A Fate Far Worse Than Death
Good morning, GHers. (I say that with puffy eyes and a headache, from all the JaSam tears I’ve shed)
Wow…the comments section kept me busy reading this evening. Every single comment and thought you guys take the time to share with me registers with me, and I am listening to you all, my friends! I just want to take a moment to offer a heartfelt welcome back to our friend, Lara, who is back from her time volunteering her nursing skills with those who needed them most! I am so proud to know someone like Lara, and I am happy for her now that she is back with her family. I hope she is surrounded with lots of love and friendship after giving so much so far away! Welcome home, Lara! I’m so glad you’re back safely!
I feel badly for Lara. She couldn’t believe she “came back to this!” Trust me, Lara, we may not have been away, but we can’t believe it either!
I found today to be harder on me emotionally than yesterday. First of all, I had trouble finding today’s clips because I kept typing in JaSam in the search box. Could you imagine not doing that anymore? *blows nose*
Then having Sonny tell Sam that Jason had been shot was hard to watch, especially since Sonny was trying his best to be strong as Sam went on and on talking about how perfectly everything was going to be between her, Jason and their son, now that she and Jason had found their way back to each other. *tears*
Somehow I knew that there would be no hysteria and fainting spells when Sam was told about Jason being shot and going missing after falling into the water. Not our Sam. I knew her first reaction would be disbelief, then a refusal to accept anything she was told. In her heart, Sam knows that Jason was willing to fight tooth and nail to have his family and their life together. She knows, like she knows her name is Samantha Morgan, that there is no way that Jason wouldn’t just be shot, fall into the water, and give in to death. So, in classic Sam form, she informs Sonny that if he didn’t find Jason, she would. *lip trembling with pride*
Oh, how many of you had flashbacks to the Train Wreck of 2005 when Jason was presumed dead after the tunnels collapsed, and Sam refused to believe it? I was thinking that if Dante didn’t hurry up and get out of her way, he was going to get sucker punched a la Jesse, because when Sam is on a mission to rescue her man and confirm that he is still living and breathing and hers, I pity the fool who tries to stand in her way. Sonny wasn’t gonna try, and he advised Dante to let her go. It was something she needed to do herself, and Sonny knew that Sam would never have a moment of peace if she went home to wonder always whether or not she might have found Jason herself. Sonny knew that for Sam, that would have been A Fate Worse Than Death.
I’ve gotta say that when Sam told Baby Danny that “Mommy” would be right back, and that he was staying with Uncle Sonny, and then proceeded to stalk out that door to find her husband, I cried! That kind of love is so rare. It’s the kind of love that gives you strength when the world expects you to fall apart, and pumps adrenaline through your body when your veins run cold. It has always been the magical ingredient; the spark, in Jason and Sam’s love story. Throughout the years, when Jason and Sam have been in situations where they have feared losing the other, we’ve watched that spark kick in, and instead of falling apart or giving up, they fight like hell. Because of that, I did worry that the writers wouldn’t get our Sam right, and that she would behave completely out of character. But thankfully, someone went back and watched some classic JaSam before these scenes were written.
Watching Sam insist that no one was going to keep her from going into the water in search of her husband reminded me, and hopefully everyone else, that Sam loves Jason better than anyone else I’ve ever know in Port Charles. When faced with the possibility that her husband could really be gone, Sam jumped into a wetsuit and dove right in to search for him and bring him back, (just like we die-hards knew she would) because the very thought of hers and Danny’s lives without Jason was A Fate Worse Than Death.
It’s funny how even though I knew Jason couldn’t be found, even with all of his wife’s determination, I caught myself sitting on the edge of my seat, willing her to come up with him. That’s the power they have. Jason and Sam make me hope against hope all the time. If that isn’t escapism and Love In The Afternoon, I don’t know what is. When Sam finally came up with the one thing she did find, and showed Sonny that it was Jason’s Phoenix, my heart sank all over again. Jason won’t be coming home any time soon, and Sam and Danny will be facing life without him, even though they just had a few short hours together. *sobbing*
Yes, it sucks. I hear you all on that. I even agree with you all on that. So much about this storyline sucks. Blows. Stinks. Is an Epic Fail. I am not saying otherwise by any stretch of the imagination! And so you know, I have my own suspicions on what helped Steve to make his decision to leave. However, as I’ve said before, and as so many of you have also said: “It Is What It Is.” This is what we got. And while we could go on for days, and weeks even about how much we hate it, I don’t think it will be helpful to our ultimate cause: which is to continue to support our couple, even through the darkest of times. Even through the times without half of it.
If I may, allow me to offer you all a different perspective. Something that may help all of us to keep it together, and to keep holding on…so that TPTB never underestimate just how much we want our Jason and our JaSam back. I want you all to think of it this way: while Jason’s death may be the worst kind of heartbreak, and the worst kind of slap in the face to Steve and to his thousands of devoted fans, don’t ever forget that there was another possibility here. And one that would be, for us, A Fate Far Worse Than Jason’s “Death”.
I can prove it. You see, the other possibility, had Steve not decided to leave, would have been to drag out this “angst” for Jason and Sam far longer. In fact, if we are to believe everything said in interviews of late, Sam may not have even gotten her baby back before November. Worse than that, Jason and Liz would have most likely complicated their friendship far more than Liz already had, just as a means to keep Jason and Sam apart. I have to tell you, as much as I miss Jason Morgan on my screen, I would rather miss him knowing that wherever he is, he is in love with and loyal to his wife and son, than to miss him because I cannot stand to watch him onscreen…as was the case in late 2007-2008. During those times, when I couldn’t find a shred of the Jason Morgan I knew and loved for so long, I honestly could not watch him. When I did, my fingers itched from the insane urge to slap the crap out of him. 🙂 If given a choice between months of Sam missing Jason and Jason missing out on life with his family, OR Jason dealing with the loss of his wife by tripping onto the traps set by Liz’s manipulations, what would your choice be? I know what mine would be…and I have a sneaking suspicion I know what most of yours would be too. 🙂
So…Let’s deal with our fate knowing that while Jason may be gone, he isn’t lost to Sam or the family they created, and their Love was stronger than ever when he walked out their door. Let’s allow that to be our lifeline over the next few months. Don’t make me post a vid of The Dark Ages of GH in order to remind you of what the alternatives were! *stern face*
Not when I love posting vids like these instead: “JaSam: Oh, How The Years Go By” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zj_e_PKenLU Credit: IrishLass1805 (How many of the moments in this vid were on Jason and Sam’s lists?) *passes the tissue box*
Love you all, Die-hards!