The Trouble With Trust
Good morning, GHers!
I am typing as fast as I can, as we have had issues with our cable because of “an issue at the pole” (whatever the hell Comcast means by that), and therefore our internet, since Sunday…and this is actually the first time I have gotten this far. I am just hoping I get through the post before it goes again. (NOTE: Started at 8:45 pm. Attempted 4 more times to finish before finally getting it done at 9:10 a.m.! Thanks, Comcast!)
I actually watched Tuesday’s GH on YT tonight, and then had to go back and watch the Jason and Sam scenes from the day before, only because I needed a point of reference. Ugh. Watching made me glad I hadn’t watched live. 🙂
Anyway, it seems to me that the turmoil in Port Charles can all be traced back to The Trouble With Trust.
That of course begins with the writers. It seems that even those who haven’t lost their love for our beloved favorite couple HAVE lost any trust they had in the writers to do JaSam justice, and it’s easy to see why. Both scenes (both kisses) just felt so wrong. They were fundamentally wrong to who both Jason and Sam have become since reuniting after almost losing each other for good, but I don’t think that is the issue for anyone. I think all fans can agree that neither Jason nor Sam have been written very true to character here. The trick for those still hanging on by a thread will be in holding on – despite The Trouble With Trust.
One thing I will admit I did not anticipate was hearing Jason’s version of how he and Sam got to this place. Jason told Michael that Sam hasn’t trusted him for a while. Since Hawaii, in fact. And The Trouble With Trust is that when it goes missing, it opens the door wide open to a host of other problems. While I am not sure that I agreed with Jason’s assessment, I guess I can see why he might see it that way. Perception, after all, is reality. WHen I look at the situation with Jason and Sam, I would agree with Jason on the point that perhaps Sam did lose her ability to trust him. I just don’t think it was after what Franco did in Hawaii, per se. I don’t think Sam chose not to go to the hospital, or to get counseling, because of that either. I think Sam began to lose her ability to trust Jason when he seemed to shut down on her.
Now, I don’t want to be misunderstood here, because I am not placing all of the blame on Jason. This systematic breakdown of their mutual trust is on both of them. However, when Sam lied to Jason about Robin because she feared for his life, and because she had just made it through a series of horrific, haunting life events herself (the “rape”, finding out she was pregnant, the incredible stress and the wait of the first DNA tests, to worrying about Jason’s reaction to everything, to soaring to heights of euphoria when the tests said Jason was the father, to nearly losing Jason to his brain injury right after) Those were all things Sam endured before being faced with having to decide whether or not to tell Jason that Robin had “died” while trying to save him. Listen, I would be a bit control freak, too, if I thought my husband would die at hearing bad news! The Trouble With Trust, especially when it comes to Jason, is that it is a cardinal sin to take away his right to make choices, and in Sam deciding not to tell Jason in time for him to say “goodbye”, that is exactly what she did. And that, Jason took great pleasure in informing Sam, gave him the “right” to share the intimate details of their marital woes to Liz on the bridge – because Sam had lied. *sigh*
Even though Sam put on a brave face about it, I am sure that it was a blow to her trust in her husband to hear that he wasn’t alone that night, after walking out on her at the church. Perhaps that little detail made it easier for Sam to not want to do or say anything that would send Jason right out the door again after she endured her next series of horrific, haunting events (finding out that Franco wasn’t out of their lives, finding out from Heather that Franco was Jason’s “twin”, to getting the “results” that Franco was “the father”) Oh, how we all begged Sam from the other side of the television sets to tell Jason the truth at different steps, because we all knew that The Trouble With Trust is that each time you lose some in someone, it leaves room for disaster to make its way into your life.
Alas, Sam did not tell Jason the truth, until she “thought” she had all if the “facts”, and only after being able to confide in the stranger and cop, John McPain. Sadly, by then, Jason had all the “facts” he thought he needed: Sam had lied about more than one thing, and after given more than one opportunity. *deeper sigh* This, once again, gave Jason the “right” to share even more intimate details of their marital woes, including Sam’s “rape” and “Franco being the father”, with Liz, you know – a woman he once shared a drunken, reactionary night of grief sex with. And we can all see how we can no longer discuss Jason and Sam without discussing The Trouble With Trust.
Sam then went through the most horrific and haunting event of her life in the birth and subsequent loss of her son when he “died” the night of the storm, because of events Jason set in motion as a reaction to his issues with John. She then had to bury another child, next to the first child she lost, and she has since had to walk around with that huge empty space in her heart, and in her arms. Though she told Jason that she still loved, and always would love him, it is not something that any mother would be able to just put aside easily to think that the person she loves was in any way responsible for son’s death. In fact, under any other circumstances, people would think Sam the worst kind of mother to be with that person. Now, I get that Jason once forgave Sam for what happened with Jake after she damn near lost her mind back in 2007, but I would like to say one thing to those very people having a problem understanding why Sam hasn’t yet forgiven Jason. First of all, none of Sam’s actions back then caused Jake’s “death”. While we all know that neither did Jason’s actions cause the death of any baby, Sam does not know that. Furthermore, Jason needed more than a year before he could forgive Sam and tell her that it was behind them, and really, Sam had to risk her own life to save Jake’s in order to feel like they were even. It makes my eye twitch furiously to see people talking about Sam not forgiving Jason the way he forgave her! To be fair, she still has about a year before we can even compare, and in that case, Jason would have to be the one risking his life to place that baby boy back in her arms in order to be extended the same forgiveness he extended to Sam! Let’s not get it twisted!
Even so, it was absolutely wrong for Sam to kiss John, even taking into the account the effects of alcohol for someone who had not drunk in at least nine months. No matter the state of their marriage, no matter how heartbroken she felt about how happy they had once been, when she kissed John, she did so as Mrs. Jason Morgan, and that unequivocably wrong! It does not, however, make her a whore, or the worst kind of mother. Unless you have been through what Sam has, you have no right to say what grief looks like, or how you would react to said grief. Everyone grieves differently. Her kissing John is a far cry from actually committing the act that makes one a whore. I think that’s such an overreaction! Sam did the wrong thing in kissing John, and of course, there will be hell to pay, hence having to hear that the man she admittedly still loves, and cannot imagine her life without, even after everything that has happened, kissed another woman, especially that woman.
Jason was also wrong in the reaction that he had to seeing Sam and John kiss. One would think that Jason would learn from his past mistakes, but not this time. He cowered away again to go sulk and have a breakdown on the bridge, instead of confronting his wife and calling them both out of what they were doing. Instead, he ran into Liz, whose Whoremones still have the ability to sniff out a man in pain better than a scent hound at an airport! And what does Jason do once more? Share intimate details of his marriage woes with her! *forget sighing, now I am just cursing like a sailor* Of course Liz slinked her creepy little arms around Jason then. If there is one thing she knows it’s that when emotions are running high, her chances of scoring run just as high! What Jason did next in kissing her was just as wrong as what Sam did. No matter how hurt he was, or how provoked he felt, Jason kissed her while being Sam’s husband, and that also is unequivocally wrong!
The Trouble With Trust is that it’s so fragile, and can be torn apart by the slightest pressure. And the trouble with the trust these tow once had in each other is that so much has happened between Jason and Sam over such a long period of time. I imagine that fighting for their marriage must feel like a daunting task – like climbing uphill while the wind is blowing downhill. Or trying to get up the river without a paddle. Or swimming against the current. Or trying to find something precious in the middle of the darkness. Much the way it feels to be a JaSam fan in the era of Ron Carlivati being the headwriter. However, when we look back at what Jason and Sam have been through, or even when we look back at what I have written so far, we see one thing over and over. I put quotes around the bold, italicized obstacles and issues Jason and Sam are facing, or have faced. I did that because they were “illusions” of obstacles and issues. For instant, Robin isn’t really dead, so Jason didn’t really miss out on saying goodbye. And we don’t yet know if Sam was ever really raped, but we do know that Franco isn’t really the father, and I am almost sure that he isn’t real Jason’s twin, either. Someone once asked me on here what my theory was on Heather being so vindictive towards Sam over her forgetting Heather’s letter to Steven Lars. I believe that Heather is vindictive towards Sam because of her other son, Franco, You see, I think Franco was sold at birth, just like his brother, Steven Lars was. That’s my theory, and I’m sticking to it. It’s the only thing that explains Heather’s fascination with Franco and defending him. But I digress. When we look at all of the things that have worked together to build the great divide between this husband and wife who once seemed inseparable and invincible, we find that they are all in quotes, bold, and italicized. In other words, they don’t really exist. You heard Liz – not even the kiss was real! 🙂
Which can only lead me, as a Jason and Sam fan to the bitter end, to believe that once all of those illusions fall away, and Jason and Sam are left to realize the head trips they have been on, that great divide will suddenly seem surmountable once again. As for us, we cannot wait that long to feel that way! The Trouble With Trust is that left broken, it leaves room for doubts and disillusions. In our case, it has left room for fans to turn against each other even! IT MUST STOP! We, unlike Jason and Sam, already know that what is keeping them apart are illusions and head trips! We need to watch and react as though we can see the end in sight for all of this contrived angst, because it doesn’t really exist! Let’s act like we believe that, kinda like Michael and Kristina did (I have never been proud of those two at the same time before yesterday!), instead of getting caught in the same traps that Jason and Sam are getting caught in, unknowingly. We are not unknowing.
We know the truths – ALL of them. Including the greatest truth of all: Jason and Sam are soul mates, and the greatest Love Story we have ever had the great pleasure of experiencing on Daytime!
Let’s start acting like we know that and believe it!
Daily Inspiration: (And a reminder of how much angst they’ve overcome before) and that “It’s Not Over” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q_pfDhhml2k Credit: yugottahitpeople
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