DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF?
Good morning, GHers!
That question actually did not start out as rhetorical…we (The Sicks is what we are calling ourselves these days) were just talking about how when your fever is spiking, you can hear yourself “double”. LOL.
But, the conversation stuck in my head, and when I went back to rewatch the show, I found that I was asking the question,DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF? of many of our Port Charlesians, and not just the feverish kind. 🙂
~ Todd Oh, how it bugs me that I even have to write about this, because I actually couldn’t watch OLTL when RH because the “real” Todd again. I thought it was a slap in the face to TSJ, and to fans, who had to be convinced that TSJ was the real Todd in the first place. The fact that he is now on my GH, and that he will inevitably be part of this blog gets on my nerves. 😛 But really, Todd, DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF? How does any father think they are helping their daughter by trying to convince her that the attempted murder charges hanging over her blonde little head are just going to go away? DOes Todd not see what being his daughter has already cost Starr? Does he not see the influence he has had on her life choices has been toxic? Ugh.
~ Olivia This disappoints me, because if Liv ever had a saving grace, it was her sense of family, and her loyalty to hers. Watching her treat a clearly distressed, depressed, and damnified Kate like some leper was not what I expected. I thought where Liv comes from, family sticks together, even through thick, thin, and handcuffs. It’s gotta take a seriously stiff upper lip to see your own flesh and blood in that condition,a nd not feel a morsel of sympathy. Olivia was just plain cruel, which didn’t really register with me. Liv, DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF? Liv is doing a better job of sticking by Steve, who she’s known about 10 minutes, and knows for a fact that he really did kill someone! *shakes head* Liv went on to make a really big deal about how Kate tried to leave Connie behind – as if that’s the unpardonable sin, but really Liv better take a closer look at the glass house she lives in. Liv left a whole lot of secrets buried in Bensonhurst once, too. I know she hasn’t forgotten that her son was shot by a man who didn’t know he was about to murder his son! And I don’t know, but if a doctor called me to talk about my cousin, who is freakin’ handcuffed to a hospital bed, you can bet your bottom dollar (sorry for the dollar bill reference again, Kate) that D.I.D. would be a helluva a lot more than a “fancy medical term” to me. Liv owed it to Kate to try to find out exactly what she is dealing with, and how she can be helped. Eh, yeah I know she gave in and hugged her in the end, but it still left me cold. Liv is going to have to earn some points back with me in the family department. She shot whatever points she had straight to hell!
Something definitely NOT leaving me cold? Kelly Sullivan’s portrayal of the tortured, terrified, and truly repentant Kate! I hated that RC was gonna write this s/l again so soon after leaving behind Viki/Niki and Jess/Tess/Bess, but Ms. Sullivan completely changed my mind! She had somehow managed to make me feel sympathetic towards Kate, and yet still make me giggle at Connie sometimes. I hope she knows what an extraordinary job she is doing! *applause*
~Sonny What was it I said yesterday about Sonny’s abandoning Kate? Make that a double after Wednesday’s episode! Sonny is completely in denial about the fact that mental illness exists outside of his own mind, and that other people may actually have bigger, deeper struggles with this disorder. In his narcissistic little head, he must think that he can be the only one with a legitimate excuse for behaving completely out of character, and for being so out of control that others need to take over parts of his life for him. Hey Sonny, DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF? Because we all did, and considering that Jason’s right in that what Kate is suffering from is worse than what you’re dealing with, you really did sound like an ass!
(I feel I need to preface this with a disclaimer. I am, and will always be, #TeamJaSam. That will never change. When I can find an insight I feel I can share regarding Jason’s less than swoon-worthy behavior, I will gladly do so! However, my loves, there are times, that even I cannot find rhyme nor reason to what is going on inside his head – or in this case – his dialogue sheet. That is why I didn’t even try with yesterday’s post as far as my thoughts on Jason. Simply put – I felt it was lack of integrity of the character, and I could only place that on the writers’ shoulders. Either way, Jason is sometimes going to be on the receiving end of a few choice words from me. He should consider himself lucky – I wouldn’t bother if I didn’t care so much about him. 🙂 That being said, I am not giving up, giving in, or giving them anything but my full love and support! I Promise! *curved pinky* )
Moving right along to my list of people I ask the question of…
~Jason Well, lucky for Sonny, no one sounded like a bigger ass today than Jason! I’ll let you in on a little secret about me. I actually twitch in church when I hear someone preaching about something he has no business preaching about because he is the worst offender of them all. *getting heated just thinking about it* Jason made me twitch so bad, I do believe I threw something at his head, but it could have been a hallucination from the fever. I’m just not sure. What I am sure of is that there was no one who made me ask this question more loudly or more incredulously than Mr. Morgan himself! UUUMMM…JASON...DO YOU FREAKIN’ HEAR YOURSELF? In case Jason, or anyone else missed it, these were Jason’s exact words to Sonny, after Sonny reminded Jason that Kate’s not bi-polar: “No she’s not, what she has is worse. Kate’s in a lot of trouble. Her life is a mess, and it’s nothing she chose! I understand that you’re angry. Can you try to understand that she’s sick?” *twitch, twitch* Oh, Lord, someone hand me a fan, because I feel like I’m at church! I must ask again: Jason Morgan, DO. YOU. HEAR . YOURSELF?
Better yet, could Jason just stand in front of the mirror, and have that same conversation with himself, inserting Sam’s name in the appropriate places? Here, I will help:
Jason, no Sam’s not Franco’s sister, what Sam is, is worse. She’s his real victim.
Sam’s in a lot of trouble – she’s facing this without your help, and because of this, she is always tripping over McPain. Not only is she in trouble, but her heart is troubled. She thinks you can’t love this baby, and because she is a mother first (Don’t know how you forgot that about her when you watched it happen with Sonny over Baby Lila), Sam will put her baby first. (We are so proud of our girl!) She thinks she cannot be with you if you can’t love “her” baby. Hmmm. Come to think of it, Jason, maybe you’re the one in trouble, because we all know that if you lose her, you yourself are lost.
Sam’s life is a mess – your wife is pregnant. Pregnant! This is a time she should be enjoying moment by precious moment! This is the miracle she dreamed of for the entire time you’ve known and loved her! Instead of enjoying it, she has been stressed, tormented, teased into a false sense of security, feared losing you to death, feared losing you to your jack-ass-ity, teased once more into thinking everything was okay, had her mind blown, felt abandoned, made to feel like it was her fault, and now fearing the future of her marriage for the sake of her baby. While staying at a motel. Alone. *smacks forehead* Jason! (Or maybe it’s your evil alter ego we’ll call “Ronnie”) Whatever happened to, “You have me, everyday, for the rest of my life.” ????? Do you even remember trying to convince to trust in marriage with you? Meanwhile, you are solving Sonny’s problems, being Kate’s defense attorney, visiting the grave of the son you could never visit at home, and having a pissing contest with McBain over Sonny. GET A FREAKIN’ CLUE, YOU BIG LUG! (Oh, don’t even get me started on the lug nut and what lug was supposed to symbolize!) *sobbing*
And finally…most devastatingly true:
It’s nothing she chose – Hey, ass! Sam didn’t choose to be Franco’s victim. She didn’t choose to “get raped”. She didn’t choose to “get pregnant by him”. She didn’t even choose to be in McBain’s orbit. She chose to be your wife. To stand by you. To love you, no matter what. How you could think it’s okay for Sam to be worrying about anything other than you counting her calories, or her servings of calcium or folic acid, is beyond any of us! Sam deserves to be loved and cared for now, more than ever, for still caring about your wellbeing when any other woman you’ve known would have blamed you for everything that happened to her because of your “life” and your “enemies”. Why can’t you see that?
We get that you’re angry – Be angry! At Franco. At what he did. At how you failed Sam…yada, yada, yada. Be angry at the fact that McBain has been there for your wife, and that she trusts him and turns to him in confidence. Be angry that he saved her and “her” baby because you were too busy solving Sonny’s problems. Yes, be angry. But first, FIRST be angry at your damned self! Be angry that you keep making the same mistakes with the woman who’s made you happier than anyone, who has loved you unconditionally, and forgiven more than you deserved. Be angry that John McBain could only fill up not just the space, but the ROLE, you left, and keep leaving, wide open for him. Be angry that you are pushing Sam to turn to him, instead of putting on your big boy underwear and pleading with her to turn to you, even though you’ve failed her miserably so far. Once you’ve done that, please move on to your own final step:
Can you try to understand that she is sick…and tired – Of Fighting: To stay strong. To seem brave. To deal with what happened. To keep you from going over the edge. To keep you, period? Can you see that Sam’s heart is as sick as Kate’s? That it’s hurting because you are hurting? Because your marriage is hurting? Because your friendship is hurting? Because she fears her a baby will grow up hurting? Can you try to understand what Sam has already been though, so that maybe you’ll stop putting her through so much more?
All of your advice to Sonny was really good stuff. The question remains: DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF?
If not, trust me, you will hear all of us…
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