. In fact, it’s the one thing I have always resented most about Luke – his ability to hurt people so easily. I know that Luke was on his way to tell Tracy the truth about him and Anna, but dammit! He could not have honestly believed that the whole “The Truth Shall Set You Free” thing would have applied here! I am actually thinking that Luke deserved that little “time out” with crazy ass Heather! I hope that whatever “Hot Stuff” she has planned with him will make him realize that his life is full of MISERY without his Spanky Buns!

There were so many times I winced at Tracy’s self-assuredness about Luke while going head to head with Anna. Every time she told Anna that Luke was “not that into her”, I cringed! But I think the worst moment had to be when Tracy remembered that she found Anna in Luke’s bed that morning, and the whole truth of the situation began to dawn on her, bit by awful bit. I thought even Anna regretted taking it upon herself to try to convince Tracy that “The Truth Shall Set You Free”. Too bad it was too late. 😦

When I think of “The Truth Shall Set You Free”, I cannot help but think of our beloved Jason and Sam. That saying could not possibly apply more, could it? So many of the things that are tearing and keeping them apart are things based in lies and untruths! Each little lie that Jason and Sam believed has pushed them further and further apart, from Baby JJ’s paternity to the belief that he died that stormy night, and every other lie in between! I am committed to letting TPTB know that I am barely hanging on here. I tell them all of the things I am missing between the BEST COUPLE on Daytime, and I also let them know that this storyline has completely bored me to tears!

I am hoping that this time, “The Truth Shall Set Us ALL Free!”

Hanging in because of all of you,

Angelique


ROOTS

Good Morning, GHers!

Thanks to all of you who left words of encouragement for our Sweet Sarah! I hope she feels surrounded by all of us, even if only in spirit!

We Love You, Sarah!

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Todd Manning is looking to put down ROOTS in Port Charles, but that only means that a whole lot of weeds for PC’s residents! Todd has nothing good or noble to add to the landscape of our favorite fictional town! I mean, he was only passing through, and look at all the damage and heartache he’s caused already! 😦 I wish he would take his newspaper, his abs, and his daughter and hightail it back to Llanview! Like yesterday!

Heather is pure evil, but other than Olivia, the viewers must be the only ones who see it! Is Steven really this clueless about his crazy mother? I don’t even get it! There is no reason that Steven would feel the kind of bond with Heather that might make him show this much faith in her. I just don’t get it! The only ROOTS Heather has ever cultivated in PC are those of insanity and danger. Why is it so hard for people who know this about her to imagine that she might go off the rails again?

Let’s just hope this time, Olivia isn’t her next victim. Liv is getting dangerously close to to ending up like Maggie – especially with words like “nut job” flying around! Luckily for Liv, Spin seems to have returned to his PI ROOTS with a renewed sense of urgency, and hopefully, he will turn up more than whatever root-less things Heather has “planted” out there on the country road.

So Luke and Anna completely eschewed both of their romantic ROOTS in order to hook up like it was 1979! They were barely even awkward around each other the morning after, as Luke was sitting there watching her sleep, and then making mention of their “dirty deed” without either of them blushing! I know there are those who think Anna and Luke are just wrong because of Robert and Laura, but you know what? I disagree. Robert and Laura are their past, not their present, or their future (based on all current indicators!) AND…If there must be a triangle, I am so glad it includes these three, and not a currently married couple!

Although I will say that I feel badly that Tracy is going to be hurt once more because of her love for Luke. 😦 Tracy has proven herself to be more than Luke deserves, as she loves him unconditionally, no matter what she says! It makes me sad to see that Tracy really only has Luke – and well, apparently now Alice, to lean on. The Quartermaines used to have the strongest, most widespread ROOTS of any family in Port Charles, now this once great family has withered way to almost nothing. I wish the writers would come up with a way to turn that around!

I guess the best way to turn that around and to keep the Quartermaine Family ROOTS growing is to add to the Family Tree. The writers did that by making sure that Jason, Jr. is alive, even if they had to tear his poor mother’s heart out in the process. Poor Sam, having to endure another loss, another service to say goodbye to her child, another funeral, another attempt to pick up the pieces of her shattered heart. (I must say that not only do I believe the writers see Sam as a strong woman, I think they see Kelly as the strong actress she is. As much as we all hate this storyline, it has given Kelly opportunity after opportunity to show off her incredible talent. She had me tearing up from the moment she walked into the cemetery, and it only got worse from there! Kelly is an outstanding actress, and I am so proud to be her fan!) 

I have to admit that there is something I must give the writers props on, and that is that we got to see, throughout the entire episode, that Sam has put down and cultivated her own set of ROOTS in Port Charles. I love that the writers allowed Sam to be supported by so many, and not just her family – even though I adore Davis Girls scenes. Sam has lived and worked in this town for almost ten years! It would only make sense that there would be people who get her loss, and wanted to be there to support her! I thought the scenes between Spin and Sam were heartwarming and sweet. Spin telling Sam that he loved her and was sorry felt perfectly right, and made sense. Having Michael want to be there for Sam, and telling her that she would have been a great mother were touching and warm, and really reminded us that Michael would know, as Sam has been such a presence in Michael’s life. The scenes with Carly caught me completely off guard, and left me weeping! While Carly and Sam have never been BFF’s, I am glad the writers chose to show us that no matter what, they do share a connection. Sam needed all the support she could get, and deserved all the support she got, and more.

Because of his family and friends, Jason Morgan has among the strongest and far-reaching ROOTS of anyone in PC. He is connected in some way to just about every family, and everyone. However, as we heard him talking about those connections with Michael yesterday, one thing was quite clear: Jason has no deeper ROOTS than the ones connecting his heart to Sam’s. I will be the first to say what an ass Jason has been throughout this outrageous storyline, but I cannot ignore that Jason seems to be unable to thrive without his wife. I was so thankful for his conversation with Michael, because it was good for me to hear that Jason understands why Sam cannot let him back into her heart right now. It was also good to hear Michael being the voice of reason, and telling Jason what all of us would have been screaming at the TV had he not. Michael telling Jason that what Sam said, was not necessarily what she needed, was something I’ll be grateful to Michael for, for a long time! Perhaps hearing it from the first child Jason ever held was the secret to Jason finally putting his fears and his feelings aside for the woman whose heart is breaking over the child she believes she will never hold again. I am so glad that Jason finally got out of his own way and showed up for Sam. Had Jason let that opportunity pass him by, he would have regretted it forever. No matter how it turns out tomorrow, and no matter what Sam says out of her unimaginable pain and loss, it was crucial to the nurturing of their ROOTS as a couple that he be there during Sam’s darkest moments. She will never forget that he was present. No matter what.

I think it is part of the MAGIC that Steve and Kelly have not only created, but perfected, that Jason and Sam didn’t saw a single word to each other, and barely shared 10 seconds onscreen, and yet, so many of us were so deeply affected by what they did share! In those couple of screenshots, I read so much into what they were feeling: Love, Concern, Need, Fear of Losing Each Other, and again – LOVE. I know that there are still some hard to watch moments and several weeks of tough stuff that will try our patience and loyalty, but it was like a shot in the arm to be reminded by Sam and Jason themselves that they are deeply and totally in love! Thanks for the crumbs, Mr. Carlivati and Writing Team! I will take it!

You know, our love for Jason and Sam has served as the ROOTS of the wonderful relationships formed and nurtured here! It’s so important that we not turn our backs on the thing that brought us all together, and helped so many friendships BLOOM! Keep supporting our couple and their Love Story, even when things seem bleakest. Keep fighting to keep their Love Story going, because this chapter will finally give way to another – hopefully more blissful one. Just think of all the chapters we’ve already experienced together over the years! There have been some we hated along the way, but we must remember that we are working towards a Happily Ever After, and that rarely happens without conflict and angst along the way!

Hang In There – for JaSam and for GH!

Hopefully this will serve as inspiration: “It’s All Coming Back To Me Now” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yV7qhyJuepw Credit: jasamlova1028

We can do this! Together, we can do just about anything!

Love you all,

Angelique


“Please…No More!”

TGIF, GHers!

I hope you are all looking forward to a weekend full of R&R, especially from the drama surrounding our beloved, hanging-by-a-fingernail soap. 🙂

Before I begin, two things:

  1. I am asking everyone to please say a prayer and send positive thoughts to our very own Sarah. She is going through a difficult time and needs all of our support. Please, please, please keep her in your thoughts and prayers!
  2. Thank you all for your amazing comments and incredible thoughts on yesterday’s blog post! I read every single one, and want to thank all of our new readers! I hope you’ll find Bella Mafia to be your family, too!

Now, I have to tell you all that I was incredibly disturbed by yesterday’s episode of GH. I don’t want to overlook Kelly Sullivan’s performance, because she is acting the crap out of a storyline I can only imagine is terribly difficult to do.

However, I just could not believe the writers decided to go with another rape, especially when Kate/Connie was just in the same kind of situation with Johnny, sans the violence she obviously endured as a teenager.

Thank the Good Lord that I had a sneaking suspicion about where they were going with this, and told my kids they could not watch yesterday. Yet, as a mother and as a teacher, I literally had a knot in my stomach just thinking about the fact that kids somewhere watched those scenes, and there was no Public Service Announcement telling them what they should do if ever in a situation like Connie’s, or where to get help or counseling, or checked for STD’s, physical trauma, or help with the emotional devastation. There wasn’t even contact information for RAINN or The Rape Crisis Center for women, children, and men.

I am sorry, but that is not just mind-boggling, it’s downright unacceptable! It’s shamefully irresponsible on GH’s and ABC’s behalf to continue to write this overused and insensitively told storyline for the sake of getting “story”, especially when it’s almost always story for everyone but the victim her or himself.

Believe it or not, I was actually lucky enough to get a couple of responses from Laura Wright during her #AskGH tweetfest yesterday. At one point, I couldn’t just ignore anymore that we were watching a very detailed and apparently violent reenactment of what happened to Kate as a teen, and I tweeted Laura, asking if she could please let her bosses know that I didn’t know a woman who enjoyed watching rape story lines. Laura, whom I was sure was sitting with someone from the show whose job it was to guide her responses, answered me, saying, “It’s not supposed to be pretty.”

Many thoughts went through my head about that response and what it meant, but I soon decided that I didn’t care what it meant. My statement to Laura was  honest, clearly not unique,  and out of concern for the viewers who may be watching, and without some kind of message, and without the proper treatment or care for victims, may think it’s okay for victims of rape to carry the shame and pain for years without getting help or therapy. Or they may think that it’s okay for rape, or victims of any kind of violence, to walk around apologizing to those around them for “putting them through it.”  They may not realize that therapy is a crucial step to survival and recovery, or that it’s probably a good idea for spouses or other close family members to seek professional help as well, for guidance on how to help their loved one heal.

*tears of frustration*

Rape, sexual abuse, and violence of any kind, against anyone, is something that I feel very strongly about, and am almost positive that each of you feels very strongly about. I am sure that like me, it hits a nerve, close to home, or right at the heart. That’s why I couldn’t stop thinking about it, and that’s why I almost feel as though I cannot turn on GH again without taking some kind of stand, or sending some kind of message that it’s NOT OKAY for rape, abuse, or violence of any kind against anyone, to be used as a stunt story. It’s also NOT OKAY for GH to be irresponsible about sending the viewing public the right information about the social issue at hand needed to make the right choices for themselves, or loved ones,  if the worst should ever happen. 

That is why, today, instead of talking about, writing about, or reading about the happenings in Port Charles as we always do, I am asking that we take a stand for every viewer who ever was, or ever will be, victimized in any way.

I am asking that you use your voice today to let GH and ABC know how you feel about this issue. Please do not make empty threats or vulgarity. Instead, let’s do something they have failed to do repeatedly: let’s show some sensitivity, decency, and intelligence when conveying our message, but let’s not fail to let them know how these storylines made us feel (angry, hurt, demoralized, re-victimized – whatever feelings are appropriate for your view).

If every single one of us does this, they will hear the message loudly and clearly!

Please take a minute today to do each of these:

Call: 323-671-4583, and 212-456-7777

Email: http://abc.go.com.site/contact-us

Facebook: http://facebook.com/#!/generalhospital

Twitter: @carlivatiron, @valentinifrank, @generalhospital (I am sure there will be some kind of trending goal today regarding this issue, please pay attention)

Snail Mail: ABC TV General Hospital, ATTN: Frank Valentini, EP/Ron Carlivati, Headwriter, 4151 Prospect Avenue, Hollywood, CA 90027

I know that together, we can make a difference! For today, let that be The Beauty of GH!

Please say you will!

Pretty please, with sugar on top?

Angelique


ENOUGH WITH THE DOOM AND GLOOM!

Good morning, GHers!

It is pouring rain here in Jersey as I type this, and has been all day. It was a gloomy day here, just as it was in PC – where the sun was shining. Go figure!

May I just say that you guys were on FIRE today! I love it when everyone shares their thoughts on what’s happening onscreen, and I especially love it when everyone is so respectful of what everyone else is feeling! I agree with everyone who said that we are like a big family – I’ve been telling you guys that you are my family for years! Glad everyone is starting to understand exactly what I was talking about! 😉

I am with Tracy! I wish GH would get how all of us feel: Enough With The Doom and Gloom! I only wonder if the writers actually read what they wrote, because the doom and gloom is not only surrounding Luke and Tracy! Enough already!

Luke and Tracy should be enjoying the fact that they are finally rid of the crazy Anthony Z! They should be enjoying each other openly, instead of worrying about how it would “look” for the Zacchara widow to have moved on! Instead, Anthony is still hovering over them like the black cloud he was. Yet, in spite of that,  I caught myself smiling at Tracy’s overzealousness when it came to getting the barbecue sauce off of Luke’s face. If only we could have more moments like those..with light and laughter, for more people on the canvas! Luke and Tracy have been the only people to actually kiss on our favorite soap all week, I believe! And they aren’t even a couple! That’s gotta change and soon! So, yes, Mr. Carlivati, ENOUGH WITH THE DOOM AND GLOOM!

I am still trying to figure out why Starr Manning has decided to remain in Port Charles, a town she was just passing through, when her life was changed so drastically and negatively, forever. I would think (and hope) that Starr would want to leave PC and be back in Llanview, where she can be surrounded and supported by her friends and family, and perhaps not feel so alone. Yet, for whatever reason, she’s still here, and still crying when Michael very literally runs into her on the pier. Starr goes on to tell Michael about finding out that Connie was the one who shot out the tires and caused the accident that killed her family, and Michael was incredibly supportive of her. I guess we will be seeing much more of Michael and Starr, but I would think if sexy summer romance is what they are going to try to sell for these two, then ENOUGH WITH THE DOOM AND GLOOM!

I have never really been a Lante fan, but I will admit that it worries me that now even Lulu is lying to her husband again, even after all those two have learned about honesty. Why must everyone in PC now be a liar? Lulu told her dad that she took a day off to avoid lying to her husband. Do they not live together anymore? Or if they do, do they not speak to each other? And now, adding to the lie is the fact that Lulu just shook on a deal to go into business with her ex-whose still a mobster-lover, without discussing it with her still-kinda-new-cop-husband? Come on! This is going to translate into more trouble for more people, and another marriage on the outs. *sigh* ENOUGH WITH THE DOOM AND GLOOM!

Wow. Kate has the exact opposite reaction to being late for her period as me! I always react as though I got away with something, whereas Kate reacted as though a tragedy had happened on June 12th! Vanessa even asked me, “Was that the date she was shot?” *giggles* Talk about doom and gloom! WIth everything that Kate has been through, because of everything that Connie has done, the date nearly brought Kate to her knees because she is late. Listen, Kate, Sonny just counseled Jason on how to get through the woman he loves being pregnant with his archenemy’s baby growing inside of her. If these new writers have gotten so freakin’ lazy already that they are going to recycle a story they JUST did, there will be plenty of material to get you and Sonny through it. Don’t you worry. But as for the rest of us, I think we have totally had our fill of unplanned rape pregnancies and paternity bingo. Kate has enough going on, why add even more? Ugh. ENOUGH WITH THE DOOM AND GLOOM!

Honest to God, Jason really needs to get it together. I know that he is feeling guilty, and lost, and hurting for Sam, but this is just not productive. I wish we could sit Jason down and make him watch a YT vid of when Sam was shot, nearly had a hysterectomy, woke up to Alexis knowing she was her mother, had a brain bleed, had brain surgery, all while crying rivers between each surgery, only to wake up to have Jason leave her for her own good. If anyone had a reason to mope around aimlessly, it was Sam. Instead, she picked up her tiny battered, bruised and stitched-up self and gave Jason the fight of his life for their relationship! Sam barely raised her voice at Jason and threw some truth at him, and he is ready to throw in the towel and crawl into a hole. And this, right after he told Sam he wasn’t going to give up on her. *sigh* And people think women are the weaker sex. -_______- Listen, I am still not ready to make nice with Carly after what she did to Sam when Robin died, but I had to thank the good Lord that she was the one to come on over and shout at the top of her lungs, ENOUGH WITH THE DOOM AND GLOOM! Carly was right. If Sam didn’t want to hear anything Jason had to say, then he needs to keep on telling her, until she does, because that’s what Sam did for him when the roles were reversed! That’s what you do when you’re in love and not willing to let the other persona just walk away from everything you’ve built together! While it still gets on my nerves that Carly is coddling Jason as though he was the one who was raped, got pregnant, and lost the baby, Carly sees it as her job as his BFF to catch Jason before he falls onto reality. She is trying to be supportive, and she is trying to get him to stop wallowing in self-pity and actually fight for his marriage and for the love of  his life. For that reason alone, I won;t say anything negative about Carly. At least nor tonight. *zips lips, and slips key into pocket for easy access later* I was glad to see that something Carly said to lug head  Jason sunk in, because at least we got to see him looking for Sam, even though she threw his ass out last time he was there. I guess we should be thankful he remembered that he’s a god-damned hit man, and should not scare that easily. *rolling eyes* Unfortunately, he missed Sam, who would rather sign herself out than listen to any more of what St. Liz was spewing, and came face to face with more contrived bullshit. I mean Liz. *innocent look* 

Sam cannot even mourn in peace, can she? There she was, holding onto her dragon, trying to do some thinking, when in floats Nurse Unprofessional. There’s a Puerto Rican saying that when people who are not your friends start visiting you in the hospital, they are really only there to estimate how long they’ll have to wait for your hand-me-downs. I am almost sure that the saying is referring to clothes, or shoes, or maybe even property, but the saying still applied today. IF (a very big IF that is) Liz truly was the only nurse who could have been assigned to deliver those flowers to Sam’s room, she should have tiptoed in, placed them next to her bed, whispered her condolences, and tiptoed right out. But no. She not only had to try and tell Sam what losing a child is like, (even though Sam knows all too well for herself) she had to let her know that she saw Jason and that he was destroyed. How about that Liz, huh? Not only did she please Jason’s case to Sam, but she actually wanted Sam to know that he was sincere, and that he was a mess, and that he wanted to mourn with her. I had to fight the urge to use alliteration to describe Liz – using the letter F. The comment that pissed me off the most was when Liz said, “I believe him.” She said that as if she always believes the best about Jason, that she is able to see the good in him when no one else can. Well, Liz, where the $%@#  was all that belief and understanding in Jason when he was destroyed over losing his son – the son you still refused to see as his, even as he lay kept alive only by a ventilator and you never even thought to call him? Didn’t you think Jason would have wanted to mourn with you and Lucky? And where was all of that belief in Jason’s good intentions and noble character when you slapped the crap out of him, and then accused him of abandoning Jake and you, as if that was the reason Jake died? Unlike in Sam’s situation, Jason had nothing to do with the circumstances surrounding Jake’s death, and Liz not only shut him out, she shut him down.How dare she stand there, trying to make Sam feel guilty because Jason is “a mess right now”. Hey, Liz! ENOUGH WITH THE DOOM AND GLOOM when it comes to Jason, when you don’t even know what is going on! You know who’s also a mess right now? Sam. The person whom all this has happened to physically, and not just emotionally! How dare this clueless bitch even comment on this very personal situation between husband and wife? Talk about waiting for hand-me-downs! I was so incredibly proud of Sam for seeing right through Liz and her concern. I could not have said it better myself than when Sam said, “Well then go! Go Elizabeth! Dry his tears, put your arms around him, and make sure that everything is going to be okay.” And when Liz ever-so-weakly murmured, “That’s not going to help,” Sam said, “No, I’m serious. It’s over. He’s all yours.”

I DARE the haters to comment on how weak and needy Sam is when it comes to Jason. She looked Liz in the eye, and didn’t for a moment see her as a threat, even though Sam could see where this will lead for Liz. Sam knows that Liz is not the issue. Sam was thinking like a JaSammer should be thinking.

Sam may be exhausted and grieving and not thinking clearly, but she finally understands her worth. She deserved better from the man she loves, and she needed more from the man who promised that she’s have him, every day for the rest of his life. I am not giving up that she will get that man back, and deep down Sam doesn’t want to give up either. That is why she is so afraid, and so hurt.

*wipes tears* 

I will say it again. I am a full-fledged, unwavering JaSam Fan, who refuses to jump ship, switch teams, or wave the flag of defeat. I fight for JaSam every day, and will continue to do so, even through THE DOOM AND GLOOM. But, like Sam, I think we deserve the Jason she fell in love with. We deserve for Jason to fully understand that Sam deserves to be loved at least as well as she has loved Jason, and that kind of love requires action, not mere words. Jason has got to do the one thing he has never done before for a woman he loved: FIGHT. I think Jason has gotten a bit too comfortable in the easiness of loving Sam, while for her, it has been anything but easy with all of the responsibilities and priorities he has. Jason is going to have to show Sam just how badly he wants her and their marriage.

It’s the only way for The Dragon to be reunited with His Phoenix. 

And we already know they are indestructible…so hang in there.

Thinking like a JaSammer, no matter what I see onscreen,

Angelique

 


Call Me CRAZY, But…

Good morning, GHers!

Or at least I am sure it will be morning by the time I actually get though posting this. Karina and I are both sick as dogs…coughing, sneezing, fever, chills, body aches. It started with a sore throat and progressed quickly, so we both spent the day bundling up one minute and needing the fan blowing the next. The silver lining to this cold from hell is that I fall asleep everywhere without warning. One minute I was lying down watching Y&R and the next minute, I had missed all of B&B, and that dreadful The Talk was on my screen! It actually took me six different tries to get through GH on YouTube, so let’s see how many times I will doze off while typing. (Trust me – I welcome any sleep that comes my way, even accompanied by this!)

So Sonny finally gets to hear Kate’s whole sordid tale about two women, and he accuses her of lying? After all of the crossover moments Sonny has witnessed himself, after all of the head-scratching scenarios Sonny has tried to make sense of, he can’t take a second to think this through and show some compassion for someone dealing with mental illness? To leave Kate there, handcuffed to a chair, screaming after him, helpless? Come on! Call Me CRAZY, But…that’s just messed up! Sonny has teetered on two different versions of himself for years as he has struggled with Pi-polar Disorder! Are we supposed to believe now that Sonny cannot fathom this scenario for Kate, even after Jason (who has hardly spent any time with her) told him that it seemed that Kate was sick? Truly, I am not only just not buying it, I am also not liking it one little bit. Someone asked recently why it is that GH no longer does PSAs after shows dealing with tough stuff, like rape, mental illness, etc. Here is your answer: They make every victim a victim over and over again! The only thing they would be able to say is, “THIS IS HOW NOT TO TREAT A VICTIM…OF ANYTHING!”  So sad…

Call Me CRAZY, But…I actually liked seeing a couple in Port Charles act as thought they were in love, even if they were The Falconeris. What a concept! I have never been a huge fan of Dante and Lulu, but damn, we sure did need some kind of reminder that at least one couple exists in this new, seemingly haunted Port Charles. I thought it was sweet that at least Dante was with his wife after such a harrowing experience like being kidnapped, held at gunpoint, threatened, and shot at by a lunatic! (Even if Liz was all up in the Kool-Aid, trying to get deets on Sam and McBain!) *shakes head*

Call Me CRAZY, But…I thought it was great that Luke is finally acting like a father to his only daughter, and that he wasn’t afraid to show some fatherly emotion. They’ve done enough to prove to us that Luke is anything but Daddy Knows Best material, but reminding all of us that he does have a heart under all of that self-inflicted scar tissue is always nice. Even in his scenes with Anna, whom he is basically lying to (although a lie of omission), Luke’s heart didn’t seem so rusted over and useless. Perhaps there is hope for him yet.

I am really trying to understand Michael’s reaction to, and consequent actions over, Starr’s attempted murder of his father. While I think it shows really bad appreciation on her part for Michael’s northeastern hospitality, I can’t really say that Michael should be all that shocked over Starr’s “snapping” and going after Sonny! Didn’t Michael do exactly the same thing when Abby was murdered? Lash out and get reckless, especially with those he felt were most responsible? Starr has never wavered from her position that Sonny is the sole party responsible for losing her daughter and boyfriend. She has made no secret of wanting Sonny “to pay”. In fact, Michael sat with Starr at Sonny’s trial, because he understood where all that pain and anger was coming from. Call Me CRAZY, But…I would think Michael would show at least enough understanding to not show up with the cops to pick her up. Wanting Starr to be arrested and charged for what she did seems just a bit hypocritical on Michael’s part, doesn’t it?

Ron Carlivati’s writing had me going for about ten seconds when it came to our JaSam scenes. Jason looking completely crushed that Sam and her baby  had another hero while Jason was off playing hero to Sonny and Kate was about it. Everything that happened after that was just completely wrong to me. Perhaps someone could explain to me why Jason raced across town to get to his wife in the first place, only to not take his wife in his arms! And while I get the whole “Stay away from my wife” crap, how about Jason just realize that if he were around more, John wouldn’t have the chance to be around Sam so much? I hated the facet that Jason didn’t ask Sam about the baby, and I hated even more that he didn’t go with her to the hospital. The Jason Morgan I cam to know and love would have accompanied Sam, and then found and threatened John McBain later! Call Me CRAZY, But…that was just a WTF moment if I ever saw one!

So of course, Sam would get the one nurse who shouldn’t be anywhere near her to come check her vitals. *sigh* I thought Sam handled Liz just perfectly. She was calm, controlled, and very clear when she told Liz she didn’t need to bother running to Jason, because he already knew. It wasn’t too much or too little; it wast just enough to let Liz know that she knew what’s been going on. I thought Liz’s reaction to Sam was way over the top. (Though to be very honest, I am not sure it was written that way. I just think that the actress has always had a bit of a struggle with “range”. I have always thought she goes from sugary sweet to super snark in 0-60, with really nothing in between. One minute she was calm and understanding, and the next she was talking to Sam like a homegirl: “No, what you need…” she said to Sam. Whaaaat??? All that was missing was two circles and a snap!) Here we have a pregnant woman, coming in to get her vitals checked after nearly being killed, and her nurse is going to start getting nasty with her? Call Me CRAZY, But…if I were Sam, I would have had my chief-of-staff mother-in-law paged to let her know just how upset that episode really made me! And after that, I would be filling out that hospital questionnaire and attaching a page or two of comments! Liz has  got to be the worst nurse at GH! She has absolutely no boundaries when it comes to boundaries with patients!

You know, I am really starting to wonder if Ron Carlivati cares at all about whether or not viewers recognize their favorite characters, or even their favorite soap. He is writing One Life To Live’s plots, pace, and people all over our General Hospital plots, pace, and people! It just doesn’t make sense! As far as I am concerned, you can write as many Jason and Liz scenes as you want. They have never threatened me. What I have a problem with, and what I find to be incredibly disrespectful to the viewers, is when you completely rewrite who a character is. Jason would never just take off to the cemetery when he hasn’t even checked up on his wife after what happened! Come on! Call Me CRAZY, But…if I didn’t know any better, I would think Ron doesn’t like Steve. That’s the only possible explanation for why he is being written to be such a heartless, clueless ass!

Call Me CRAZY, But… the show we are all watching in the 3:00 pm EST slot is no longer General Hospital. I know the credits say General Hospital, and the TV Guide reads it as General Hospital, but it’s just not. That’s not okay. Had they just brought over their OLTL peeps – even if they wrote them to have these crazy connections to our GH peeps, I would have been okay with it. But when you turn MY soap into what YOUR soap used to be that’s just wrong. And you can be damned sure you’re going to hear it from me. 

Will they hear it from you? I sure hope so! It’s now or never! 

Angelique

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“It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy”

Good morning, GHers!

Forgive me for being MIA on Wednesday. We had a friend in crisis, and that took me away from my computer, and from all of you. But know that I missed you all.

It was a long night followed by a long day, but when I returned, I found confirmation in the mail (though I’d been told over the phone a week or so ago) that I am now officially RETIRED, with full benefits (and about 25 years before I ever thought I would be). Now, I can explore the other passions God has given me, (maybe I’ll finally write a book!) without worrying about helping to provide for my family. I am overwhelmed at how blessed I feel right now!

I am telling all of you before I even post it on Facebook for a reason. Having my accident was devastating. The surgeries that followed were a nightmare. The constant battle to try to get to a place where I could go back to teaching, my life’s passion, was disappointing and depressing. Through it all, while friends and family were back at work, doing their thing, not even realizing that I was losing myself and any sense of purpose, YOU GUYS WERE THERE.

I would not have made it to this day of celebration without you. It’s not just something sweet I want to say to all of you. It’s not something that I think. It is absolutely something that I know, and am certain of. Hearing back from you guys in those first days of this blog made me feel “connected” to the outside world again. It gave me something to look forward to. A real feeling of purpose in two years. From that, the friendships that we formed, and the love that I have come to feel for so many of you is The. One. Thing. That. Saved. Me. You will never really understand just how deep and heartfelt that sentiment is, but that’s okay. I just had to say it, and I just had to celebrate with you guys.

Thanks for the years of well wishes, prayers, finger crossing, kind words, encouragement, understanding, and support. I love you all so much, and I thank God for you every single day. I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

xoxox

Moving right along… 😉

That McBain is quite the sneaky cop, isn’t he? He’s got Sonny’s place bugged, and he’s getting more than he bargained for as Sonny pours his broken heart out to anyone who walks through the door. I was kinda hoping that Sonny would not dump that whole messy truth about finding Kate and Johnny in bed together (complete with sound effects) on Michael, bit who am I kidding. Sonny is nothing if not clueless about what’s appropriate to lay on your children. He’s been telling Michael way too much since he was about 5 years old! While Michael was lamenting the unfortunate end of his father’s birthday, John was reveling in the fact that Sonny was finally getting some of what he thinks Sonny deserves. In fact, it was John who said, “It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy.” I try to feel badly for Sonny here, but honestly, he went after Johnny in every way that hurt for a really long time, even after John showed some real kindness and restraint – especially concerning Sonny’s kids. Karma, apparently, is a blonde.

Carly and Connie have been simmering for weeks! It was only a matter of time before they totally forgot that they are supposed to be grown women, and more importantly – women, period. They went at each other like two guys brawling in a back alley. That was one crazy fight, and I shudder to think what it meant for business at the Metro Court when both of its owners are rolling around on the lobby floor, ripping each other’s hair out. Honestly, I couldn’t even pick a side. They both deserved an ass whooping – so “It Couldn’t Happen To Nicer Guys.”

Liz and Liv should really have left the sleuthing to the professionals. *yawn* It took them way too long to jump to conclusions, make assumptions, and basically waste each other’s and our time, only to end up calling the police anyway. Neither one of these two is someone I would want trying to save my ass if I was Steve, that’s for damn sure. And considering Liz’s track record, the same goes for Ewan. If Liz doesn’t get herself fired for breaking confidentiality laws by going through Ewan’s patient files, she and Liv may just get themselves killed for getting themselves stuck between A Psycho and A Double Crazy. Actually, now that I think of it,“It Couldn’t Happen To Nicer Girls.”

Johnny is on a collision course with disaster! No matter what he does, it seems to lead to trouble! Even when trying to be there for Starr, the young woman who just lost her family, he can’t help but say all the wrong things, or do all of the wrong things – like putting away his gun where desperation could reach it. *shakes head* John is dealing with a whole load of problems – from his decimated relationship with Carly, to trying to stay a step ahead of a murderous Sonny, to an illegal operation dealing with human organs. Add to that the fact that Starr has now gone after Sonny with Johnny’s gun, and John may as well turn himself in. I can think of a few people who might think “It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy.”

While some may have had a tough time with Jason and Sam having yet one more argument, I was actually okay with it. First and foremost, they were finally in the same space together. Second, and most importantly, they actually did more than just argue. Jason and Sam, though tough for us to watch, finally got some of the tough stuff said. Jason had to stop hiding behind his  jealousy and had to face the cold, hard truth out loud that (they think) Sam is carrying Franco’s baby. Sure, it’s hard for Jason to hear, but guess what, dammit? It’s even harder for Sam to say to herself every single day!  I was so proud of Sam for not apologizing anymore, not even for John McBain! She told Jason he couldn’t blame her for any of that, because he just kept showing up – and she had no control over any of it! *applause*

FINALLY! Sam has nothing to apologize for, and furthermore, she pointed out to Jason just how hypocritical he was being in that he was angry at Sam for talking to someone she barely knows, but he was talking to someone he has a history with. The look on Jason’s face when he heard it for himself was pretty damned satisfying. But, you know what was even more satisfying? Watching Sam point it out, and then hearing her move on to the fact that neither Liz nor John are the problem for her and Jason! *Shouting hallelujah!* I hope the haters lined up to have their butts handed to them, because for all of their talk about how insecure Sam is, I didn’t hear a shred of insecurity in her statement! Sam used Liz to make a point about how clueless Jason was about the double standards he was placing on Sam. That’s it. Sam was all about her and Jason and the issue they are facing – which is whether or not Jason can love the baby, and obviously he is struggling with the thought of it right now.

I give Jason (a smidgen) of credit for telling Sam that it’s not her fault, because even though she knows it, she needed to hear it from her husband. However, I really think Jason needs an (over)dose of reality. And his reality, as we already know, is that Jason “knows what his life is like without Sam, and he wants her in it.”  I think we saw that in the shock that caused him to let Sam’s hands drop when she said she was moving out. Those scenes reminded me so much of their painful conversation after their second kiss on December 9, 2004, where Sam was leaving because she felt she had no choice, and Jason just didn’t know how to ask her to stay. Back then, it was the unknown that made Jason feel he had no right to fight for Sam, and I felt that same uncertainty in him today. Jason would never want to purposely hurt Sam, and he sees that it hurts her when he can’t make her any promises about the baby, as hard as that is to believe. Just like back then, he thinks the least selfish thing to do is to not ask her to stay through the uncertainty, and while I HATE it, I have been a fan long enough to understand how he could slip back to being that kind of emotional chicken. There were other reminders of that first time Sam left as well. His not knowing what to do when she came down with her bag, his trying to come up with a different solution, it was all so familiar to me. When Sam walked over and picked up the dragon, and told him she still believed that they were stronger together, I felt a lump immediately form in my throat. When Jason asked, “Why leave?”, my lips trembled, because I know what it cost for him to ask that, when he thinks he is doing the right thing for Sam. But when Sam answered she was leaving because she needed him to believe that, the tears came. Believing is the key, and unless he can do that, she knows there’s no use in staying. (Just like in ’04 *tears*) I have to admit that the little things that went into this scene really did strike a tender chord with me: The fact that Sam took the dragon with her, and not the phoenix, was beautiful and meaningful. It shows that she still believes in Jason’s ability to be the protection she told Jason the baby needed. That says so much to us about her love and her faith in him, even when he has no faith in himself.

My JaSam-Loving heart heard all of the unspoken stuff loud and clear. Like when Sam walked past him to take her suitcase, and Jason put his hand on the handle, fighting the need to wrestle her for it. (Anyone remember Jason taking Sam’s hand off the elevator button?) Back in 2004, Jason let Sam go, even though it tore his heart out, and even though it made us want to throw him down the elevator shaft. Jason let her go today, too. The best parallel I see in all of this is that it didn’t take Jason long at all to realize the mistake he’d made. Not then; not today. Jason was left to suffer silently as he cried and held only the tiny phoenix in his hand, and reminisced about the sweet moments where they exchanged the perfect gifts. Those memories made Jason realize that Sam was, in fact, the one to “turn bad luck into good.” The pain in his eyes made me terribly sad as he stared at Sam’s (lovely) picture. But I had to admit that “It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy.” This hurt is exactly what Jason needs right now to help him see what was right in front of him all along: Together, he and Sam, the phoenix and the dragon, bring double happiness. 

Hang in there, beloved!

BELIEVE!

Angelique

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