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A Sunday Drive Down Memory Lane…Through Christmas Past

Happy Sunday morning, GHers!

I hope your presents are all bought, wrapped and under the tree…and that you’ll have some time for yourself to sit back with a hot drink and enjoy some Christmases Past with our beloved couple, Jason and Sam.

I will tell you that it just won’t be Christmas in Port Charles without them being together….they became my favorite part about Christmas in Port Charles back in 2004, and I will miss them terribly.

This is why this week’s Drive is so special…I can relive all of my favorite memories of their Christmases spent in love.

I am making my Christmas wish, and my top pick on my letter to Santa…for JaSam to be reunited soon! (And that Steve really starts to miss work!)

So, please do not bust my Christmas bubble! ūüôā

Sit back…relax…and open your heart to all the moments of love for each other and the holiday they complied over the years. And if me must cry, let’s make them tears of joy for having been witness to such a beautiful Love Story. Fictional or not, it changed our lives…and made us friends. That is a GIFT in and of itself!

I hear sleigh bells…jump in!

“Christmas Isn’t Christmas without You”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Erqd7KetEhU¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

“Christmas Through The Years”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWsnw9xUbLg Credit: missingJASAMalways

“Are You Coming Home For Christmas?”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g3Zg8hasr-Y¬† Credit: aproditebeauty

“Merry Little Christmas”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPm_DWPNSkg Credit: allegator20

“The Only Gift”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jrZ_nB_tJeY Credit: aproditebeauty

“Remember Last Christmas”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4oqp3YW_TDo Credit: luckiBelle

“The Gift”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_O4cXNv7JQc¬†Credit: missingJASAMalways

“My Only Wish For Christmas Is You”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5OMnQ5VwhY¬†Credit: charmedp3f

“Merry Christmas, Darling” (One Song, Two Vids)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xrTiRQiCU9o Credit: aproditebeauty

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IWQMcfna7BQ Credit: raindance4521

“All I Want For Christmas” (One Song, Two Versions, Two Vids) ūüôā

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IduXTBYIAh4 Credit: jmsg411

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W4w1-eKczSc Credit: lalachik

Aahhh…they were beautiful, weren’t they? I hope you never stop telling TPTB how much you miss Steve, and how much you miss JaSam on your screen! Get as mushy as you dare, but make sure they know that a little piece of your heart is missing, right alongside Jason! Maybe we’ll inspire them to sweeten the deal for Steve to come back…and soon! ūüôā

On a different note, I ask for your prayers. Matthew’s teacher’s husband passed away last week, and today we will be attending funeral services for him. He was only 43, and it was completely unexpected and terribly sudden. Both Matthew and Vanessa will be singing at the service, and they are both heartbroken for the family. I cannot imagine having to endure all this…and at Christmas, no less. Your prayers will go a long way today!

Thanks to all of you…I love you all so dearly!

Merry Christmas!

Angelique


A DIVERSIONARY Sunday Drive Down Memory Lane

Good Sunday morning, GHers.

If you are anything like me, you’re trying to de-puff your eyes and downing some pain relievers to try and deal with the headache still lingering from all of the crying. Never in my life have I felt such an overwhelming sense of shock and disillusionment with life as we knew it in America. Something is fundamentally wrong when something like the tragedy in Newtown, CT can happen, and yet we can’t fix whatever it is that’s wrong right away.

I thought for a bit that I couldn’t…shouldn’t…wouldn’t post this weekend’s Drive. Then I realized that sometimes in devastating situations like this, we could all use a break. A diversion. A reason to smile.

Furthermore, my dear friend, Steph, had a special request: that our Drive after such a hard week be about good times and reasons to smile. I couldn’t agree more, and actually felt lighter after taking the time just to compile the vids, and getting my mind off of everything else for a little while. (I can only hope and pray that you guys know me well enough by now to know that in no way am I trying to minimize the terrible thing that has happened to those innocent victims. I am simply trying to provide an escape for those who desire one. If you are not ready for that yourself, then please, by all means, do something else. It is certainly not my intention to offend or hurt anyone. As most of you know, I taught in a K-4 school for 10 years before teaching Pre-K for seven. I feel a personal connection to this, as many of you do for different reasons. I pray you understand.)

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I will tell you that almost immediately upon seeing Steve and Kelly do their thing, I was reminded me that Jason and Sam are the absolute best DIVERSION onscreen! It’s my hope that our Drive this week will serve to lighten your heavy hearts, brighten the dark feelings surrounding this tragedy, and actually give you a reason to smile, even if for just a few minutes.

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“You Make Me Smile”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TGpVRIprbCc¬†Credit: 22anybeth

“The Way You Are”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=klatIG1wh0I Credit: lalachik

“JaSam As Hart to Hart”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mzM6XhnlThk Credit: holsgem

“When I See You Smile”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AK9mVcpWZ-Y Credit: candece

“Only Girl In The World”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wbUPm4ydk24¬†Credit: lalachik

“Smile”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r2jeT4TaqM4¬†Credit: zetter09

“Brown-Eyed Girl”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VPdhVVn157k Credit: zaltana1

“LOL! Smiley Face”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NqRmjcWL1ag¬†Credit: babyphat9191

“Fine By Me”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3MV40vFc0Yo Credit: jmsg411

“Here In Your Arms”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iw6vcOL90_k Credit: Kaitie Hicks

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I hope you enjoyed our Drive this week, and that it was a source of tranquility for a little bit.

Let’s continue to pray for these families and for this community, and let’s vow to cherish every moment with those we love; especially our children. Hold them a little tighter, hug them a little longer, kiss them a little harder, and take the time to just breathe them in.

I love you all,

Angelique


Not Ready To Give Up Yet, Either

Good morning, GHers.

My house is so quiet and solitary now that I actually had some time to myself, so I pulled out the laptop and decided to post about today’s GH (Yesterday’s by the time you guys read it).

What a great episode! No fake masked people, or onslaughts of newbies…just good ol’ fashioned beloved GH characters all on the same page over the devastating loss of Edward Quartermaine. As it should be. Even Trey and Starr were on today because of Edward, albeit indirectly. I just love it when my GH feels, looks and sounds familiar.

For the record, Ron Carlivati’s name is always listed as the headwriter, but the credit for each episode goes to the script writer whose name is listed with editor, Elizabeth Korte’s. Today’s script writer, therefore, was Scott Sickles, and considering he is new to the GH writing team, added after the clean sweep of longtime GH personnel, the episode struck a chord with me.

I thought everything about the episode seemed “right”. From the drama and turmoil at the Quartermaine Mansion, to the heartbreak Sam’s sisters are feeling over Sam’s situation, I watched and understood every scene because it made sense. And that is something that needs to be a little more consistent on GH. There are days that I watch and think, “Who are these people?” because the characters that I both love and love to hate are acting completely “off”. If only the feel of today’s show was one that became the norm, I would feel a whole lot more connected to my beloved soap.

Yet, though that consistency is lacking, Monday’s touching episode pointed out one thing for me. Like Sam, I am not ready to give up yet, either. Not on Jason coming home, not on my soap coming out of this alive and kicking, and not on GH in general.

How could I not feel that way after seeing that Quartermaine house filled with…genuine Quartermaines! Not long-lost relations that we feel no connection to, or ghosts of the people we loved, but real, in-the-flesh Quartermaines! Fighting and back-biting and arguing as though they never stopped! I really had forgotten how much I missed Ned, and even Skye doesn’t bug me as much when she’s part of the hullabaloo. And as much as I have detested A.J. ever since he slammed Jason into the tree, it’s nice to have some life back in that mansion again after all these years! I will take Quartermaines over Mannings on any calendar day of the year!

Having Edward’s will read was a classic moment, as we would expect nothing less from Tracy. I loved the bickering back and forth, and Tracy’s true-to-form bitchiness, even in the sacredness of the moment. I did like that Diane, a bitch in her own right, was the attorney to deliver the blow, because she was not going to cower to Tracy…or anyone for that matter. I thought that gave it a little extra. What I am confused about, and what is niggling around in my brain, is what change Heather could possibly have made to Edward’s will, or what it was that “she knew that the Quartermaines didn’t.”¬†I don’t like loose ends. I don’t like inconsistencies, and I guess that is my main bone of contention with GH right now. I need that settled, and sooner, rather than later, please.

I have never been a Lulu fan, but I thought her talking to Sam about wanting to have a baby was something that would happen, and I enjoyed that. I also liked that her scenes with Maxie, mostly because I love that Maxie is the one trying to deal with heartache instead of Spinelli. While I a may not be crazy about the idea, I also thought it was very clever how they walked Maxie right into that corner where she felt her idea of becoming Lulu’s surrogate was a great idea. Personally, I would rather see Maxie getting back to work somewhere – anywhere, but I am just happy to have her back, so I guess I’ll take it. ūüôā

I must say I also really, really loved the whole Davis Girls scenes…I hated that Sam and her family left things the way they did. I loved that her sisters made the move and asked Sam to come over for dinner, and I loved that they focused on their nephew, because any aunt would be willing to jump through hoops, even the one they think is denial, in order to be able to enjoy their nephew or niece. Trust me. I speak from experience.

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE that the writers are using all of Molly’s romantic tendencies to give her something constructive and smart to do! Having her write a novel was BRILLIANT! I wrote a novel when I was Molly’s age, and like Molly, I did it just for the satisfaction, but chickened out of submitting it anywhere out of fear, so I thought that would resonate with a lot of girls like Molly…and me. It made total sense that she would be afraid of rejection, because unless you have a friend like Starr, who has a dad in the publishing business, it just seems like a huge, lofty dream to have a novel published. Way to go on that, writers! I will take Molly churning out romance novels over hooking up before she’s ready every single time! Molly is jut too smart to make the same old mistakes; especially when the Molly I know and love would have learned from the mistakes of the women in her life.

Finally, Sam’s scenes just touched my heart and made me sad; but in a productive kind of way. Sad, because Sam and Danny are trying to go on with their lives, and Sam is trying desperately to be stable and calm and even happy for their son, but all of that is happening without the benefit of Jason’s presence and love in their loves. *sigh* Just like the rest of us are trying without his presence onscreen. It can’t be anything but sad when we think about how much Jason and Sam love each other, or how much they went through on their way to having everything they wanted, before it was all stolen from them before they could even enjoy it all together. It’s just sad.

I also said it was productive because it reminded me that this is the season of “Believing”. It’s the season on miracles and magic. It made me want to remind you all to take a page from Sam’s book, and in the face of even the best of friends, like Spinelli, refuse to stop believing that Jason is out there and coming back to the loves of his life! Sam’s resolve gave me strength to square my shoulders, tip my chin up, and declare that “I Am Not Ready To Give Up Yet, Either!”

What about you?

Do you still believe that in the end, “Love will win out and that it always does?”

I sure hope so…that is The Beauty of GH.

Angelique

A Heather GEM to inspire your Belief: “I Believe In You & Me” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JCJ71VznMvw¬†Credit: aproditebeauty


A Sunday Drive Down Memory Lane…Celebrating Jenn & Steph!

Good Sunday morning, GHers!

I hope you’ve had a wonderful week. I will admit that I only really watched GH on Friday when Sam was on – the one other day she was on, we lost power due to the condition of our transformers around here. ūüė¶

I will tell you that I did have the TV on a couple of times this week (when we did have power), and I just do not like the whole face mask thing with Duke/Faison AT ALL! Ugh… I am hanging on by my fingernails, but luckily Sam and Danny and the thought of Jason coming home to them keep me from letting go.

Well, that and the vids all of our vidders keep dreaming up! Thank goodness for all of the motivation to hold on they provide us. How grateful am I for each of them? EXTREMELY GRATEFUL!

I am also very grateful for you guys, my friends, and want to wish two very special friends, Jenn and Steph a ton of birthday wishes! Jenn’s birthday was this past week, and Steph’s is coming up this week, so as we take our Drive, let’s be sure to celebrate in their honor!

As a gift to you both, I hope you enjoy every single and special JaSam moment put together and tied neatly in a (birthday) bow for your enjoyment (and ours).

I love you both to pieces! xoxox

“I Dreamed A Dream”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jo0FGf0MV44¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

“Brokenhearted”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PxwW16PhXbc Credit: LumiSnBJaSam

“I’m Gunna Love You Both Forever”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bvGWyFEm4cQ Credit: JaSam4EverAlways

“Tonite”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSscAZX2V2E Credit: aproditebeauty

*Her First Vid* “What About Now?”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bwrHR5zQHuA Credit: Pernilla Frid

“Won’t Give Up On Us” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bTrUHNytLAA¬†Credit: Mary H

“The Soul Never Dies” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q-Vp9mBsgno¬†Credit: SwishandFlick17

And…if, like me, you really did need a reminder of just how much Jason and Sam loved each other over the past nine years, and how much they wanted a life together as husband and wife, this vid is for you! The vidder has given us an incredible gift…something to truly be thankful for!

“Jason & Sam | The Proposals” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lnbmgm8loV8¬†Credit: luckiBelle

*wipes tears*

Know that as I drop each of you off, I am leaving with a renewed devotion to our favorite couple! There will just NEVER be another couple like them, and I will keep fighting for them to be back in each other’s lives…and in ours! I hope you will, too!

Love you all! 

Angelique


An AMOROUS Sunday Drive Down Memory Lane

Happy Sunday Morning, GHers!

Hurricane Sandy is on everyone’s mind up here in the northeast. She is due to arrive shortly, even though she is certainly not welcome. NJ is under a state of emergency, and I live by the waterfront, so though we are determined to ride out the storm in our home, Sandy will get the last word. I am hoping that those of you who’ve already dealt with her are okay, and breathing a sigh of relief, and that those of you, who like me, are still dreading her arrival, will be safe and dry until she’s outta here. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you! xoxox

I thought about this week’s Sunday Drive several times during the past week. We have shed so many tears, and been so heartbroken over Jason’s “death” and Steve’s exit, that I determined early on that I did not want to take another tearful Drive this Sunday. I think that instead of crying, we need to “refuel” on our reason for fighting to hold on to our couple and their love story in spite of their current and unfortunate separation. You can only imagine my delight and excitement when I logged in to Youtube to find that for the most part, our vidders and I were on the same page.

If you are missing the incredible brand of love and romance JaSam brought to our afternoons, and sizzled on our screens with, and were famous for…this Sunday Drive will give you “the fix” you need.¬†The test run I went on in preparation was FANTASTICAL! *opening a window*¬†

You guys are sooooooooo gonna wanna show our vidders some love for every single one of these! Whew! THEY ROCK!

Jump in…

“Run RIght Into You” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-KmFDxlVSgM Credit: ashleycramni

“My Everything”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U5D5vBqFfYU¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

“I Will Love You”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NrcQy0pX1BY¬†Credit: gigga143

“Enchanted”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IkwByKp1cgA Credit: brittcb4

“Soulmate”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2nxugcrQog¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

“Holding On and Letting Go”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fKOZ1C1IFrQ Credit: JaSamFanForeverLove

“Wind Beneath My Wings”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9TDH7kvvvs Credit: aproditebeauty

And how could we end our Drive without the JaSam theme song playing in the background? 

“Just You and Me”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d_DvKF2T8u0 Credit: PhickJasam4Eva

“Baby, It’s Just You and Me”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzEKSOjogqY Credit: ashleycramni

Well, wasn’t that the most perfect way to spend our Sunday together? I hope it inspired you the way it inspired me to keep on fighting for JaSam by supporting them DAILY via ABC. Let the AIC know, in no uncertain terms, that you miss Jason Morgan and Mr. & Mrs.Morgan and that you want them to move heaven and earth to bring him back to Sam and Danny, and US! Tell them Jason and Sam are The Beauty of GH!

When you’re done using your voice for our couple, go back and take that Drive again – it was SO worth it!

Stay safe out there – no matter where you are and what you’re doing.¬†

Angelique


SHE KNOWS WHAT SHE KNOWS

Happy Anniversary, GHers!

You aren’t seeing things!

Three years ago today, I posted my first Bella Mafia blog, and met all of you! I have always changed the look of the blog on its anniversary each year, but this time I decided that before I chose a new theme, I would post each of the themes of the past three years for a week each…starting with the one that started it all. In revisiting those themes of the past I hope we take a minute to reminisce and celebrate our journey together as faithful JaSammers. We’ve been through so much together, and our couple has been through so much together, but we made it. We are still here and still holding on! So, Congratulations to us all! *hugs*¬†

I am hoping to have The Beauty of GH to talk about for a long time to come; hopefully we will see that happen. I just wanted you to know that I never, EVER take for granted the years we have already spent together and the beautiful friendships that started here. I love you guys!

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How about our Samantha Morgan, huh? To say that no matter what comes at her, she always rises from the ashes, would be an understatement. Sam is the very embodiment of The Phoenix. 

Not only has Sam refused to be knocked down by this latest bump in the road for her and Jason, she is going, going, going and refuses to slow down when it comes to proving what she knows in her heart. Today, we saw exactly what we began to fear yesterday after Sam’s visit with her family. People, even those closest to Jason, seem to be accepting that Jason is gone, albeit with a considerable amount of sadness and devastation. But, they are accepting it nonetheless, and Sam has already said she doesn’t want to hear that, and she doesn’t want that negativity around her son. Spin struggled with the possibility that Sam is slipping into a sad case of denial, but in the end, he agreed to do as Sam asked – and investigate. I love that Sam was able to convince Spin because it was clear to him that, no matter what he really thinks based on the facts, She Knows What She Knows.¬†

I am sure that the one thing fueling her hope when she is left with only her thoughts is that beautiful baby boy of hers. I ADORE SEEING THAT BABY ON MY SCREEN! He has got to be the most mellow TV baby I’ve seen in a very long time, and he looks SO VERY MUCH like Jason Morgan, that he pulls at my heartstrings each time I lay eyes on him! I love the fact that when Sam is holding him, she can’t help but to smile and laugh, because she has her son back, and sure refuses to have sadness and tears surrounding him as he makes the transition into his new life and his new home. I really do love that about Sam! It reminds me that I always knew she would be a great mom, who put her child and his needs first, and that is exactly what she is doing. I also loved Spin’s reaction to seeing Baby Daniel. Spin, almost¬†as much as Molly, knows just how much this baby meant to both Jason and Sam, and I am sure that seeing that blue-eyed baby made his heart contract. Yet, what I really loved was how Sam talked about how much Danny looked like Jason, and Spin mentioned how they share a great deal of DNA, only to have Sam tell him that Jason is Danny’s father in every way that counts. Boom! What can we say? She Knows What She Knows.

Did I mention that Sam is going, going, going? Because she went all the way down to Pier 52 once more to see what she could find out as far as getting some leads regarding her husband. I just knew that a baby wouldn’t stop Sam from being the woman she is! I am so glad and grateful the writers have stayed true to who Sam is. I also think it is a wonderful idea to have Sam and Spin go at this investigation like real investigators – showing up and refusing to let the PCPD shut them down, instead of just slinking around trying to stay under the radar like Duke Lavery is at the moment. *yawn*¬†That’s right, Spin, you guys are licensed investigators, and it took a lot of haggling with an FBI agent to get those licenses! I loved that Anna asked Sam about Bernie and the phone call, because watching Sam really be part of piecing this case together to find Jason and bring him home is as important to me as a viewer as Jason being part of the investigation to bring Baby Danny home. It’s what makes sense, especially given Sam’s background. Once again, the people around Sam seem to be completely floored by her composure and behavior, as Dante shook his head after she left and said, “Wow. She’s in some serious denial.”¬†Anna did a fantastic, experienced job of explaining what Sam is really going through. People will call it denial, while the one going through it calls it hope. Most hopeful to me was when Anna reminded us that sometimes things get turned around and that hope is realized. What Anna was saying, perhaps without even realizing it, is that when it comes to Sam, She Knows What She Knows.

I was thrilled that Todd’s lump-of-coal-heart was somehow miraculously moved, and that he thought having Diane give Sam the paternity test would help Carly, who at the moment, is the only other person that he cares about outside of Starr. I was also thrilled that Diane got right to it, and that she was at the penthouse when Sam arrived with Daniel. We can only hope that we won’t have to wait that much longer for Sam to have that long-awaited and much-needed truth in her hands. Not that it should surprise Sam too much…after all, She Knows What She Knows,¬†and I think that all along, Sam has really known Jason being Daniel’s father to be the truth. This is confirmation of what she knew.

I think that the one thing that should keep us holding on right now is that deep down, WE Know What She Knows…¬†

Wherever Jason is, he is trying really hard to get back to his wife and son; the two loves of his life. As long as that’s enough for Sam, it will be enough for me. ¬†Is it enough for you?

“Come Back To Me”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WzjC6OCAu5A¬†Credit: brandicrowson

Have a great weekend! See you all on Sunday!

Angelique


That’s The Only Way This Story Ends

Good morning, GHers.

I wonder when the tears will end while watching GH. Surely I can’t cry every single day until Jason comes back to his family!

As I told you guys yesterday, I am weary of trusting those in charge of what comes out of Sam’s mouth, so I take it day by day. I wasn’t sure what to expect from our Sam today, but I must say that I was not disappointed in the least! While it broke my heart to think that Sam was in such denial that she wasn’t dealing with her pain, I am glad I didn’t rush to judgment.

I kinda had the same reaction as The Davis Girls. Not sure what to think, and wondering if Sam might be facing a breakdown, and flat out worried for her. It seemed at first that Sam just wasn’t dealing with what had happened the night before, and I could totally understand why Alexis and her sisters might feel that she was simply in denial. Everyone deals with tragedy and grief differently, and so her family just assumed Sam was dealing with it by simply convincing herself that it didn’t happen. What else could they think as they sat there in stunned silence as Sam said, “Jason’s coming back. I know he is. That’s the only why this story ends.¬† Let’s be honest. If we were any one of the Davis Girls, we would have been exchanging the same, exact bewildered looks between ourselves.

When Sam explained how last spring she was handed a dead baby and told that it was hers, and how everyone accepted that truth, except for her, I immediately felt the lump form in my throat. When she said that’s exactly how it was now with Jason, I cried, because Sam can feel that Jason is alive. She knows it in her heart, just as she did with her son, and this time, she doesn’t want to waste any time going against what she knows in her heart. *sobbing* What courage and resolve Sam showed in the face of being looked at as though she had six heads. How many of us would even dare to believe in a situation like this hers?

I will say that I give Alexis so much credit for reacting so quickly and trying to appease Sam by agreeing that it was possible – for Jason, specifically, to have survived, because he had certainly survived worse over the years. I am not sure how many mothers would have gotten it so quickly, but it was obvious to Alexis just how badly Sam needed someone to believe with her. (The poor thing)¬†I felt for all of them, because I know it was an impossible situation for all involved, as Sam is convinced that her husband is alive, and her family was desperate to help her through something she refuses to accept. Molly especially broke my heart, because no one has been a greater or stronger supporter of Jason and Sam’s Love Story than Molly. Watching her with tears swimming in her eyes at the thought that the one true Love Story she had dared to believe in would end tragically after all was tough. I would hate it if Molly lost faith in True Love, especially since Jason and Sam championed on its behalf so often with her.

Alexis and the girls’ mistake was in talking about what about what they really thought about Jason’s chances within Sam’s range of hearing. ¬†Her no-holds-barred reaction to hearing them talk about how unreasonable it was for Sam to be so hopeful clearly stunned Alexis and the girls, but I totally get that Sam just cannot abide any other belief than the one that Jason is alive and coming back to her right now. She is fighting like hell to keep that hope alive and surrounding their son, because she fears the alternatives so terribly. *wipes tears*¬†

When Sam held that door open and told them it was time for them to leave, I was torn. I knew that it was hurting her family, but I am not sure that they truly understood how much it hurts Sam that they won’t believe her heart – AGAIN. In the end, that is what today’s showdown was about. Sam is believing what her heart, not the circumstantial evidence,¬†is telling her once more, and her loved ones are finding it nearly impossible to do the same because it just doesn’t make much sense. Then again, neither did the thought that Sam was given the wrong baby make any sense, and just look at how that turned out.

I did appreciate the fact that Alexis came back before leaving and kissed Sam and told her that she loved her and would be back. Whether Sam wants to hear that right now or not doesn’t matter; as long as she can remember what Alexis said when she needs it most. Clearly, Sam is struggling with the fact that Jason is gone at all, even if he is alive. She wants him home. With her. With their son. She is all too aware of how much time was lost, and somewhere deep down, she blames herself because she didn’t fight hard enough for what she knew in her heart after she was told her baby died. She is going to refuse to make that mistake again.¬†Every moment that was lost to them as a family because of that mistake is a moment she will forever regret, especially now that Jason isn’t with her and Danny.

{Which is why God help Liz Webber if that paper she tried to crush like leaves into that harbor was proof that Jason was Danny ‘s father. If she ran her own test and never told Jason or Sam, I hope Carly personally crushes her like leaves…right off of the highest bridge possible.}¬†

Anyhoo…

I imagine that it will be a rough and lonely road ahead for Sam as she tries to hold onto the hope that’s keeping her going, as the rest of Jason’s loved ones try to deal with the loss and try to get some closure. Everyone, including Sonny, Carly, and Monica, seem to have accepted that this time, Jason isn’t coming back. That will not be easy for Sam to accept.

However, Die-hards, it wasn’t a coincidence that Sam realized how important it was for Jason to have enough hope for the both of them while they were kept apart by fake circumstances. I bet that realization will help her to have enough hope for the both of them now that they are being kept apart by fake death. They will be together again…“That’s The Only Way This Story Ends.”

I, too, have enough hope for the both of them. What about you?

I hope this inspires you: “JaSam: Hope Now”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1fvgSL44KeM¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

Angelique


WORTH FIGHTING FOR…

Good morning, GHers.

The countdown, I know, is on. I can just about hear the ticking of the clock counting down our Jason Morgan minutes…

However, I almost lost track of that ticking while watching today. I just could not help focusing on how much Jason Morgan wants his wife and son home. For me, that is the thing I find myself fixating on at the moment. I will never EVER tire of hearing Jason tell anyone and everyone who will listen that he loves his wife and their son, and that he wants a life with them. It fills my heart to the brim to hear the passion in his voice when he talks about it, and it seems to be pretty clear to everyone else as well.

Are you guys aware that we have heard Jason spend every single day of the last week and a half (though it’s just been a day and a half in PC) telling someone about how much he loves Sam, and their son, and how much he wants a life with them? He has told Heather, Monica, Sonny, Carly, and now – in no uncertain terms, he has finally told Sam.

Aaaaaahhhhh!

As a JaSammer,  take a moment to rejoice and to allow that to sink in!

Jason Morgan, Stone Cold, Mob Enforcer, and let’s face it, occasional chicken-shit when it comes to LOVE,¬†has gone on and on and on about wanting something that was anything but a sure thing to anyone with the ability to hear! And even when he was tempted to “love them enough to let them go”, he decided for himself that Sam and Daniel are WORTH FIGHTING FOR. Do you see what LOVE can do?

THIS IS HUGE, MY FRIENDS!

I am not even sure we realize how huge! Jason has loved Sam so deeply and truly over the past eight years of being in a relationship. He has loved and lost and loved again. In those years, Jason has been her hero, her best friend, her lifeline, her fianc√©, the only one in her corner, her redeemer, her second chance, her shooting star, her first mate, her no-memory-having-but-falling-in-love-again-while-taking bubble baths-partner, her first PI partner, her family, her hospital bed guardian (more than once), her coward full of guilt, her Halloween Treat, her rescuer from buildings from which she dangled, her partner on the run, her exonerator, her greatest motivator, her staunch supporter, her biggest fan, her biggest disappointment, her rug pulled out from under her, her stranger, her hero once more, even when he acted like he didn’t know her, her¬†partner in crime, her most grateful guardian, her rescuer more times than I can count, her silent partner, her there-to-catch-her-when-she-falls-in the most-literal-sense-of -the-word-and-in-her-underwear, her road trip buddy, her patient, her only hot tryst in a church, her best way to wake up on the side of a Mexican road, her insistent carnival date, her favorite wedding date, her most romantic surprise-preparer, her Christmas memory-maker, her hero once again, her Funny Valentine, her compass, her most-wanted inmate, her fake husband with a real conjugal visit, her free man, her Clyde to her Bonnie, her jerk with a superman complex and a pain-in-the-ass-ex-wife, her Christmas tree handler, her gun cleaner, her very serious Valentine, her reminder of Hawaii, her Love whisperer when she was hearing impaired, her nurse, her determined fianc√©-to-be, her convincing fianc√©, her almost gone too soon, her dream come true, her husband, her Dragon, her Honeymoon Honey, her surf competition, her jewelry maker, her heartbroken husband, and sadly – her heartbreak. But lastly and amazingly, Jason got to be her Healer in the most significant way possible. Jason believed Sam when no one else would, and fought to find and bring her baby back to her. Yes, her hero once more.¬†What an amazing journey we’ve taken with Jason and Sam! Yet, even with all that he’s been to her over the years, all the man wants now is to love Sam and their son and take care of them forever! Oh. My. God.¬†¬†*wipes tears*

As I think back on this week we’ve enjoyed, I realize it isn’t just the journey; it’s what they’ve learned along the way. This is such new territory for Jason. The minute Sam hesitated, the former Jason would have shut down and let her go. Not this Jason. Jason not only asked Sam to bring Danny and come home with him to be a family, he admitted his mistakes and took ownership of them. He told her he loved her, that he loved Danny, and that they could have that dream. Jason Morgan pled his case. Something I have never seen him do. He did it for LOVE; Sam’s Love. And the right to earn Danny’s Love. He did it because he believes the love he and Sam have always shared is WORTH FIGHTING FOR, and he sure did fight.

Jason fighting for his marriage and his son is a gift to us JaSam fans. If you listen to every word Jason said to Sam about being Danny’s father, you will realize that not even when Jason knew he was Jake’s father did he fight to be part of Liz’s life. He let her go, even if it meant taking Jake with her. Every single time.

 

As you well know, I believe we only fight for things that really matter to us. Things that are WORTH FIGHTING FOR. 

Jason hasn’t been the only one to learn a thing or two. Our Sweet Sam has finally learned not to settle; not even for the greatest love she’s ever known. She wasn’t sure what Jason was asking for a moment, but she made it clear she knew what she was asking. She wanted to be sure her son can experience the same kind of love she has experienced from Jason. She wanted to know that Jason was sure, because as Danny’s mother, she isn’t willing to take any chances. Most of all, Sam learned to think before running, even when she is most scared, and to know when things, even scary things like believing in Love again, are WORTH FIGHTING FOR.¬†

I cannot begin to tell you just how grateful I am that if Jason and Sam’s Incomparable Love Story has to hit a pause, it will do so while leaving things very clearly understood – not just to JaSam Fans, but all fans. We go into this pause understanding that Jason is in love with one woman: his wife. We understand that he could have had another woman, but didn’t want her. It is crystal clear that Jason wants not just a life together because of an obligation (one of my favorite lines today!), but a life filled with love and happiness with his wife and their son, whom he doesn’t need to be related to biologically.¬†Dammit, Jason Morgan dares to want FOREVER! (Something I am not even sure he believed in until Sam!)

*sobbing uncontrollably*

Beloved, Jason’s words and actions will leave no doubt that he has never loved anyone as much as he loves Sam.

And he always will. Even if he must do so off camera. 

THAT, my dear Bella Mafia Family, was SOOOOOOOO WORTH FIGHTING FOR. 

And I am honored to have fought for that with all of you these past three years!

I love you all…and I LOVE JASAM…NOW AND FOREVER!

Angelique    *tears open first of many boxes of tissue*

 


WHAT NOW?

Good morning, GHers!

I don’t know about you, but I am heartbroken every time I think about the answer to that question! On the one hand, how can we not all be thrilled with how the last few days have played out between Jason and Sam?

THIS is exactly the way we knew Jason woulda, shoulda, coulda been with his wife and their baby (even if he wasn’t the father), so it’s nice to finally see that play out onscreen. Jason is supportive and loving, calming and tender, and most importantly, completely and totally embracing his role as Daniel Edward’s father. I feel as though I have waited F O R E V E R for these scenes!

Yet, on the other hand, these are the scenes that remind us that the end is near. We know these are Jason’s last precious hours in Port Charles, and Steve’s last precious hours onscreen. As much as I’ve waited and longed for these scenes, I want to hold them back and put off those goodbyes we are all dreading so very much. I want to yell, “N O O O O O!” every time I see the end of the episode I am watching, because it only means there is one less episode of JaSam Fabulosity to look forward to. *sniff*

So, Certainly, the question of “What Now” does not mean the same thing to us that it means to our beloved Jason and Sam, but all we can do is focus on what it means to them for as long as we possibly can.

So what do you think it means to them?

I can tell you that from Jason’s tone of voice when talking to Sam, the searing way he looks at his wife, and the way he seems to breathe only when she does, it appears, at least to me, that Jason has no plans whatsoever of going home without his family. It’s as if he wants to keep both Sam and Baby Daniel within arms’ reach.

And as far as Sam is concerned, she is living out a dream come true, delayed though it may be. Imagine being so happy that…it hurts? It makes you feel guilty? It scares you? While at the same time, having the son she thought she’d lost forever, and Jason having been the one to find out he was alive AND the one to place him in her arms – safe and sound. ¬†THAT’S some kind of happiness!

And how could we not love watching that?

I am so looking forward to Jason and Sam finally getting some time alone so that they can finally ask the question they both already asked aloud, “What Now?”

I want to see, hear and experience everything these two have to work through in order to get them from the hospital to HOME. Their HOME. Together. As a family. 

I know that every smile, every tear, and every word will be a special part of their AMAZING Love Story and History, and I cannot wait to be a witness to it.

So, “What Now” for me?

I will enjoy the love and excitement Jason and Sam are sharing at the moment, and I will not allow myself to think past that.

 

I just can’t.

What about you?

Angelique


How ‘Bout A Monday (Late Night) Drive Down Memory Lane?

Good morning (or it will be by the time I post), GHers!

First and foremost, I want to say thank you to all of you who privately emailed, texted and facebooked me about my (now I see it was rather) cryptic last post. No, the court case I mentioned is not, thankfully, about my children or and other family member. However, if any of you were reading Bella Mafia during the Kristina/Keifer storyline, or even after the Honeymoon Rape storyline, you know that I don’t need it to be about my kids or my family for it to get me HEATED and ready to FIGHT! It’s enough for me that I was (kinda mistakenly, but totally heaven-sent) given information that could help put a stop to a bunch of pigs who would allow a cover-up where children were involved – and thereby changed forever. There was no way that I could sit this one out. I owe it to those kids, especially since one of them is no longer with us, and their families to make sure that everyone involved faces the music. And we ALL owe it to every kid out there to stand up and do what’s right the minute we are given the opportunity. There will never be an excuse, at least in my book, to keep silent on anything that has the power to hurt a child. But truly, I was so touched when I came back and saw all of your sweet and touching messages of concern for my family! I adore each of you for taking the time to be my support ¬†– and as Rita so beautifully put it – for willing to be the wind beneath my wings as I try to fly above the ugliness ahead. ¬†*tears*

Now, forgive me for being MIA on Sunday – as Steph put it – she knew something had to be up when there was no Drive. I actually ended up in the hospital ¬†on Saturday afternoon. Sometimes when I have this much going on, I push myself too hard – and with my medical history – it’s always a gamble. This time I crapped out – and ended up needing medical intervention to get back on track. Luckily (for me – not those affected), there was a terrible outbreak of some kind of virus or flu – and my doctor wouldn’t even allow for me to be treated in the ER, for fear that with my compromised immune system, I would end up catching it. So after a night in a recovery suite on the surgery floor, I was sent home with meds, and strict instructions to recover at home. ūüôā

Thankfully, I was able to watch the oh-so-anticipated moment when Jason placed their son back in Sam’s arms. What a moment it was! I cried the entire scene! The way that Jason looked at Sam and that baby was so beautifully stirring – and it almost made me forget that we should have seen that very look four months ago when Sam gave birth, and Jason should have been by her side instead of John McBain. But I digress. Today was absolutely magical for me, and I am looking forward to absolutely every second that we get of that gorgeous Morgan Family from here on out.

Let’s agree to soak it up, take it in, and lock away very amazing moment they share together before it gets ripped away from us. And, most importantly, let’s trust our magical JaSam vidders to do their very best at preserving these memories for us…FOREVER.¬†

Just like they’ve done here…with the good, the bad, the regrets and the celebrations. Everything about JaSam is BEAUTIFUL and worth remembering ALWAYS.

“Oh, How The Years Go By” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G-sbrtWMQuA Credit: jusablond79

“The Scientist”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5WdOa5yRjns Credit: jmsg411

“…That Girl’s My Best Friend”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Hwej4xH1LY¬†Credit: Jenn1367

“Anybody’s Heart”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bSjpXLbcZ4c Credit: FairSamantha

“To Have And To Hold” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Gwp3NQ40Ew Credit: aproditebeauty

“Who Knew?”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QWFsQMJfcvY Credit: GHRickLesley

“Wanted”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6eHK4vHIN8g¬†Credit: jusablond79

Through The Years” ¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oM-en0Xhqk4 Credit: aproditebeauty

I can’t wait to see Jason take his family home…especially knowing we’ll be enjoying it together!

Love you all, Baby Morgan conmadres!

Angelique


Loves Of A Lifetime

Good morning, GHers.

So much has happened this week, that I could base a telenovela on our lives. My hubby was hurt at work on Tuesday and needed to see one doctor after another this week, we had a family we know go through a terrible crisis, and I am preparing for the possibility of being part of a very painful, but very important lawsuit that would be all about taking a stand against sexual abuse and the cover-ups that happen afterward all too often. I really need your prayers and good thoughts, because I am already dealing with some pretty serious anxiety and panic attacks, and we are weeks away from finding out if it will actually end up in court.

Anyhoo…I finally got to sit in bed last night with my laptop and earphones to watch the week’s GH. It just so happened that the one day there was nothing going on in this family, ABC pre-empted GH in order to show the Columbus Day Parade in NYC. -_____-

What a week it’s been in Port Charles, huh?

From Luke coming home to Duke coming back from the dead…it has been like taking a trip back to the ’80s. I have to admit that I was a little swept up in the flashbacks of the Duke and Anna from ¬†back then. I have always said that flashbacks (from way back when in GH’s rich and fabulous history ¬†– NOT incessant flashbacks of what happened that week) have the ability to tug at our heartstrings like little else can. I also think that for the viewers who have joined GH in most recent years, it’s a great way to show them what the fuss over Duke is all about, and may even encourage them to look up some old scenes.

I found that the head writer I will never forgive for the past year may actually have scored a very small point with me in having all this talk onscreen about Loves of a Lifetime. Duke and Anna, Luke and Laura.

And they aren’t just talking about Loves of a Lifetime. They are showing them in action and in the present in Jason and Sam. I have been very satisfied to see that the story about our missing baby has centered on Jason and Sam, and their dealing with it together. The jerk responsible for tearing our JaSam Dream apart this past year also earned a point with me in that Jason was the one to insist that Sam’s baby might actually be alive, and that he was the one to set things in motion to bring him home. Had it been McBain, I may have lost it.

I also am grateful that in Steve’s last couple of weeks onscreen, he has been all about his wife, and his Love of a Lifetime: Samantha McCall-Morgan. In fact, it has been quite obvious that as far as Jason is concerned, there is no other woman who could ever compare. (*cough, Cough* Liz)¬†If Jason had to leave, I am grateful that he leaves behind no doubt about the woman he chose – the woman he loves more than anything or anyone. Sam was more important than Sonny, than Carly, and Michael, even in the midst of their falling-to-pieces lives. I have waited a long time to see that, and I am glad that I got to see it before Jason disappears from all of our lives.

Watching Jason and Sam bond over the pictures of their son, and watching Jason be there for Sam at every moment has been long overdue, and those moments have melted my heart. Truly, it has been The Beauty of GH for me. Every little thing has made me ache for the moment Jason and Sam hold their son together and take him home as a family. If only all of this had played out long before Steve made the decision to move to TN. *sigh*

I will say that the supporting roles so much of the canvas has had in this storyline has been great – it proves that they seem to get that it doesn’t have to be a wedding or a funeral to get the entire cast involved in something. Isn’t that what happens in a small town like PC?

I am looking forward to today’s GH with more excitement than I’ve felt in a very long time. I am hoping that we get the moments we’ve been holding our breath for sooner, rather than later, but just knowing that we’ll all be sharing it together brings me incredible joy. You guys are an important part of my life, and there’s just no other way to watch GH now.

See you on Sunday morning!

Love you all,

Angelique


A Sunday Drive Down Memory Lane…While Thinking About Goodbyes

Good Sunday morning, GHers!

I will be honest with you, as positive as I fight with myself to be, I cannot help but think about the goodbyes that await Jason and Sam…and all of us. It makes me teary and it always forces a lump into my throat whenever I think of it. *sniff*

However, as the JaSam trooper that my kids remind me I am, I have decided to persevere and try to focus on the fact that Jason and Samantha Morgan are so magical, that not even the daunting thoughts of goodbyes could make me look away. I will take very second of JaSam we have left onscreen…and on here.

I am almost sure you all will too!

Let’s start right now…

“Dance So Good”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6gpCP827bBI¬†Credit: JaSam4EverAlways

“You Shoulda Known Better”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sO5ROKHQxCQ¬†Credit: jmsg411

“I Was Enchanted To Meet You”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FXtPGmWCHw0 Credit: kd23oth

“As Long As You Love Me”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5qxSYFspQAU Credit: ATWTlover4ever1

“You Don’t Know Her Like I Do”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsTBm34G7EM Credit: Sly0789

“Goodbye For Now”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vOhWkbFDfd0¬†Credit: JaSam4EverAlways

“Goodbye My Lover”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TkLRXhKtVMs Credit:jenn4jasam

These two vids kinda go together…

“You’re The Best Thing That Ever Happened To Me”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8ZVFEW-8qQ Credit: aproditebeauty

“Lady”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kd-YmRZZ0A4¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

This vid should get our adrenaline pumping for the week ahead: “JaSam FTW”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l2OLsPCcyr4¬†Credit: Leylann

*sigh*

That was beautiful. Can’t think of a better way to spend a Sunday than with all of you, honoring our favorite soap couple of all time!

I hope to do just that for a long time to come…

Angelique


ANTICLIMACTIC…Where Else Was There To Go?

Good morning, GHers.

I almost didn’t post today to be honest. I know my view will be in the minority, but decided it is my “job” to share it anyway. ūüôā ¬†I stayed away from Twitter, Facebook and even Youtube, because I didn’t want any of the meltdowns to affect my instinctual feelings about how this Liz drama finally climaxed…rather anticlimactically.

I will be honest in that I did not expect it to go down this way. I expected some more drama. More emotion. More … MORE.

I know so many wanted Jason to rip Liz a new one, threaten to thrown her down the 15 flights she travels more and more desperately each time, or at least to flick her out on her pale butt. Yet, if we really, really look at the history of this relationship between Jason and Liz, we would see that wanting any one of those things would boil down to wanting Jason to do what WE would do if we had the chance.

You see, I didn’t take it as a slap in the face to JaSam fans. I didn’t see that he was giving Liz a “break”. Honestly, this is what I saw: (please refrain from throwing anything at me until I am done)

FIrst, let me explain a little bit of my own history with the Jason and Liz situation. I was watching when they first “got together” (and I use that term oh-so-loosely). I was watching when Jason witnessed Liz and Zander hooking up, with barely a reaction. I was watching when Liz walked out of Jason’s PH and his life, with barely a reaction. I was there for all of her jealous fights with Courtney. I was there for all of it. And the one thing that felt right about what went down in Jason’s PH all these years later, was the sameness of the “barely a reaction.”¬†

When we look at our own lives, there are people who hurt our feelings because of something they said – or didn’t say about us. Yeah, it stings. It hurts. But then there are the people that we love. When any of those people hurt our feelings because of something they said or didn’t say – all hell usually breaks loose. There are tears, heated exchanges, words that can never be taken back, and feelings of betrayal that may even go beyond than they should. Why? Because when we love deeply, we hurt deeply.

I have watched Jason and Liz walk in and out of each others’ lives, and even when there were tears, I have never felt anything pulling on my heartstrings. It has always felt ANTICLIMACTIC. I remember the day Liz walked out of the PH all those years ago after finding out Sonny was really alive, I called my sister and told her, “I am so done with Liz and Jason as a couple.” ¬†And I was – and have never looked back on it. When a couple cannot make me feel something as they walk away from each other, (other than relief) something is missing!

Each time since then that Jason and Liz have walked away, I have been left feeling the same way. They have never left me feeling that there was so much passion that every emotion between them explodes – the good, the bad, and the ugly. Not the way Jason and Sam do.

In fact, the moment I knew there would be magic between Jason and Sam was the moment that Jason tried to run her out of town and slammed the briefcase shut¬†in her face. Sure, it was condescending and insulting on Jason’s part, but I think even then, Sam rankled Jason. Made him seem more alive than he had for a while. Each time they traded barbs, Jason and Sam made me smile, and wonder why they got under each other’s skin so badly. Sure enough, it was the pull of that mutual attraction that frustrated them both. Still, it wasn’t romance, but damn – not once did I watch them have one of those heated exchanges and think, “Ugh. That was ANTICLIMACTIC.”¬†

In fact, I remember burning quite a few dinners because I refused to miss a second of what was developing between Jason and Sam…even when it was at a snail’s pace. Yet, even when it was moving ever so slowly, I felt that it was always moving forward…growing…changing. And I couldn’t look away, because they were taking me along for the ride! Oh, how I loved the way Jason and Sam would say what they meant and mean what they said, even if it meant they said it loudly. I could feel the passion behind every word they said to each other, even when they had to apologize later. That “kinda real” dynamic made Jason and Sam so different than any other couple I had ever enjoyed, that I became a full-fledged FAN. That has never changed.

Not even when that dynamic between them led to ugly breakups and hurtful words and actions. How could Jason and Sam have ended and just walked away without the same amount of passion they loved each other with? It just wouldn’t be possible!

Which brings us back to Jason’s reaction to Liz. I imagine that RC took some time to go back and revisit the history of their relationship. I believe he took the time to watch all the things I mentioned – including all the times they walked away from each other. And I have to say, that after seeing that history, I cannot imagine that RC thought it would make sense to have some emotional, passionate blow-out between Jason and Liz at this juncture. Not after so many years and so many occasions where things between them always lead to an end that was ANTICLIMACTIC.

Sure, I saw that Liz was emotional and weepy, but Jason was stoic and focused on what he wanted – to find Sam’s baby. As Liz is pouring out her regrets, Jason comes right out and asks her if she has the real results. I thought it was incredibly telling that as Liz was explaining why she did it – blaming it on what Sam did, and then somehow wanting to believe that Jake’s life would have turned out differently if Sam hadn’t seen Maureen take him, Jason seemed to look at her the way he has so many times in the past few years – as though he felt sorry for her. Pitied her. Didn’t really know her. Even more so when Liz admitted that she didn’t want the baby bringing Jason and Sam back together – because she wanted a chance for them. Jason told her he didn’t know what she wanted him to say, but he obviously had nothing to offer on his own about the fact that he didn’t feel the same. He also didn’t reach out to her. He didn’t touch her. He didn’t hold her. He may not have threatened to kill her, but his not taking her into his arms and immediately sheltering her as he has habitually done, and instead erecting a physical boundary line did kill her. Every word he directed at her after that was meant to keep her from going off the deep end – the one he failed to see her inching towards all these months. Nothing more. No shouting or passionate outburst from Jason. Just another reminder that he would figure out how to fix this…for Sam. Liz was left to fix it for herself for the first time. (Boo-freakin-hoo!)¬†

That, my friends is ANTICLIMACTIC. 

And when you look at the story between these two over the years of tries and misses, you realize that this ending, like all the others, just had to be written as ANTICLIMACTIC. Where Else Was There To Go? 

At this point, I don’t need another second of Jason’s dwindling time in Port Charles spent on Liz and her latest breakdown. I want to focus on what Jason does now. On what he and Sam have left before they are ripped apart by onscreen fate and real life reality. Let’s focus on The Beauty Of GH¬†we have left…the fact that Liz’s lies are now exposed and Jason and Sam can stop being kept apart by lies. They still have to find their son and bring him home. Let’s forget the forgettable and focus on the unforgettable…for as long as we have it.

Much Love,

Angelique


Good Sunday Morning, GHers!

I hope you are all having a great morning, and that you are looking forward to doing whatever makes you smile.

I have to say that it’s a little bit tougher than I imagined knowing that Steve has taped his last scenes and has walked away from that GH building for the last time (at least for the foreseeable future). I don’t really know what I will do with a Jason Morgan-less existence. He has been part of my daily life for so long…

I am truly grateful for the 21 years he gave to all of us as Jason, and I will never forget how he made me fall in love with a mobster who fell in love with the tough-on-the-outside-but-soft-on-the-inside Sam McCall. Nothing else Jason Morgan did stole my heart like that did, and the past (almost) nine years of tuning in just to see what would happen between them next were the best years on a soap for me, ever. So, while I wish Steve NOTHING but the very best, I cannot deny that he takes a little piece of my heart with him to Tennessee, because I won’t be the same without my JaSam. ūüė¶

That being said, I hope we all take a moment to recognize and appreciate how important and invaluable these vids that we all love and count on so much really are. I have been getting my JaSam fixes here for the past few months, but I realize that I have been going through mini-marathons as the end of Steve’s incredible run comes to an end, along with our JaSam Love Story playing out onscreen. I imagine that the gift our favorite vidders have given us will seem all the more special following the last JaSam scenes. *tears*

Please, please take a moment to thank each of them for being such a huge part of The JaSam Love Story and the legacy they shared with all of us. Each vid we have in a playlist or as part of our favorites will help to keep JaSam’s Love alive and well in our hearts for years to come…and that is just plain magical. For that, we owe our vidders a huge debt of gratitude.

Thanks from me personally to all of you, for making the last three years of Sundays on Bella Mafia a time that brought us all together – no matter where we were or what we were going through! I have decided that no matter what I decide about blogging for GH, Sundays will continue to be our “thing”. No matter what is going on in Port Charles, we will continue to take ¬†A Sunday Drive Down Memory Lane…with JaSam, for as long as you’re willing to go with me!

For now, get in…and let’s get going!

“Marry Me”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-g5HmeBU3_Y¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

And one more time: “Marry Me” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4y3PusTj7b4¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

“All I Ever Needed”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vkZhKR3yedQ Credit: charmedp3f

“Will You Be Mine?”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZtnX_XDEWg¬†Credit: Fair Samantha

“Husband & Wife”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZRtYoBPRIMU Credit: mcdela02

“Endless Love”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FkVMgOU5nho¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

“Let’s Get Married”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBuBYlMk1XA Credit: Ro Blackett

“I’ll Stand By You”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTnEM-b1JRE Credit: yugottahitpeople

“4Ever More”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8rIgud1LUA Credit: gigga143

I just knew that if I held on, (or fell asleep, like I did somewhere in the middle of posting) she would post a new vid for this week… ūüôā

“Now That You’re Gone”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RU6Z5LaUyLA Credit: aproditebeauty

And of course, there is no way we can celebrate their wedding week without celebrating their wedding night, and my favorite JaSam Moments:

“9/29/11 Jason & Sam Make Love”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAYv-KN09K0 Credit: ashleycramni

“9/30/11 Jason & Sam *Home*”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sk7bKBCSwg4 Credit: ashleycramni

I hope you enjoyed revisiting the week we had all been waiting and wishing for since the minute we fell in love with Jason and Sam all those years ago. I know that like me, so many of you will be “revisiting” so many of their most magical moments in the days and weeks ahead. Thanks to Youtube and our beloved vidders, the JaSam Magic lives on.

Love you all,

Angelique


A Sunday Drive Down Memory Lane Full Of Kisses

Good Sunday morning, GHers!

Now, before you get a little mad at me for being a bit behind schedule, just think that if Jason and Sam were on a weekend away together, no one would want Sam to leave Jason’s side for ANYTHING! And so it was for me. My hubby had the idea that we would spend this anniversary weekend together every minute, and so I did just that. How could I not, especially after 22 years of getting more than I ask for?

However, he is so sweet, that over breakfast he asked me if needed to do my “Sunday thing”¬†on the blog, and I offered to do it after we got home and picked up¬†the kids. He insisted I do “whatever it is” I had to do, and he’d go to the gym. THIS is why after 22 years, I am still in love! ūüôā

So, I got an interesting email from a friend of Bella Mafia, who asked that I pass this along:

“The JaSam episode is more important than you think. It’s not just “too little, too late”. You’ve gotta get your readers out of that mindset. NOTHING has been set in stone. And in soaps, you know anything can happen at any time. First, we have to create buzz surrounding that day, because buzz has been in short supply for GH for a while now. Get your readers to call in and email and even tweet all of the kinds of comments I am reading in your comments section right now. Have them telling the AIC¬†(I love that, by the way) all those things they feel! The point is to get JaSam on their minds, too! I think the reaction to the JaSam day might have far-reaching¬†effects, if we stay invested! I hate to say it, but the “other side” is already planning to flood the AIC¬†with tons of buzz on “their” day, even though that hasn’t even been spoiled yet. Steve isn’t gone yet, and even when he is, there’s nothing saying he can’t come back – at any time, except for VIEWERS! Believe it or not – we still have the¬†power. But only if we use it! Now is not the time for people to throw in the towel – now is the time to RAISE SOME HELL! SNAP OUT OF IT, PEOPLE! This would not be the first time TPTB have had to beg and sweeten a deal to keep a fan fave from walking away for good!”

So, there you have it, and from someone I trust implicitly on these types of things. Jason and Sam deserve a fight on their behalf, no? And so do Steve and Kelly…we can’t just take our toys and go home now!

COME ON, Let’s do this!

We were told¬†by an older woman at the hotel that the secret to an enduring marriage is KISSING. (I will be married for as long as I live, I guess) She said, “Kissing as often as you can, every day, will always make troubles melt away and anger will never stand a chance. And really, ‘Who could stay mad when you’re kissing?'” (she’s obviously a genius)

I’ve decided to apply¬†that theory here. I hope our anger towards the AIC doesn’t stand a chance when we are reminded of JaSam KISSING!

“And Then He Kissed Me” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IeyHBmJ8nMo¬†Credit: odirtyrice7

“This Kiss”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zBDp8cN8Qh4¬†Credit:¬† JaSamAreSoulmates

“Could I Have This Kiss Forever?” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vPw6sJgsRRk¬†Credit: jasam4ever08

“Kiss You All Over”¬† http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CjX7ky9Zl_g¬†Credit: JasonWantsME

“JaSam Kisses” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ibuon8xNmoY¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

“Kissing You” thttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Edt56ChxqzY: TheVintageGH

“Kissing You” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yjGn8HEnH2E¬†Credit: heartgeeks

“Kissing Rain” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1HJ7-ca6rwA¬†Credit: julietkim99

(STILL one of my faves) “JaSam Kisses (no music)” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKwgp9NAcEc¬†Credit: jasamarenumberone

“Kiss The Girl” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3XPmRfWelqg¬†Credit: packernut13

“Kiss Me Deadly” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hB-tm1gP6JQ¬†Credit: JasonWantsME

And…this is EPIC…inspired by the Official JaSam Kiss List!

“The You Kissed Me” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8mynq7EcCY4¬†Credit: raindance4521

I hope you are feeling the love again…and clearing your schedule for the 6th! ūüôā JaSam Needs Us!

Love and KISSES to you all,

Angelique


WHATEVER…

Good morning, GHers. (If I may still call you that)

It’s been very busy around here – my mom’s BIG eye surgery took place yesterday. Thank God everything went very well, and she is recovering comfortably. Thanks to all who kept her in your thoughts and prayers.

Also, my babies went back to school today, so the past week or so has been hectic with shopping and haircuts and all of the stuff that goes with getting ready for the big day. As I type right now, I am still wiping tears – I HATE WHEN THEY GO BACK TO SCHOOL! Summer is my favorite time of year because we get to spend every day together – and it’s so hard when that comes to an end.

*deep sigh*

Anyhoo, I took a peek at yesterday’s GH, but there was nothing to hold me, so back to the telenovela I switched. Thanks to a couple of you, I was informed that the writers had Sam and John on for about 3 minutes, spouting some senseless dribble.

Want to know my reaction to that was?

A Big, Fat…WHATEVER.

The Sam I know and love was just as heartbroken at the thought of her marriage ending as Jason was. I won’t accept an “Imitation Sam”, nor will I accept and “Imitation Jason”.

I just won’t. So if they continue to write them acting unrecognizably – just like this version of GH goes, then the most they will continue to get out of me will be¬†“WHATEVER!”

I will always have the GH I loved and supported wholeheartedly in my heart, and on Youtube (thankfully). That’s where I’ll get my GH “fix” for the foreseeable future. Too bad those views won’t boost ratings.

Hopefully, they will boost your spirits…

Your Daily Inspiration (& Perfectly Timed) : Jason and Sam {What Are Words} http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usj0Oga-MaM Credit: juter0208

Angelique

THIS DAY IN JASAM HISTORY (a.k.a. When GH Was Worth My Time)

August 13

2004: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lo0Fvh-aqus

2010: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=amHiEb4TWME

August 14

2009: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3phchmvpgts

August 15

2005: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-PlXLG-6qvo

2011: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ya4yERXuNas

August 16

2004: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z0E4U6GYjjA 

2005: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ow6Vchyoqqo

August 17

2004: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b-UiRh2mFf0

2009: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pKeuDY9a2gk

2010: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FqrC065tmCU

2011: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BAozO5ViCDo

August 18

2004: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6fvFvcQDbA

2005: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vxrQxOF_ieg

2006: Part 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xgaq8trR1mA and Part 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J1mADN-y7J0

2009: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=06Fcs2XmkBM

2010: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-BlE1hPfFos

August 19

2004: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FCXQBIHB5fY

2005: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=slUsBfQigL4

2009: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J_hA148uuV4

2010: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WswUNxn5cTg

2011: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLko4vgBI4U

August 20

2004: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r2OM1lC6AKE

2010: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F3vEJdJhk58

August 21

2009: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P8twflPCQ30

August 22

2005: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f9Thza9iYZA

2006: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RSnvjqdzh4Q (Stop around 7:00 РJIZ!)

August 23

2010: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BF6mNCcu_oY20

Now THAT was worth watching!


A Sunday Drive Down Memory Lane…To Get Our Heads On Straight

Good Sunday Morning, GHers.

I have finally caught up on all of your comments, and saw that a few of you wanted to know what I thought about a few things, so please let me be clear: I don’t think Jason and Sam’s “Goodbye” scenes were written to show finality at all, I thought the writers very deliberately wrote those scenes to show that 1) They still desperately love each other, and 2) That it was extremely difficult for them to walk away from each other. I also think the scenes in the montage showed that they were each remembering the moments that meant the most. Usually in breakups, the terrible times are remembered to show why the split is necessary, but not with Jason and Sam.

Also, someone asked why I thought they are still being shown to be looking at one another that way, and thinking about one another. I think that’s very simple: Their love is still there, and it’s still strong. I think it’s a good thing! I personally loved that Jason was making sure to check up on Sam, and to let her know that he was there – just in case she needed him.

I decided to take us on Drive where we could absorb what’s happened this past week, and separate fact from hype. You know – to get our heads on straight. ūüôā I know that things are probably gonna get a lot worse before they can get better, but let’s not jump the gun. Let’s also not forget to enjoy what we are being given – which is our couple still clearly in love, just because we are already reacting to something that is “supposed” to happen down the line. One day at a time, folks. ūüôā

Taken right from the pages of this tough chapter we find ourselves in the middle of, Heather created another gem for all of us to hold on to. *tissue alert* “I Can’t Fight The Words To Say Goodbye”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYcpBvzPrVI¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

I loved the expanded montage in this vid. Beautiful. “Goodbye To You”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2qXQMUXv1wk¬†Credit: ashley1282008

I think it’s safe to say we can all agree with this vidder…(And she made an incredible vid here) “No, I Can’t Believe It’s Over”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-v_RayS0iM¬†Credit: tenpointoh1

The Beauty of JaSam is that they ave so many meaningful moments – whether happy or sad, they are undeniably meaningful. This vid captures just that. “Never Let Me Go”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ER_Hj8oPS9U¬†Credit: jmsg411

This vidder not only vids, but provides the vocals as well. ūüôā “Break It To Me Gently”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-IUybHgwhvk Credit: poetfederico

Oh…it’s as if this song was written just for Jason and Sam and the way they continue to love one another. “Somewhere, Somehow”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B3upnN3X1w0 Credit: aproditebauty

I really enjoyed this vid, and also think we all shouted this at our TVs on Monday. “Don’t Go!”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fbkqr5R-hoI Credit: cocoagirlie4

This next one is a tearjerker, yet beautiful, all at once. “Alibi”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kd8oKSi7KGY Credit: BrathanBrucasLover

Awww. just what I needed to get me in the right frame of mind to keep keepin’ on for our favorite couple! Loved how many different moments this vidder chose! I think you will, too! “Just You & Me”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FeBoS0W¬†GMvs Credit: jmsg411

Most. Heartbreaking. Breakup. Ever. And this awesome vid reminds us of why their breakup so heartbreaking. We also know we’ll “Never Love (a soap couple) This Way Again!” *tears*¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzVHMjcSuF0 Credit: aproditebeauty

Hang on, beautiful friends. We are gonna get through this. Together.

Much love,

Angelique


MISSION (ALMOST) IMPOSSIBLE

Good morning, Loved Ones.

Oh, if only you knew just how much you were loved!

I could barely get through watching Tuesday’s GH, much less wanting to talk about it! *yawn* But for you guys, anything. ūüôā

Is it me, or are the same things being said over and over, day after day, by the same people? If I hear Heather say one more time that she is “going to call Samantha”, I may just need a stay at Ferncliff myself! That phrase is her new “Let’s grab a BLT!” and it’s driving me just as crazy! HEATHER! JUST CALL SAMANTHA ALREADY AND TELL HER, DAMMIT! Put us all out of our misery!

I have to say that I miss Bob Guza so much, that today, I caught myself doodling his name on my HOUSEHOLD BUDGET notebook. And yes, there were hearts all around his name, too! WHY? Because I just miss someone at the helm that knows and loves my GH as much as I do! I also miss stories actually having some kind of rhythm, where they would move along, and you could tune back in after a few days of being away and feel like you missed something. I tell you that I didn’t watch the whole week we were on vacation, and when I got back, it was as if not a day had gone by. I mean, it’s really now wonder – how often do we even see characters other than Todd and Heather? Where the hell is Anna? And did Monica start attending every convention in America again? Did she forget that she gave Jason sage advice about the baby Sam was carrying? Does she even know the baby was born? That it “died”?

I mean, really! This is just ridiculous! Meanwhile, we are getting more people on set to suck up precious time that could be going towards reestablishing the Quartermaines, or any other part of this show’s history! Just yesterday I reminded all of you that the purpose of Bella Mafia was to find The Beauty Of GH daily. Well, today, I had a moment of sheer panic while watching the show, and realized, “Oh, CRAP! I may have just set myself up for MISSION IMPOSSIBLE!” How can I continue to deliver on that promise I made when the writing continues to be like what it was today?

Thankfully, Alexis and Sam had a few nice moments of bonding and mutual love before Alexis collapsed, and I was able to downgrade the panic level to MISSION (ALMOST) IMPOSSIBLE. I was also able to deem those scenes The Beauty of GH for today.

But it shouldn’t be this hard all the time.

  • Why am I trying so desperately to understand what the hell is going on between Jerry and Ewan? Someone spill the connection already, and for the love of all that is holy to GH’s survival, someone please just explain the vials and the danger they pose! Otherwise, Jerry should be stood in front of a firing squad for what he’s done to his niece, who is still on anti-rejection meds for the kidney transplant she received! Does anyone in that writing room have a morsel of decency? Do they not realize that just about everyone watching has been affected by the process of organ donation, and that watching Jerry act as though it’s nothing of consequence for Joss is disturbing?
  • And while I am happy for the Lante fans, especially my favorite Lante fan in the world – a cutie pie from Boston, I find it so inexcusably insensitive to the many JaSam fans to have the show rub Lante rubbing up on their baby together on the same days that Jason and Sam, who’ve waited eight years to share a baby, are talking divorce and the (supposed) death of their own baby. It truly feels surreal that the writers would think it prudent to remind us all of what a massive mess they made on our show when they arrived! Why would you want to keep reminding us of how they could have had it play out for their Number One Couple on the news that they were expecting? I find that with every scene of Lante and their baby bonding, I rue the day Ron Carlivati and Frank Valentini became household names for GHers. Ugh.
  • Did Patrick get released? Has he seen Emma? And now that Joss is this big girl who is capable of sleepwalking into her yard in the middle of the night, will Emma be a tween needing to have a talk about the same drugs Patrick was abusing? I feel as though I never know what to expect when I turn GH on anymore, and while that’s great for a soap once in a while, it kinda takes the fun out if when it becomes the norm. There is certainly a comfort in knowing what to expect from our beloved daytime characters, at least some of the time.

Nooooo??? 

If so, I am hoping that you will use your voice to keep communicating to TPTB about your feelings regarding our GH. Let them know what’s working for you, and *cough, cough* what most definitely is NOT.

I shall continue to provide you all with what I find to be The Beauty of GH as often as I can, but truly, the only consistent beauty I know of right now is all of you – trying to hang in there for our beloved soap.

I know, I know. It’s most definitely MISSION (ALMOST) IMPOSSIBLE.¬†

Together, we shall persevere. (Right?)

If you see Bob Guza, or Charles Pratt, tell them I’m looking for them (desperately!)

Angelique

Your Daily Inspiration: “Come Back To Me”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=15XqHH05Tx8¬†Credit: jasamarenumberone


And The Wait Begins…

Good morning, Heartbroken.

I will warn you all that I can barely see the screen as I type because my eyes are so puffy and swollen from crying. ūüė¶

The scenes of the breakup took such a sharp turn towards sadness and heartache, that I was honestly caught off guard at how much they affected me. I was not just crying, or even weeping. I was sobbing (as my son, Matt, told everyone who came home after GH). At one point, I finally got myself under control, and then out of nowhere, I was in tears again. Finally, I just jumped in the shower so that I could finally cry my eyes out without making my kids worry.

I must be honest and say that I hated the fact that they even¬†mentioned the word divorce, and that we are supposed to believe that both Jason and Sam seem to feel that they are “doing the right thing”, mostly because the Jason and Sam that we know and love, and became Mr. & Mrs. Morgan found out long ago exactly what life was like without the other. They would never think walking away from each other was the right idea. NEVER.

That being said, I must say that I hope you can all see through the tears and the pain and the stupidity, and focus on the fact that no matter what was said…this was not so much an ending as it was a beginning.

Yes, that’s right. I said beginning. I watched the end of those heart wrenching scenes and thought, “And The Wait Begins”…

Let me preface what I am about to write with this: I HATE THIS STORYLINE. I HATE THAT JASON AND SAM HAD TO BE TORN APART, KEPT APART, AND PUSHED APART SOME MORE ALL SO THAT THERE WOULD BE ROOM FOR JOHN MCBAIN. THAT HAS NOT CHANGED.

HOWEVER...you all know that this blog is, and has always been, about finding The Beauty Of GH, even when that job is comparable to finding a needle in a haystack, as it was today. But find it I did, as I am sure most of you positive-minded people did as well.

The Beauty Of GH for me amidst all of that heartache was…well…just that: All That Heartache. Never before have I seen a breakup be so conflicted and confusing that I myself was trying to follow along. (Of course, having all new writers who are as good as strangers trying to write the breakup of GH’s most enduring couple of recent years might have had something to do with that, but I am trying to focus on the positive)

I am choosing to believe that Jason and Sam are at a complete loss for how to handle this impossible situation. One minute they’re talking about trying and counseling and the next, they are convinced that divorce is the only option. How could it possibly make sense in what they were saying, when we all know it doesn’t make sense in what they are¬†doing?

The only thing that made sense to me about those scenes and their dialogue is that in everything, each was thinking about the other first, even at the high cost to their own heart. That’s the kind of love that made Jason and Sam the Supercouple they are. That’s the kind of love that made them the first TV couple I invested in with my heart. Yet, sadly, that’s the kind of love that sometimes blinds you to the point of not seeing your mistake.

If Jason and Sam had dared to fight for what each one wanted, their conversation would have ended very differently. Instead,we heard a lot of ¬†“What do you need?”, “I couldn’t do that to you”, “I thought this is what you wanted”, and “I would rather let you go than to see you hurting”.

If either of them had dared to show just a little selfishness, we might have heard,“I know it’s gonna hurt, but I need us to get through this together.”

It was so devastatingly sad to hear Sam tell Jason that he was more than her husband; he was her best friend, and for Jason to say it was the same for him. Wasn’t that one of the magical ingredients to their perfect formula? *wipes tears* I know that some were upset that Jason said that maybe they can’t be friends; especially when he remained friends with all of his exes. I just wish those who were upset by that would realize that when you love that big and that deeply, you can’t pretend to be okay with anything less. I thought that comment spoke to the immensity of their love for each other, and to how incomparable their love and relationship is to any other.

Most important to my theory that this is the beginning of a wait, instead of what some desperately-seeking-delusions are calling “closure”, was that when Jason said that they couldn’t go back and they couldn’t move forward, Sam said, “Not while we are feeling like this.”¬†

They are “feeling like this” because of pain and regret and guilt and even anger over what they both believe was the death of Sam’s baby. Since Sam’s baby boy is about as dead as the depth of their love for each other, I think we have to see that knowing the truth about the baby being alive will release all of those feelings that held them back from believing in their love again.

Most of all, this breakup was nearly impossible for them to accomplish. When they told each other good-bye, but then held on once more and went into each other’s arms before sharing that breathtaking kiss, I felt my heart contract. I could literally feel the love they have for each other, and the sheer agony of what it took to walk away. Jason and Sam left not a single doubt in my mind that they can and will overcome everything once the truth is known. Steve and Kelly convinced me that they have poured their very hearts and souls into this pairing and this story – and they did that for all of us. Even the writers managed to leave me feeling rather certain that once again, they were throwing us a life line in putting together that incredibly amazing montage showing just how good they are together. They could have chosen to show the bad times instead of the good, or the mistakes they made instead of just how right they got it so often. They didn’t. They showed what we already knew – their love has always outweighed anything else.

That perfectly sweet, perfectly JaSam collection of fabulous memories kept me from drowning in a sea of despair on one of the darkest days in JaSam History. It kept me from jumping off the deep end into hopelessness. It kept me from forgetting that JaSam are, not were, One Of A Kind, and they deserve to know we aren’t giving up.

And The Wait Begins…for the next JaSam Reunion, and for their next chapter in this Unforgettable Love Story.¬†

Let’s wait it out together.

As my wise, dear friend Steph said to me after GH yesterday, “JaSam can only go up from here.”

And I believe her.

Angelique

Your Daily Inspiration: JaSam Montage 8/13/12  http:www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfrB_Ffnkpc Credit: klaineslexitvfan23


A Sunday Drive Down Memory Lane…Towards A Dead End

Good Sunday Morning, GHers.

We are back from a very relaxing and wonderful family vacation, so thanks to all those who sent good wishes and prayers! Truly, we had a fantastic time, and I am enamored of Lake George’s beauty and atmosphere! Our country has so many awesome places to visit and enjoy; the blessing was not lost on me.

Unfortunately, I got back just in time to tune in to GH on Friday, and just in time to cry my eyes out! How sad were the words exchanged between Jason and Sam?!? It just felt so wrong! My husband (who would never admit that he is a GHer himself, but incredibly knows everything that’s going on) watched with us since he was home on Friday, and said to me during the commercial break that after everything Jason and Sam had been through, it just wasn’t believable to him that Jason not accepting Sam’s baby, even if he was a product of rape, would be something they would break up over. He, like many of us, thought it was ridiculous that Sam’s baby with Sonny brought them together, and that these writers would use another baby to tear them apart.

All I could do was nod and ask him to pass me a tissue. ūüė¶

I will never understand the logic behind what RC is having written, nor will I ever accept that this was the natural course for Jason and Sam. EVER. 

However, I will continue to be a faithful JaSam Fan, regardless of their status as a couple onscreen, and nothing they can write will ever get me to abandon that JaSam Ship. I may refuse to watch any further character assassinations, but I will never be convinced that they are not still the love of each other’s lives, and that is what will keep me close enough to be there for the reunion. And there will be a reunion. There just cannot NOT be a reunion.

Until then, Youtube will continue to serve as my therapy sessions, and the Bella Mafia Family will continue to be support group.

And Ron Carlivati will continue to be the bane of my existence. ūüôā

This week, I decided to go with what our favorite vidders were “feeling”, and chose their most recent creations. I thought there was quite a range. Each vid was beautifully and expertly done, and I hope it serves to bolster your confidence in JaSam’s love, and strengthen your resolve to hold on to our JaSam Dreams, especially those¬†left unfulfilled.

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“Stay”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a6pquC0eH_c¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

“Cry” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lvYOypc5R7k Credit: jmsg411

“The Past”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BypiiB3PFSc¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

“Where Did We Go Wrong?”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4fWyNW-2-CU Credit: Wickedkiss00

“The Good In Goodbye”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=86mtDjJu6F8¬†Credit: juter0208

“Evergreen”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I6d_zXfLLQw¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

I promise to catch up on the JaSam history part this week – I am just still feeling the effects of vacation, and can barely keep my eyes open.

Thanks for understanding!

You guys are the best!

Have a terrific Sunday, no matter what you’re up to!

Angelique


A Sunday Drive Down Memory Lane…In Honor of Ro’s Birthday! <3

Good Sunday morning, GHers!

I just finished packing, and giving the house one more once-over, so that it’s spotless upon our return. As much as I enjoy vacation, there is still nothing like sleeping in one’s own bed, and being in one’s own house. I am trying to fight the feelings of anxiety that come whenever I travel for more than a weekend away from home. *sigh*

Luckily, I have this Birthday Drive and the fun task of finding the perfect vids for my BFF Ro (@rosieshadow), and for all of you to enjoy, while I am actually on the road. ūüôā

I will have you all know that there may never have been a Bella Mafia for more than a week if not for Ro. Yup, the very first time I posted, she commented. I emailed her back to say how much I appreciated her comment, and there began a friendship that I can only describe as a blessing from above. She encouraged me with every post, and urged me to keep posting and trying to get GH fans to tune back in and to be positive. After reading Ro’s first comments, I felt like Bella Mafia was something that could bring all of us positive people together, and here we are, almost three whole years later.

Thanks, Ro. Not just for your role in getting Bella Mafia going, but for being a friend when I was going through the worst of my surgeries, and felt that I couldn’t talk to anyone else from my “old life” because I felt so disconnected from everyone. (One of the first signs of depression)¬†Because of Ro’s encouragement, I found a passion in Bella Mafia, and went on to “meet” so many of you, whom I have come to love and appreciate and can no longer imagine my life without.

Join me in wishing Ro a birthday as wonderful and spectacular as she is! To know her is to love her, and I am so glad I got to know her!

Happy Birthday, my dear friend! I love you!

~Bella (She was the first person to ever call me that, and it “stuck”!)

For you… All of our favorites!

“That’s Worth Fighting For”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sNlWmYHPU5g Credit: HarperAnIdiot

“I Still Do”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XBPkdV5VREc¬†Credit: HarperAnIdiot

“The Way We Were”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Snjr5-qYx3A Credit: vridore

“The Way We Were”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WWW_zTGAQkU Credit: aproditebeauty

“Dream A Little Dream Of Me”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BI0GUf2F3oc Credit: luckiBelle02

“Once In My Life”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdzoPGukYME¬†Credit: Randeeni3

“I’m Your Man”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJYTIB1eyz0¬†Credit: fightinirish1289

“HOME” (How apropos)¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4DjbLpUhS4 Credit: TheVintageGH

“You Don’t Know Me”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hCKfuwSZsxo Credit: SarahCG

“”Feeling Good”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zOPYic6EAGU¬†Credit: luckiBelle

“That’s All”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fj1cj14CHEY¬†Credit: TheVintageGH

“Something Special”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1flYku2bOA Credit: JerseyBelle2

“You’ll Never Find”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2mo1cVCHNIU¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

“Everything”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wlY6cv8j5cM¬†Credit: athena606

And with this, I remind everyone, including Ro, to “Hold On”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gj18MaWvHYc¬†Credit: luckiBelle02

I hope everyone enjoyed this week’s vids…at least almost as much as Ro and I did! ūüôā Please take a second to comment and like each vid! Our vidders deserve the love!

Have a great Sunday!

Much love to all,

Angelique

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This Day In JaSam History

August 4

2004:¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sx-zF_hOY84¬†(If only he’d said “Don’t Go” this time around.)

2005: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZTrtDj0Df0 

2006: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fj1HG_-r9-I

2010: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=faCfztxFMVE

August 5

2004: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T31aW5OVuZo

2005: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOyn8KCtqxs

2009: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5XWQtzDw-IU

2010: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YXv2sfgGnoc

2011: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYRlLOmWjFU


“In The End, Love Always Wins Out”…

Good morning, GHers!

I apologize ahead of time for doing a “quickie”, but had lots to do today in preparation for vacation next week, and on top of that, we were running around like crazy people trying to get everything purchased for Back To School, as by the time we get back the stores will be mad houses!

I just wanted to say that even with the conversations Jason and Sam had about each other with Sonny and Alexis, I want us to focus on the fact that Jason and Sam are not wavering on the fact that they both still love each other, and still find it difficult to believe that their marriage could be over. The rest of those conversations was reactionary to their pain. Try to focus on that, because “In The End, Love Always Wins Out.”¬†

We have to believe that now more than ever. And if that love could win out after the Dark Ages (‘-07-’08), it will win out after this!

Hang In There – the history of that love is on our side!

I also wanted to make sure to leave you with a little inspiration, and a lotta history! Both should lift your spirits!

Much love, 

Angelique

Your Daily Inspiration: “How Do You Keep The Music Playing?”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KC2MyB8CmiI¬†Credit: JustAGirl1516

This Day In JaSam History

August 2

2004: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxCX2II-H2s Credit: luckiBelle

2005: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-ThSnqG0MY Credit: luckiBelle

August 3

2004: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAFGg6UoNy8 Credit: luckiBelle

2005: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=coBEJ1a1f48 Credit: luckiBelle

2009: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DUvKH_MGk1E Credit: DominoesAndTequila

2010: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6L6b0oZkN30 Credit: PartyGirls04


FOUND: The Beauty Of GH

Good morning, GHers!

I hope everyone is well, and feeling a little bit more upbeat about our General Hospital. I don’t know, maybe it’s me, but while watching live on Monday afternoon, just the THOUGHT that Jason was going to see Sam made me feel better! And though it didn’t happen until the last possible moment, it was worth it – and it gave me something to look forward to!

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I was a little lost watching yesterday, since I honestly didn’t even have an interest in catching up on the two weeks I’d missed, but I think I am caught up enough to know that everyone else missed one thing also: The fact that Johnny knows about the baby switch!

You know, on Bold and The Beautiful, they use flashbacks a whole lot. The difference is that on B&B, they usually use flashbacks to remind viewers of how people fell in love, how much history they’ve shared, or why they are the root for couple. NOT to remind us that we have seen the same flashbacks of the our least favorite story lines OVER and OVER AGAIN. Oh, how I wish they’d get a clue on how to use flashbacks to their advantage! *sigh*

So, apparently, and according to the flashbacks, Johnny has “men” who were tailing his grandfather’s dead body, which led to the tailing of Heather Webber, which led to the witnessing of Sam’s baby being switched for Tea’s dead baby. *rolling my freakin’ eyes back into my head*

I have to tell you that the thing that bothered me most about this storyline is not even the ridiculousness of this new “development”. It’s the fact that yet one more unforgivable thing is being chalked up to Johnny. I really did love Johnny once. As myopic as Guza’s writing was at times, I always loved that Johnny had been written as a genuine “good guy” with an unfortunate family and an even more unfortunate life path. Johnny’s behavior as of late (since RC) has been anything but that of a “good guy”. In fact, he’s being written as… as…OMG. As another Todd Manning. Someone who does disgusting things that shouldn’t ever be forgiven. I hate it! To think that on top of everything that Johnny has recently done, he is now party to keeping Sam’s baby from her, even though Johnny is still struggling to deal with having grown up without knowing his own real mom! How are we supposed to believe that? I can’t stand it!

Are we also supposed to believe that Todd hasn’t figured out yet that this is possibly the worst kept secret ever, and that he should just confess, ESPECIALLY since he knows that hit man Jason Morgan is actually the baby’s father? Come on! Camp may have been tolerated well on OLTL (or not, as it was canceled) but this is not what GH viewers are used to! I want things to make sense. I want people to use their noodles. I want this terrible storyline to be over!

If only I could believe that Carly might actually hear what the two clowns in her life are talking about! If only Sam could have stumbled upon the hidden camera while Todd was there, and before Johnny found it. If only, if only, if only Baby JJ could count on having his parents come find him sooner, rather than later. *sending subliminal messages to Vicki Dummer* Ha Ha! If only, indeed! ūüôā

I know that the Joe, Jr. and Joe, Jr. Jr. storyline was on, but I don’t really know who expects me to have ANY interest in them AT ALL, especially by themselves! These people mean absolutely nothing to me! I paid attention to the Kate and Sonny scenes because he’s Sonny, for goodness sake! I just want Kate to find out the truth about her son just so that it can play out and he can be off…out of town and off my screen! ūüôā

For me, The Beauty of GH came magnificently in the moments where Jason reminded Carly and all of us that he still knows his Fair Samantha better than anyone. There was no fooling him on Sam wanting a new start and leaving her PI Business behind! I loved that moment of recognition on Jason’s face, and I loved that we can all see that Jason is worried about Sam being involved with Todd Manning (as he should be).

I only wish that Jason and Sam would put as much energy into talking to each other as they have into talking about each other to others! My goodness! I just want to scream at how much time and effort they are wasting when they could be using both to get themselves back on track, and back together, so that they can go after their baby boy together, even if they didn’t know Jason was the father right away! Is this too much to ask?

All of this partner swapping and bed hopping that was the norm on OLTL is the laziest possible approach to keeping GH on air! Give us the stuff that soap history is made of! Love, Romance and Adventure shared by a couple with a once-in-a-lifetime kind of love!

I cannot stand when people say that happily married and starting a family has to mean the end for a couple on a soap. Just recently in her Michael Fairman interview, Vicki Dummer talked about growing up on GH and being a huge fan! But guess who she said she scheduled her life around? Luke and Laura. You know that couple who got married in 1981, and then went on to have an AMAZING run as Daytime’s First Authentic Supercouple! I wish Ms. Dummer would order her EP and HW to get busy writing the kind of story that should come next for a Love Story as huge and as EPIC as Jason and Sam’s!

To say that happy is boring to a soap couple is the same as saying creativity is hard work on a soap! It’s LAME and just Does. Not. Make. Sense. Luke and Laura got twenty years of story as Mr. & Mrs. Sure, it wasn’t all sunshine and rainbows, but it was all togetherness, and because of it, they have an eternal place in SOAP HISTORY,¬†and even though they haven’t been together on show in a decade, Luke and Laura are still the couple that keeps on giving to storyline and to the future of Port Charles through their children, and their connections, and their History.

I want the new team to recognize that they don’t seem to know General Hospital as well as they say they do. If they did, Jason and Sam would be gearing up to hit the road TOGETHER, in spite of their hurts and heartaches, in search of their baby boy, and giving us LOVE IN THE AFTERNOON along the way as they faced every danger and adventure as a team!

GET IT TOGETHER, MISTERS CARLIVATI AND VALENTINI!

You won’t be sorry!

I am counting on you guys to help get the message across…Let’s strike while the memories of Classic Love in The Afternoon are fresh on TPTB’s minds!

Angelique

Your Daily Inspiration: Jason & Sam Make Love 9/29/11 (Because this ALWAYS inspires me!) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAYv-KN09K0   Credit: ashleycramni

If any couple could possibly match the magic found with Luke and Laura, JaSam IS IT!

THIS DAY IN JASAM HISTORY

July 30

2004: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EIR8MjFxpk Credit: luckiBelle (I have always loved Sam and Monica scenes!)

2009: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urLP8fVWi94 Credit: kjewel13

2010: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zt0ip59vl-0 Credit: AddictiveSoapCouples

July 31

2006: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bUIGvWid60 jasam4everbaby

2009: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GkBgYG3NCHE Credit: daysfann

 


A Sunday Drive Down Memory Lane For The Visually Impaired :)

Good Sunday Morning, GHers!

I spent another weekend with more visiting family from Puerto Rico, and had such a terrific time that I find myself feeling extra positive; strangely so. I have decided that, at least for today, nothing is going to get me down.

Amazingly, one of the very first vids I came across this week turned out to be by someone who was sharing my unexplainable optimism (read her description). I took it as a sign. And as I kept searching for this week’s vids, I found that all of our vidders seem to be feeling that positive vibe! We were on the same #TeamJaSam wavelength! ūüôā

Isn’t the JaSam Connection an Amazing thing?

This week, our Drive is specially designed to help us all to feel hopeful and positive again, even if we cannot SEE anything positive onscreen right now. And what are people who have trouble seeing called? That’s right, Visually Impaired.

Hence the reason this Drive is for The Visually Impaired! 

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I am hoping that by the time we “park” at the end of this Drive, we are all seeing through the eyes of POSITIVITY!

“I’ll Be”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WKweAnS310A Credit: PhickJasam4eva

“Unchained Melody”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YOLJKHX5_60¬†Credit: KrisLynnJonas

“I Still Believe In You”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EUVzs_graOI¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

“Give Your Heart A Break”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXpPVtbfT1w Credit: CocoaGirlie4

“Fix You”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MByLy1aV7xQ Credit: TheNLGFan87

“Lighthouse”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mh3RDvJxvl8 Credit: aproditebeauty

“Just The Way You Are”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AJ21yhmCV68¬†Credit: CocoaGirlie4

“God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You”¬†http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CEETSUToxUc¬†¬†Credit: aproditebeauty

I hope you are all “seeing” a little better now!

Let’s keep holding on!

Angelique

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This Day In JaSam History

July 22

2005: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UDvLXz2lAAE Credit: kjewel13

2009: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=epx3Cdhuyhw Credit: kjewel13