WHAT NOW?
Good morning, GHers!
I don’t know about you, but I am heartbroken every time I think about the answer to that question! On the one hand, how can we not all be thrilled with how the last few days have played out between Jason and Sam?
THIS is exactly the way we knew Jason woulda, shoulda, coulda been with his wife and their baby (even if he wasn’t the father), so it’s nice to finally see that play out onscreen. Jason is supportive and loving, calming and tender, and most importantly, completely and totally embracing his role as Daniel Edward’s father. I feel as though I have waited F O R E V E R for these scenes!
Yet, on the other hand, these are the scenes that remind us that the end is near. We know these are Jason’s last precious hours in Port Charles, and Steve’s last precious hours onscreen. As much as I’ve waited and longed for these scenes, I want to hold them back and put off those goodbyes we are all dreading so very much. I want to yell, “N O O O O O!” every time I see the end of the episode I am watching, because it only means there is one less episode of JaSam Fabulosity to look forward to. *sniff*
So, Certainly, the question of “What Now” does not mean the same thing to us that it means to our beloved Jason and Sam, but all we can do is focus on what it means to them for as long as we possibly can.
So what do you think it means to them?
I can tell you that from Jason’s tone of voice when talking to Sam, the searing way he looks at his wife, and the way he seems to breathe only when she does, it appears, at least to me, that Jason has no plans whatsoever of going home without his family. It’s as if he wants to keep both Sam and Baby Daniel within arms’ reach.
And as far as Sam is concerned, she is living out a dream come true, delayed though it may be. Imagine being so happy that…it hurts? It makes you feel guilty? It scares you? While at the same time, having the son she thought she’d lost forever, and Jason having been the one to find out he was alive AND the one to place him in her arms – safe and sound. THAT’S some kind of happiness!
And how could we not love watching that?
I am so looking forward to Jason and Sam finally getting some time alone so that they can finally ask the question they both already asked aloud, “What Now?”
I want to see, hear and experience everything these two have to work through in order to get them from the hospital to HOME. Their HOME. Together. As a family.
I know that every smile, every tear, and every word will be a special part of their AMAZING Love Story and History, and I cannot wait to be a witness to it.
So, “What Now” for me?
I will enjoy the love and excitement Jason and Sam are sharing at the moment, and I will not allow myself to think past that.
I just can’t.
What about you?
Angelique
Bella Mafia: The Beauty of GH 
Oh i agree with every word you said. I am so broken hearted at the thought of Jason “dying” and leaving his family just after getting them back, BUT I am cherishing every single moment of this magic we are seeing now.
For me, this has been such a journey as I am sure it has been for us all. I have watched soaps my whole life, but when Jason and Sam’s eye’s met I was hooked from that moment on. They are so different from any other soap couple ever.
I dont share this with many people but considering where we are in this I will share it now. I lost my daddy to cancer on November 7, 2003. Being the oldest of 3 girls and the mom of 2 heartbroken childern I went a whole year without allowing myself to shed a tear. I sucked it up and was the “strong one” taking care of everyone else and pushing my grief aside and burying it deep. I used GH and Jason and Sam’s story as a distraction during that time and fell in love with them as they fell in love in front of my eyes. At the time I was an offliner, had no idea what was coming so when on November 8, 2004 when baby Lila died I was caught completely off guard. It broke that dam of emotion in me and for the first time in a year almost to the day I cried. I mourned my dad’s death as i watched JaSam mourn Lila.
This might sound ridiculous and i know some wont understand but JaSam helped me survive the first year after my Daddy died, and then helped me mourn so I could heal and move forward. I will forever and ever be loyal to JaSam and will always be thankful for all the magic we have been so blessed to be a part of for so long.
I believe that Steve will return and JaSam reunite one day. I have no choice but to keep holding on to that.
October 17, 2012 at 8:16 am
I feel for you deeply and I understand you completely your bottle up emotions wasn’t ready to be release yet. Everybody move at there own pace and if JaSam did that you than there is a purpose for soap after all. I was somewhat in a place unlike you dealing a separation from myself husband so to speak and JaSam help me to when they fell in love the slow build up was the best it wasn’t forced. When eyes met in the PCPD room it was destiny and I know that the Laison fans try really hard to tell people that Liz and Jason was the all time love that never got there chance, but belong together that’s just is not true. Samatha McCall was it for Jason Morgan when he laid his eyes on her. When a person can make you react in matter that is not normal for you. They have the power to affect your out come or as Jason Morgan famous words that Sam has the power to hurt him, because shes one he loves. I’m sorry to hear about dad but I’m very happy to hear about your story and I’m sure others will be too. JaSam has touch a lot of lives in different ways… JaSam forever. Hey Angie you best with your words of wisdom and glad you feeling much better.
October 17, 2012 at 8:45 am
Thanks so much for the support and well wishes!
I think those other fans you mentioned know the truth – it’s just hard for them to admit. Especially now.
I agree with you – Angelia’s story will give lots of people a new appreciation for what we share, and for what Steve and Kelly really gave us over the past (almost) nine years.
JaSam Forever! ❤
October 17, 2012 at 5:02 pm
Wow, Angelia, thanks for sharing your story with us. It’s not easy to show your vulnerability to “strangers” so I really appreciate your comment.
Somehow I can relate to your connection to Jason and Sam because, like you, I noticed their connection the moment they met at the PCPD. I watched Jason support Sam as she slowly began to accept motherhood. He never gave up. He didn’t treat her like trash like everyone else did at that time. He took such good care of her brother Danny. This couple literally had me at ‘hello’ and, while I loved Jason and Robin’s relationship, it was because of that “first love” Jason was able to be love Sam like no other and be there for her when Baby Lila died–I wasn’t expecting it either and haven’t cried that much since BJ died!
His gentleness, his protection, his selfless love for his family is what I’m going to miss about Jason Morgan. Seeing him hold Daniel Edward…
I don’t know what I’m gonna do. This is gonna hurt. :_(
October 17, 2012 at 10:50 am
I don’t know what I’m gonna do either…This is gonna hurt more than I ever thought to imagine!
Who knew that taking such an interest in the “spark” between Jason and Sam would ever bring us to this bittersweet place?
There will NEVER be another Jason Morgan (Quartermaine). Ever.
October 17, 2012 at 5:33 pm
Thank you for sharing. I now understand on a deeper level why you say the beauty of GH. Many blessings to you and all of us who will mourn the loss of Jasam!
October 17, 2012 at 11:06 am
Blessings right back to you, my friend!
It’s been quite an experience – and I’m glad I got to share it with you!
xoxox
October 17, 2012 at 5:34 pm
Awww, Angelia, thanks for sharing that with us. I am so sorry for your loss. Cancer sucks! I also lost my dad to cancer…in 2002. I was tearing up as I read your post, because I do understand how a soap can be your lifeline. I understand it deeply and sincerely. I will forever and ever be loyal to JaSam always…they were the reason for Bella Mafia, and for me finding all of you. If I could still have kids, I’d name them Jason and Sam. 🙂
I am going to hope against hope that Jason will return someday soon, also…and that once again, we will a JaSam reunion to look forward to.
Again, thanks for sharing! Sending you big hugs and lots of love. We’ll get through together. ❤
October 17, 2012 at 4:52 pm
What about me? I feel like I’m losing a part of me when I think about no more Jasam on our tv screens. They have provided countless hours of pure pleasure for me! They have been the distraction for me when I am wrestling with personal issues in my life. I lost the love of my life 13 years ago and Jasam always bring me to that place I shared with my husband.
October 17, 2012 at 8:28 am
Awwww, Darlene! I cannot even imagine what you’ve been through. Wish I was there to give you a HUGE hug.
I am so glad that this JaSam thing brought us together, and that we have shared so much of what brought us all joy together.
My life has been better for it, just as yours was. I hope Steve and Kelly know that!
Luv ya, my dear friend!
October 17, 2012 at 4:58 pm
Angelique…I knew this was going to be tough…but, it’s so much more difficult than I imagined. I want to enjoy the next couple of days…and yet, it’s like a dark cloud hanging over everything good that’s coming for an episode or two. I never considered myself to be a a “fangurl”…but, Jasam has had that effect on me! I’ll miss them SO MUCH! I’ll watch my girl and her son though…and hope for a surpise visit from Jason.
October 18, 2012 at 12:18 am
I feel the same,Angelique! I’m so happy for them but also sad because unlike Sam right now,I know Jason’s end is too near!”sniff,sniff!:( this is the Jason we all knew and lost! This is the Sam we longed to see, looking lovingly at her husband not kissing McBain!!! That was so wrong! I could see Jason with Liz because they had a child and were friends but Sam barely knew John! When I sW Steve in person he commented on Sam and John’s meeting and the,”it’s you” thing. You know it was a Caleb and Livvie thing RC was trying to draw in viewers any way he could then. Splitting Sam and Jason during her pregnancy was not the way to get viewers! He knows that now and he should have put them back much sooner but- I won’t dwell on that! Sam will know that Jason loves her and her only and he loves “his son” Daniel Edward Morgan,even though he doesn’t know he’s truly his! But I thinkSam will
Know after he’s gone! Let’s enjoy these last few days!
October 17, 2012 at 8:47 am
You know, Kathy, I hope that Steve can feel the love everyone has for him and this Love Story he was such a huge part of, and that it pulls at his heartstrings and brings him back someday soon to give us more!
I am so glad that whole Absurd Quadrangle thing is behind us…I could NOT stand any part of it. Ugh.
I have thought of all of this “What Ifs” with RC and FV as well…but not anymore. It is what it is.
You’re absolutely right – LET’S ENJOY THESE LAST FEW DAYS!
xoxox
October 17, 2012 at 5:18 pm
These last few days my jasam heart has never experienced so much joy as to see jasam hold their baby and have their family back. Everything seems so natural for them and Jason just adores and loves Sam and Daniel, you see it all in his smile and he way he looks at Sam. Been on brink of crying coz l know Steve’s days are coming to an end but am hoping we get as much jasam time and loving as we can before he leaves. Am gonna sit back enjoy my Jasam till my heart is content and try and not think of upcoming doom.
October 17, 2012 at 9:54 am
I am right there with you, I am trying not to think of it either!
*tears*
October 17, 2012 at 5:19 pm
What’s left to say; u ladies have said it all. it hurts right now to even think of Jason being gone or “dead” and seeing Sam this happy and knowing that she will be so hurt and lost when that happens..I loved Sam McCall-Morgan and loved her first..before Jason,…when she first came on GH and was with Jax, then Sonny..I loved her then and when she met Jason Morgan..I knew, just knew..this was it!. No other women in Jason’ life even mattered much to me at all because they just did not have that magic that JaSam has and will always have. Those two are just as much a part of my life as if they were my next door neighbors..funny sometimes as I think of ways and scenarious that could be used for their story during the day and night..that’s how much I love this couple and have never cared about another(Soap) couple as much. So I’m also going to saviour and cherish every moment they have left. Jason will be back for his family. I just know it.
October 17, 2012 at 12:40 pm
I too feel like I’m losing people I love,like family! Sam and Jason to me are the greatest couple since Luke &Laura! I am angry when I think of the beautiful scenes we could of had when Sam was pregnant and then gave birth! Instead we got dead former loves,child of rape,angry Jason,and finally Sam moving out and next to McBain!!!Jason kissing his dead son’s mother and then another dead baby for Sam! That was really cruel! FV knew in June that Steve was opting out of his 2nd year contract. He could have given us a Jasam reunion then but I still will savor what time we have left!
October 17, 2012 at 12:50 pm
Carol, I know exactly what you mean! I think about Jason and Sam so much sometimes that I worry I’ve begun to lose it! LOL!
I too will savor and cherish every moment…and will be waiting when Jason comes back for his beautiful family!
🙂
October 17, 2012 at 5:37 pm
I know this is a fansite and we are supposed to discuss our connection to the characters whose lives play out in front of our eyes everyday. However, today I find myself thinking, what in the world are TPTB going to do without their leading man? Sonny was eclipsed by Jason years ago and there aren’t any other men that have the character development to hold up the show. Luke is great, witty, sharp, but also older. Dante, Steve, Shawn and Patrick are second string players. Spinelli is quirky, not leading man material. Johnny is a villian. Todd, John and Joe Scully are new on the scene.
My point is this, soap opera as a genre are not doing well. FVand RC thought they could come in and revamp things during a year when none of us knew if GH was even going to be extended for another year–remember all the Oprah and Katie changing time slots fiasco. FVs changes did not work, and I think that Steve Burton saw this perfect storm occuring with falling ratings, a show he did not recognize, and the possibility of cancellation come spring of 2013. SB is a business man and went out on his own terms; probably something like Kimberly McCullough decided because she is also a savvy business person. In some ways I am thankful because we have gotten some very quick moving storylines because of this exit. I cannot help but think that this also gives SB some leverage to come back to. When the rating start to tank for GH, which they will because who will hold up the show? Trey? Michael? Max and Milo? No. No. And no.
This is my theory. SB was on this show for twenty years, it was his bread and butter. He was the big man on campus, the big fish in a small pond, the high man on the totem pole. California is a tough place to live, especially the LA area (I am a native of Cali), the schools are rough, traffic is bad, houses are expensive, and the world is a safer place in Tennessee (funnily enough I now live in east Tenn). SB and his family have a better chance to thrive in TN, but SB is going to find that GH needs him to survive and he will make strategic moves to come back to the show, maybe only periodically, but I do believe that he will. When the show starts to desperately go under TPTB will know where to find SB and they will offer him a flexible schedule and a great storyline just to make things work. Eventually SB will want to find his way back to GH.
One last thing, SB still tweets daily, and he recently showed a drawer of black shirts with something like the quote, ‘which color should I wear today’. To me this doesn’t seem like a guy that has completely closed the door. Wishful thinking? Who knows, but that is all we’ve got now isn’t it.
October 17, 2012 at 2:52 pm
I’ve had all of those same thoughts, Dawn.
I am hoping that TPTB think long and hard about their decisions, and that they give Steve WHATEVER it would take for him to get back to PC!
I saw that tweet – it made me cry a little it!
If that’s wishful thinking, I’m right there with you!
October 17, 2012 at 5:41 pm
I just recently watched the scenes from the What If epidode when Sam told Jason about her dreams for them. I cried then and I cried just now reading your post. Like you said, it is going to be the end of the love story we have been following and loving since day 1! What will we do? I have been waiting for this moment and now that it is here, it will be short lived and over! Oh well, I am going to enjoy what little bit we have left.
October 17, 2012 at 3:37 pm
Me, too, Carol!
ME TOO! *grabs a tissue*
I think I will be lost once he’s really gone from our screens.
October 17, 2012 at 5:44 pm
Todays epi was great. I saw the Jason and Sam we fell in love with so long ago. I am putting all the jiz and mcbam stuff away and never thinking of it again. That was not our Jason and Sam but a couple that RC imagined. It didnt work because we will never forget who our beloved JASAM are! Still pissed about that crappy storyline they shoved down our throats and we missed out on Sam and Jason bringing their baby into the world.
October 17, 2012 at 7:29 pm
Everytime I think its all coming to an end. I just keep thinking what an incredible JaSam journey this has been!! Im so glad I was along for this “almost” 9 year ride..
Im thankful that JaSam will be ending on a High just as it should be. Im thankful we have finally seen them with “Our” JaSam Baby as it should have been months ago!! I am thankful we are getting a Happy Ever After if even for only a few days before it all comes to an end…
Side Note: *Giggels* Im Thankful Jiz was not only run over by the bus, but according to RC they were also thrown over the van! *Giggles*
JaSam will always live in my Heart along with Bella Mafia!! ❤
October 17, 2012 at 7:29 pm
Wow Jasammers this is a Heartfelt Post today from all of you!
Angelia I feel your story is so many ways! The same thing happened to me! I am the youngest of 3 and have always been the strong one! My children grew up with my Dad he was such a large part of their lives! Even though he is gone he still remains very much alive in our hearts and that will never change. He passed away 8/10/2009 right when the New Mexico storyline happened. Jason and Sam took me away from the grief and pain! They were my Calgon,they took me away! They took me away from the harshness of life! They gave me such a good feeling in my heart and I have felt this way since the 1st time I saw them together! I remember asking who is that in reference to Sam, Needless to say she ended being the Love of Jason Morgans Life and she will always be just that! I am Holding On to these last few days with all I have! I would not have it any other way! This Love Story has been apart of so many lives its amazes me! The connection I feel when I watch them is amazing and so freaking Heartfelt! They make you believe in Love!
I am getting my tissues ready! Sam will be almost destroyed by this but she has Daniel! And supposedly she FINALLY knows he IS JASONS son!Jason will more than likely not KNOW BUT he allready Loves his son and I am happy about that! Jason Morgans leaving no matter how its written will have a long lasting effect. Think about it! He is apart of ALL their lives in one way or another! How will they write the grief that will over take Sam,Spinelli,Michael,Monica,Molly,Carly,Sonny and the list goes on!
RC especially FV if what I am hearing is true rolled snake eyes on this one! You cannot replace SB/Jason Morgan its not going to happen! You cannot just write a couple like Jason and Sam without the Pure Chemistry of Steve and Kelly it was just a “one of kind” pairing! It will never happen again not like Jasam! I found GH BELLA MAFIA because of the love we all shared with this amazing fictional couple…….I am so glad I did!
You know in watching their early years I think its funny how many times Jason told Sam he could never discuss his work with her! And he ended up depending on her in every area of his life including his work!
Angelique I still go back and read your Post from when Jason and Sam made Love in the Cabin! I still laugh because you were so on point! Everything you wrote we all felt and still do that was the best Love Scene ever! But you are always so on point! You have given us so much! Thank You!
JASAM FOREVER AND ALWAYS!
October 17, 2012 at 7:38 pm
I agree with every word. All I have wanted for Jason and Sam is playing out on my screen and I am loving every second of it.. I wish we would have had it all along but it is what it is. I will cherish every second we have left of this amazing couple. Stelly magic can never be duplicated. I can’t wait for them to go home as a family.. The family they have both wanted for the last 9 years. I will see the beauty of what we are about to see even when my heart is breaking. Kelly is going to be amazing with this s/l.
The love in Jason’s eyes and actions the last few days brings tears to my eyes.. This is the Jason I love this is the Jason that I have never given up on and always believed that Sam is and always will be Jason’s heart.. I can’t even put into words how much I will miss seeing Stelly on my tv..
Thanks to our vidders and all the clips on YT with Jasam I never have to go a day without watching this beautiful love story any time I find myself missing them so much that it hurts.
Because of Jasam I found you.. And I can’t imagine you not being in my life. Because of Jasam life long friendships were made across the Internet.. What a beautiful thing!
Love you so much!
SamJasonsHeart
October 18, 2012 at 12:48 am
Ladies, reading your comments have brought me to tears tonight. Every single post. Have rarely posted for these past 6 months while my husband and I walked through his journey with Hospice care. We are still walking, day by day. And the GH I had hoped would offer a respite from sadness was far from what I had wanted to see. Now, reading all your stories, and sharing with you all the wonderful things we found with Jason and Sam, I can see that I was far from alone. We all had/have our reasons for loving our couple, and the two exceptional people that have made them so real for us. And we all took from their story our own strengths and comfort. Now, more than ever, we can be sad, but we also can be grateful that we had them in our lives. And, if we are very lucky, we will have them together again……….someday. Meanwhile,
we have each other, the friends we have made because of a lovestory like no other. Thanks for being here, all of you, and Angelique, who
made this blog one of the best ever.
October 18, 2012 at 10:11 pm