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“It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy”

Good morning, GHers!

Forgive me for being MIA on Wednesday. We had a friend in crisis, and that took me away from my computer, and from all of you. But know that I missed you all.

It was a long night followed by a long day, but when I returned, I found confirmation in the mail (though I’d been told over the phone a week or so ago) that I am now officially RETIRED, with full benefits (and about 25 years before I ever thought I would be). Now, I can explore the other passions God has given me, (maybe I’ll finally write a book!) without worrying about helping to provide for my family. I am overwhelmed at how blessed I feel right now!

I am telling all of you before I even post it on Facebook for a reason. Having my accident was devastating. The surgeries that followed were a nightmare. The constant battle to try to get to a place where I could go back to teaching, my life’s passion, was disappointing and depressing. Through it all, while friends and family were back at work, doing their thing, not even realizing that I was losing myself and any sense of purpose, YOU GUYS WERE THERE.

I would not have made it to this day of celebration without you. It’s not just something sweet I want to say to all of you. It’s not something that I think. It is absolutely something that I know, and am certain of. Hearing back from you guys in those first days of this blog made me feel “connected” to the outside world again. It gave me something to look forward to. A real feeling of purpose in two years. From that, the friendships that we formed, and the love that I have come to feel for so many of you is The. One. Thing. That. Saved. Me. You will never really understand just how deep and heartfelt that sentiment is, but that’s okay. I just had to say it, and I just had to celebrate with you guys.

Thanks for the years of well wishes, prayers, finger crossing, kind words, encouragement, understanding, and support. I love you all so much, and I thank God for you every single day. I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

xoxox

Moving right along… 😉

That McBain is quite the sneaky cop, isn’t he? He’s got Sonny’s place bugged, and he’s getting more than he bargained for as Sonny pours his broken heart out to anyone who walks through the door. I was kinda hoping that Sonny would not dump that whole messy truth about finding Kate and Johnny in bed together (complete with sound effects) on Michael, bit who am I kidding. Sonny is nothing if not clueless about what’s appropriate to lay on your children. He’s been telling Michael way too much since he was about 5 years old! While Michael was lamenting the unfortunate end of his father’s birthday, John was reveling in the fact that Sonny was finally getting some of what he thinks Sonny deserves. In fact, it was John who said, “It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy.” I try to feel badly for Sonny here, but honestly, he went after Johnny in every way that hurt for a really long time, even after John showed some real kindness and restraint – especially concerning Sonny’s kids. Karma, apparently, is a blonde.

Carly and Connie have been simmering for weeks! It was only a matter of time before they totally forgot that they are supposed to be grown women, and more importantly – women, period. They went at each other like two guys brawling in a back alley. That was one crazy fight, and I shudder to think what it meant for business at the Metro Court when both of its owners are rolling around on the lobby floor, ripping each other’s hair out. Honestly, I couldn’t even pick a side. They both deserved an ass whooping – so “It Couldn’t Happen To Nicer Guys.”

Liz and Liv should really have left the sleuthing to the professionals. *yawn* It took them way too long to jump to conclusions, make assumptions, and basically waste each other’s and our time, only to end up calling the police anyway. Neither one of these two is someone I would want trying to save my ass if I was Steve, that’s for damn sure. And considering Liz’s track record, the same goes for Ewan. If Liz doesn’t get herself fired for breaking confidentiality laws by going through Ewan’s patient files, she and Liv may just get themselves killed for getting themselves stuck between A Psycho and A Double Crazy. Actually, now that I think of it,“It Couldn’t Happen To Nicer Girls.”

Johnny is on a collision course with disaster! No matter what he does, it seems to lead to trouble! Even when trying to be there for Starr, the young woman who just lost her family, he can’t help but say all the wrong things, or do all of the wrong things – like putting away his gun where desperation could reach it. *shakes head* John is dealing with a whole load of problems – from his decimated relationship with Carly, to trying to stay a step ahead of a murderous Sonny, to an illegal operation dealing with human organs. Add to that the fact that Starr has now gone after Sonny with Johnny’s gun, and John may as well turn himself in. I can think of a few people who might think “It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy.”

While some may have had a tough time with Jason and Sam having yet one more argument, I was actually okay with it. First and foremost, they were finally in the same space together. Second, and most importantly, they actually did more than just argue. Jason and Sam, though tough for us to watch, finally got some of the tough stuff said. Jason had to stop hiding behind his  jealousy and had to face the cold, hard truth out loud that (they think) Sam is carrying Franco’s baby. Sure, it’s hard for Jason to hear, but guess what, dammit? It’s even harder for Sam to say to herself every single day!  I was so proud of Sam for not apologizing anymore, not even for John McBain! She told Jason he couldn’t blame her for any of that, because he just kept showing up – and she had no control over any of it! *applause*

FINALLY! Sam has nothing to apologize for, and furthermore, she pointed out to Jason just how hypocritical he was being in that he was angry at Sam for talking to someone she barely knows, but he was talking to someone he has a history with. The look on Jason’s face when he heard it for himself was pretty damned satisfying. But, you know what was even more satisfying? Watching Sam point it out, and then hearing her move on to the fact that neither Liz nor John are the problem for her and Jason! *Shouting hallelujah!* I hope the haters lined up to have their butts handed to them, because for all of their talk about how insecure Sam is, I didn’t hear a shred of insecurity in her statement! Sam used Liz to make a point about how clueless Jason was about the double standards he was placing on Sam. That’s it. Sam was all about her and Jason and the issue they are facing – which is whether or not Jason can love the baby, and obviously he is struggling with the thought of it right now.

I give Jason (a smidgen) of credit for telling Sam that it’s not her fault, because even though she knows it, she needed to hear it from her husband. However, I really think Jason needs an (over)dose of reality. And his reality, as we already know, is that Jason “knows what his life is like without Sam, and he wants her in it.”  I think we saw that in the shock that caused him to let Sam’s hands drop when she said she was moving out. Those scenes reminded me so much of their painful conversation after their second kiss on December 9, 2004, where Sam was leaving because she felt she had no choice, and Jason just didn’t know how to ask her to stay. Back then, it was the unknown that made Jason feel he had no right to fight for Sam, and I felt that same uncertainty in him today. Jason would never want to purposely hurt Sam, and he sees that it hurts her when he can’t make her any promises about the baby, as hard as that is to believe. Just like back then, he thinks the least selfish thing to do is to not ask her to stay through the uncertainty, and while I HATE it, I have been a fan long enough to understand how he could slip back to being that kind of emotional chicken. There were other reminders of that first time Sam left as well. His not knowing what to do when she came down with her bag, his trying to come up with a different solution, it was all so familiar to me. When Sam walked over and picked up the dragon, and told him she still believed that they were stronger together, I felt a lump immediately form in my throat. When Jason asked, “Why leave?”, my lips trembled, because I know what it cost for him to ask that, when he thinks he is doing the right thing for Sam. But when Sam answered she was leaving because she needed him to believe that, the tears came. Believing is the key, and unless he can do that, she knows there’s no use in staying. (Just like in ’04 *tears*) I have to admit that the little things that went into this scene really did strike a tender chord with me: The fact that Sam took the dragon with her, and not the phoenix, was beautiful and meaningful. It shows that she still believes in Jason’s ability to be the protection she told Jason the baby needed. That says so much to us about her love and her faith in him, even when he has no faith in himself.

My JaSam-Loving heart heard all of the unspoken stuff loud and clear. Like when Sam walked past him to take her suitcase, and Jason put his hand on the handle, fighting the need to wrestle her for it. (Anyone remember Jason taking Sam’s hand off the elevator button?) Back in 2004, Jason let Sam go, even though it tore his heart out, and even though it made us want to throw him down the elevator shaft. Jason let her go today, too. The best parallel I see in all of this is that it didn’t take Jason long at all to realize the mistake he’d made. Not then; not today. Jason was left to suffer silently as he cried and held only the tiny phoenix in his hand, and reminisced about the sweet moments where they exchanged the perfect gifts. Those memories made Jason realize that Sam was, in fact, the one to “turn bad luck into good.” The pain in his eyes made me terribly sad as he stared at Sam’s (lovely) picture. But I had to admit that “It Couldn’t Happen To A Nicer Guy.” This hurt is exactly what Jason needs right now to help him see what was right in front of him all along: Together, he and Sam, the phoenix and the dragon, bring double happiness. 

Hang in there, beloved!

BELIEVE!

Angelique

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22 responses

  1. Kathy Glagowski

    As usual you are right on!!! Hope you can enjoy your retirement and blog more. God Bless

    May 3, 2012 at 2:41 am

  2. Ana

    Like always what a great blog. Congratulations on your retirement and I really would love for you to write a book. You are so great at expressing your self, that I know your book would be a #1 best seller.

    May 3, 2012 at 3:03 am

  3. Dawn

    Wednesday’s episode was so emotional, well written, well acted, and completely true between Jason and Sam. I usually am not truly touch(brought to tears) by GH, but how could I not be yesterday. The past memories are beautiful reminders of their past and help us as viewers to understand Jason and Sam more thoughroughly. One thing I take away from that episode is that there is no doubt that Sam is strong, Jason is in love with her completely and they are definately not going to let this break them.

    Have a wonderful day.

    May 3, 2012 at 5:04 am

  4. alwaysaromantic

    Hi Jasammers, Angelique Fanatstic Blog! One Day at a Time to see what Journey you take next! I agree you should write a book! Yesterday episode was heartbreaking BUT it was so REAL! KM and SB brought they “A” game they always do! I thought Sam took the Phoenix what a pleasnt and strong surpprise she took the Dragon/Jason with her heart. The fact that they talked and shared was great to be apart of! I cired but mostly I applauded………..that was a great scene! It showed their pain BUT it also showed their Love! When Jason said “he NEEDED to know where Sam would be” that was from his heart. When Sam told Jason she still believed in them, their Phoenix and Dragon! That they are stronger together than apart I just smiled! Sam is such a strong woman who has known for a long time how much she Loves Jason! And in that Love she knows when to give him space! Hopefully this time Jason will know and NEVER question again how much Sam means to him! I understand how he feels aboutr the baby! And he told Sam the truth he did not try to pretend otherwise! But he did not say he could not Love the baby he said he did not know if he could! As bad as this hurt to watch it still was a great episode! You could see,feel how much these 2 Love each other! All the references to their History was VERY much appreciated! Remember when Jason stared at another picture of him and Sam on that mantle…………………this reference was more emotional! SB sold you on how quickly his heart was breaking w/o her!
    GH love in the afternoon,Jasam always!

    May 3, 2012 at 6:14 am

    • Beatrice

      Can’t wait for them to get it together,I want cute baby moments.

      May 3, 2012 at 9:37 am

  5. lt4bama

    Congrats on the early retirement. That’s most wonderful news for you and your family. The previous poster was right, I’m sure if you write a book it would be a Best Seller.

    Of course loved your post. I’ve never been so annoyed with McPain until yesterday’s episode. I thought a Carly/Connie fight would be more entertaining but it was just annoying. More so than John. Liv and Liz were just a waste of my screen time. Liz hasn’t learned her lesson. Guess she doesn’t remember what happened the last time she tried to “help” Lucky by breaking the rules. And Starr….I’ll just move right over that one.

    I had a bag of mixed emotions when it came to Jasam. I want Jason to feel the hurt that he’s put Sam through but it is painful for me to watch him go through it. And forget about when Sam goes through awful situation I want to just hurt somebody. But this was needed. As hard as it was for me to watch she needed to walk away for him to fully recognize what is at stake. Great analogy to 2004. He asked her the same question then “Where are you going?”

    Some people are rejoicing now, but it’s all good. Jasam fans will rejoice in the end when we have a stronger, sweeter Jasam along with little baby Morgan.

    May 3, 2012 at 6:38 am

    • Beatrice

      I so agree with you the Carly/Connie fight sucked….Starr,no comment,ok dumb, …JaSam was great,heart breaking for them,but hey take the good with the bad.

      May 3, 2012 at 9:53 am

  6. SamJasonsHeart

    Angie
    Congratulations on getting full retirement and benefits. I know that has lifted so much off your shoulders financially. Although it came earlier than you would have liked you are where you’re suppose to be on this life journey. Everything happens for a reason and what’s meant to be will always find a way!
    Sam and Jason’s scenes were beautiful yet heart breaking. The Sam I saw yesterday is the one I fell in love with all those years ago. She’s doing what she needs to do for her and their baby. I loved how strong she was as she told Jason everything he needed to hear. When Jason said I need to know where you will be and then why go I saw all the reasons why I fell in love with Jason. He needed to see his heart, his love and his future walk out the door so he can find his way back to his life! The flashbacks him looking at her picture while holding the Phoenix, Sam taking the dragon with her all so telling of just how deeply in love they are. Stronger together.. Bad luck into good.. The Phoenix and The Dragon will rise from the ashes stronger and more in love than ever.
    Thanks for always being there for me.. And hanging with me the other night into the early morning. Praying your friend is doing better and the crisis has passed. Hope you and Nelson had a wonderful date night celebrating the end of that long journey. Now… About that book you need to write.. Get busy! 🙂

    I Love you!

    May 3, 2012 at 6:51 am

  7. samjase

    Congrats on early retirement! That’s awesome!
    Loved your blog, as always…and, as usual, I agree with EVERY SINGLE WORD.
    Angelique…Carly Phillips tweeted YOUR BLOG from the other day describing Jasam’s relationship. CARLY PHILLIPS..NY Best Selling Romance Novelist!!! PRETTY FANTASTIC…I’d say!

    May 3, 2012 at 7:50 am

    • samjase

      Here’s the tweet from Carly Phillips with your blog attached. Awesome!!!
      carlyphillips ‏ @carlyphillips
      I LOVE this description of what’s happening w/JaSam but I hope there is light at end of tunnel! http://bit.ly/IgzDOG #GH @

      May 3, 2012 at 8:39 am

      • Traveler

        Wow this is so Cool!! Thanks for letting us know!!

        May 3, 2012 at 10:09 pm

  8. Beatrice

    I too loved today,it was so emotional,so needed…I saw hope.

    May 3, 2012 at 7:50 am

  9. Congrats on the early retirement although your love of teaching has always been apparent, this must also come as a welcome relief.

    As always love your blog, agree with everything. After watching Jason and Sam’s scenes I cried like a baby and still i went back and watched again and again. Even in angst they are beautiful to watch.

    May 3, 2012 at 10:26 am

    • beatrice

      i can’t wait to see how they find out the baby is really Jason’s.

      May 3, 2012 at 6:03 pm

  10. Bless you Angelique…We all can tell what a wonderful teacher you were, and still are. You teach us all every day, with your wisdom and courage in facing the adversities of life. Be happy with your loving family, and we will all be waiting for your book, should you write one.
    Thank you for this blog, it says all we know and believe about our couple. You know them so well, and help us to keep the faith. Much love to you, always.

    May 3, 2012 at 10:54 am

  11. Congrats on the early retirement although I am sure it is a loss to the children that will lose out on such a wonderful teacher. There are so few teachers that really care these days and you are one of those rare ones.
    Back to our Jasam…just sent off a postcard with the last paragraph of your blog to TPTB. You always have such an insight to Jason and Sams mind so I hope these guys will take it all in and put it to good use.
    Loved when Sam left Jason yesterday…dont get me wrong, I want them to be together more than anything else, but Jason needs to realize Sam isnt going to be putting his needs first anymore, but her babies and if he cannot say that he can love “Sam’s” child then he needs to lose her. Hopefully a little time away will make him realize that he is nothing without Sam and an innocent child that his wife is carrying is not Franco and didnt cause the pain and grief he and Sam went thru.
    Keep up the good work and I will continue to shout out to TPTB your wonderful words of wisdom for us JaSammers!
    BTW…just wanted you guys to know in case anyone was interested…I mailed out 9 postcards on clickmail for just around $4. sitting here at my computer.

    May 3, 2012 at 12:41 pm

  12. rosejasam4ever

    Congrats on early retirement enjoy it and hope you write that book coz l know I for one would love to read it.

    I actually enjoyed the jasam scene did not cry as I was so focused on Sam standing up for herself it was long overdue. Thank you for pointing out the similarities btwn her walking out this time from the the last time, did not notice it till you mentioned them. Jason Loves Sam with all he has but just needs to come to terms with the baby and stop focusing too much on himself and worry about his pregnant wife and how she feels. Loved it when Sam told him, she can not walk away but he has the option to do so if he chooses but am hoping he sticks with her. Their kind of love only comes once in a lifetime and like u said he knows what his life is like without Sam and he did once say he does not Want to relieve that nightmare of not having her by his side.

    So here is to Jasam getting stronger and living happily ever after. Is happily ever after going to be easy definitely not but is it going to be worth the wait u betcha. So lets hang in there with our Jasam.

    As for the the cat fight I was bored out of my mind and thought to myself l have seen better than this, Sam/carly fight at Coleman’s came to mind. As for Johnny he sort of pisses me off he stirs iiish but plays the wounded baby when Sonny retaliates. Its like he wants to play grown up games but hopes to be treated like a child. He is gonna get what is coming to him one of these days. This cat and mouse they have bn playing at with Sonny will finally bring one of them to their knees and am hoping soon coz am tired of it.

    May 3, 2012 at 1:16 pm

    • beatrice

      you put that very well about Johnny he does want to play grown up games, but than wants to be treated like a child, his so immature in my opinion, everything he does is about Sonny.

      May 3, 2012 at 5:59 pm

  13. Traveler

    Congrats on your Retirement!! I say “Write that Book”!! As you know Im already one of your biggest fans!! Just know when its on the Best Sellers list… I want an Autographed Copy!! 🙂

    As tough as those JaSam scenes were. They Really were Awesome and Emotional. Stelly just rocked those scenes!!!

    Viva la JaSam!!

    May 3, 2012 at 10:24 pm

  14. Lara

    Congrats girl!!! I hope you can spend this time doing all the things you never got a chance to do!! A book sounds fantastic, whenever it’s published I’ll be 1st in line to buy it 😉
    I do so hope your friend is going to be ok?

    Well what can I say about the Jasam scene other than, “our girl got her fire back!” I loved it!! That scene was the most honest and realistic conversation I’ve seen on this soap in a while. I loved that she told him that John and Liz aren’t the problem, they are. That’s real talk right there. I loved that you noticed the ’04 coincidence too, I thought I might have been alone on that. She’s always the one to leave even though he neverg wants her to go. To be honest though I think she’d already made up her mind to leave she just needed to hear him say outloud what he’d been feeling. I know as much as we might not like it, THEY need it. She’s thinking like a mother now and putting her baby first, as she should! I can’t wait o see him grovel and beg for her to come back to him. I especially enjoyed that just as she’s finding her spirit agian and pulling out from under him, he’s back at home crying in front of her pic! I could totally see him walking around town with the “my wife left me” face. It’s tough now, but I know in the end they’ll be better and stronger as a family.

    May 4, 2012 at 7:43 am

    • beatrice

      can’t help but to wonder, how long does it take for him to call her to see where she is staying at…it is freaking amazing that he still has Sonny’s problem as top priority on his list(going after Kate).

      May 5, 2012 at 11:38 am

  15. Sonia

    Congrats Angelique on your retiring and full benefits.. really hope you go for writing that book.. Yea Jason let Sam go, so she can come back as how she let him go when his memory left him, so he could come back..

    May 5, 2012 at 8:35 pm

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