“Let’s Do It!”
I have to admit that I am at a loss. For words, thoughts, understanding.
I have stared at the screen for about twenty minutes, not even knowing where to start. As I type now, I pray that at least the words don’t remain at a loss.
I have a confession I didn’t think I’d have to make any time soon. For the very first time since Ron Carlivati moved in to the writing room at GH, I found myself truly enjoying the first glimpses of the JaSam I know and will always love. I watched live, and then had to run out for a couple of appointments, and the whole time I was out, I was still smiling every time I thought about the scenes in my head. There was so much to give us hope, regardless of what plays out next.
Jason wanted Sam to know that he was concerned about her, and he wasn’t backing down from that. And though Sam may have questioned it, she stopped fighting his concern pretty quickly when she saw just how genuine it was. They actually exchanged enough words to qualify as a conversation, and both mentioned each other’s indiscretion, and still moved past it.
And when those reminders caused Sam to ask why he still cares, Jason reminded Sam that she is “still his wife”, and that to me, was huge, because I thought it at least let Sam know that perhaps he hasn’t “given up on her” as she told Spinelli yesterday.
Most importantly, I thought the biggest thing for us as fans was the fact that for the first time since the big changes, it felt as though the writers knew who they were writing for. Jason and Sam were both doing something they hadn’t done in ages, and that was working out the puzzle that is Todd Manning together. It was as if they needed each other as a sounding board to try and connect all of the scattered dots, and if nothing else for right now, it at least reminded them that they work best together. I wish we could have enjoyed that more together!
The writers showed a Jason that knew his wife better than he knows himself, and only needed her to confirm what he already knew in his gut. When was the last time that happened?
The writers also showed a Sam, who in spite of everything that has happened, finds herself trusting her husband like it’s second nature. It was almost as if Sam could not NOT tell Jason the truth about investigating Todd. Couldn’t that be a sign that at some point these two can’t NOT keep resisting the urge to go back home again – to each other?
Why couldn’t the smiles that seemed to have the power to melt the layers of ice covering JaSam-loving hearts all over the world melt away our worries about next week or next month? Why couldn’t we, like Jason and Sam, and the electric Steve and Kelly, BE IN THE MOMENT of the smiles and what led up to them? They were caught up in the magic, and the draw, and the rightness of the moment they were sharing. The thing that makes both of them feel alive – the danger, the excitement, the adventure, was literally crackling between them, and they FELT it. I thought Steve and Kelly did SUCH an INCREDIBLE job of making us FEEL that, and I truly did – right down to my toes! I was smiling and giddy and excited about the fact that Jason and Sam can still make each other feel that!
They were in sync, even though they weren’t “together” for the rest of the scene. The way Sam got right to work, and the way Jason guarded her, and Oh, My! When Sam cracks the code and calls out to Jason that she got it, the moment was so them. I took it to mean to all of us that the writers DO GET IT. Jason and Sam are each other’s missing piece. They can still click into place and fit like they were never apart in spite of all that has happened. Sure, it won’t be as easy as that – especially with someone as romantically challenged as you know who at the head of the writing table, but I thought those scenes were meant as a lifeline.
I guess I just don’t get why so many are throwing it back, seemingly unwanted.
Listen, I started this blog when Jason and Sam were still denying that they were even in a relationship again. I thought it would be a place to come and celebrate those magical moments we found as fans. I don’t think I have deviated from that. I know that those moments have been few and far between, but between Monday and Tuesday, I thought we were back in business, even if temporarily. Yet, the celebration felt short-lived to me; almost like there wasn’t enough wind to uncurl the noisemakers.
GH is what it is now. All we can do is try to fight for it to be what it once was. Both Steve and Kelly have talked about letting their bosses know what feels right and what doesn’t. Vicki Dummer took an interview with Michael Fairman, which she didn’t have to do, and said she is fighting for GH, and staying on top of the direction of story lines. (She really said that!) And let’s not forget that she was very excited about the panel that represented GH, which both Steve and Kelly were part of. That tells me that she is not unfamiliar with the magic of Jason and Sam. Call me crazy…
I get that we don’t have to believe Ms. Dummer, or Steve, or Kelly. I get that we don’t have to believe that Jason and Sam can overcome whatever has happened, or whatever will happen, and find their way back to each other. I even get that we don’t have to believe GH will ever be worth our time again.
What I don’t get, is if we have stopped believing already, what in the world are we even doing here?
I was hoping all day that I could come on here and quote JaSam in some rah-rah moment that got everyone excited about fighting for our couple, and their Love Story, and their family, and their legacy. I thought “Let’s Do It!” would be the tag line of everything we said for the next week! I imagined it would trend, inspire t-shirts, stationary for writing into TPTB, and a Baby JJ clothing line.
Instead, I am sadly quoting JaSam with a heavy heart to say, whatever we’ve decided, let’s stop talking it to death. “Let’s Do It.”
If giving up is the choice, then Do It. Why torture yourself any longer? You’ve given it your all, fought the good fight, and deserve to not be miserable during the hour you give up each day to watch GH. If it is making you feel badly, you should let it go. I’ll miss you terribly, as I think of all of you as part of this family, but I sincerely understand.
But, if fighting for Jason and Sam until there is nothing left to fight for is “votre choix”, “LET’S DO IT!”
Buckle up, hold on, know where the barf bags and emergency exits are located, and get ready for the worst of the turbulence. It’s for sure going to be a hell of a ride, and there will be times I am sure none of us will be able to look out our “windows” at what’s coming.
Still, in my 41 years, I have yet to reach a long-awaited and highly anticipated destination, only to NOT be able to enjoy it because I can’t get past the turbulence I experienced on the journey.
But that’s just me.
“LET’S DO IT!” and do it like we mean it, whatever IT is!
Love you all!
Daily Inspiration: “I Won’t Let Go” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JSaZ0aqpccc Credit: jasamloverxo
This Day In JaSam History
2005: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xhloiu_umbQ Credit: luckiBelle
2011: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f2CK9F-fStQ Credit: PartyGirls04