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“There’s Nothing Worse”…

Good morning, GHers.

I am thinking that the best thing that I can do for Port Charles General Hospital is to give them my therapist’s number. Business would be booming if they had someone on staff to help all of these Port Charles residents deal with all of the emotional turmoil they’re going through!

I am not sure that I could find anyone in Port Charles right now that wouldn’t benefit from some one-on-one time with a mental health professional – and I do mean anyone!

I mean even poor little Emma is displaying signs of acting out, according to Dr. Maggie! Is no one safe from the darkness? The scary thing is that this is Emma acting out, even before she has to deal with whatever is going on with her mother! Dear Lord, what will become of Emma then? I mean, this thing that Robin is dealing with – with Stone – is really beginning to worry me. It was already sounding ominous, and hearing Robin sound hopeless only made it worse. But hearing Robin talk to Mac about wanting to see him have something good in his life other than work, before she dies, not only brought tears to my eyes, it immediately made me feel as hopeless as Robin! I mean, really…“There’s Nothing Worse” than when you start to think about things you won’t get to see or experience if death were to darken your door sooner, rather than later. Sure, like Mac, we’ve all known all these years that Robin is living with HIV, but also like Mac, we’ve been lulled into this false sense of security that Robin was going to stay ahead of this deadly disease for many years to come. Hearing her talk about death as if it were around the corner gave me the chills. I know just how Mac felt, because I would not be able to say goodbye to Robin either. *tears* Whatever it is that Robin is dealing with, I am just hoping that it isn’t as hopeless as it seemed.

Lucky is spending a lot of time in that hospital since his return to Port Charles; too bad it isn’t with the right professional. Lucky has had a tough time of it lately. He got a letter from his dead wife, flew across the pond in order to get another message from her, ended up getting a message that”rocked” his world from Jake about Aiden, needed to phone home and ask his father,the person responsible for killing his son with his car to put his youngest son in his car and rush him to the ER, only to get there to find out the message in stones may have saved his baby boy’s life, and to top it all off – the dr.’s name has a connection to the churchyard where it all went down – St. Margaret’s. If all of that doesn’t sound crazy to you… I imagine that this is the very reason Ethan is so concerned for his brother. “There’s Nothing Worse” than knowing that your loved one is trying like hell to stay clean, yet everything in his life is a perfect excuse for self-medicating. And just wait until Liz starts projecting the “glimpses of her future” onto Lucky. Someone page the shrink. STAT.

Dr. Webber is reeling after getting a glimpse of his future in the shape of a box with a pregnancy test in it. Finally, Steve tells Olivia that he “knows” she’s pregnant, and finally, Olivia has figured out why Steve hasn’t been able to look her in the eye, and why he’s been acting so freaked out! Olivia assured Steve that she’s not pregnant (though I never saw her take the test) and then backpedals to ask him if finding out that she was pregnant would have been so bad. Someone should tell Steve that “There’s Nothing Worse” than freaking out about the thought of becoming a father when there’s still a very real possibility that he could be. Somehow, I think Steve just failed a test he didn’t even know he was taking.

Is John aware that even manly men become codependents? Sure, it’s a nice thing that Jay-Z II is willing to pay his strippers “hazard pay”, but it would be a nicer thing if John stopped surrounding himself with women he thinks he can save, even if by providing them with a way to make a living at his strip club. *rolling eyes* John said himself that sometimes being the nice guy willing to help comes back to bite one in the ass, but it seems to me that he may not be hearing himself. John continues towing the line with Abby, and I don’t think that can end well. He has already pushed a couple of Sonny’s buttons by flirting and making out with Carly, but for John to move on to messing with Michael’s chick? “There’s Nothing Worse” than drawing that much of the Corinthos’ attention to himself. Well, there is one thing that could be worse, but must we really discuss another murder?

Carly has an amazing gift for having the worst possible timing when it comes to putting more on Jason’s already overburdened shoulders. My goodness! She just never fails to hit Jason where it hurts, and leave him reeling when he is already off-balance. Carly has no idea what Jason and Sam are dealing with. She has no idea that once again, Franco has used Josslyn as the diversion while his target all along has been Jason’s heart. While Carly is going on and on about Franco’s strategy, Jason shares a stunningly honest, yet heartbreakingly sad, truth: “There’s Nothing Worse” than what Franco has already done to him, because there’s nothing that could hurt Jason worse than hurting his wife.

Jason has seen that hurting Sam in this way, by violating her, even if only in her imagination, has left her broken in a way that he has no idea how to put back together. Sam, the brave, resilient, hard-knock life survivor has just taken the hardest knock of her life, and there are pieces of her that I don’t think Jason could even find, much less put back together at this point. Jason, the great “fixer” can’t fix this. Apparently, Jason and Sam agree on that, even if they wish for it to be different, for it to be “simple again.” The awful truth is that “There’s Nothing Worse” than feeling the need to be alone, when there was once a time that feeling alone was a curse, the way it was for Sam.

I know that many are confused and angered by Sam’s apparent disregard for her safety, but honestly I just don’t think people understand that for Sam, she is  TRULY convinced “There’s Nothing Worse” than what Franco has done to her. The scary thing here is that for a lot of victims, living with this kind of trauma may actually be harder to deal with than the thought of being murdered. I know it sounds unbelievable, but believe it or not, living with the effects of a sexual attack is more than some women can take. I see Sam’s blind drive as a sign that she needs to shut out the silence of what she can’t remember with real, adrenaline-pumping danger (even if it seems senseless and reckless),  just so that she can feel that she’s in charge of it – so unlike this “attack” that’s left her and Jason frozen.

Sam and Jason are both fighting to keep from losing it, and from losing each other among the madness. I think we’re going to have to love them through the choices they make in that fight, and trust that in the end, it’s the fighters who never stop fighting who usually come out victorious. To quote Garin Wolf, we can rant and rave. We can even scream and curse like sailors from the top of our lungs, but the one thing we can’t do is turn and walk away… Jason and Sam need us in their corner.

Steve and Kelly need us in their corner. 

In fact, GH needs us in their corner.

I’m in. Are you?

Angelique

 

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5 responses

  1. Fylicia'Marie

    Count me in! Today was hard, especially the lost look of finality in Robin’s eyes. I certainly hope they don’t kill her off, what kind of happy ending would that be? Loved Stone as much as the next person, but if she has to die to be with him, we should rethink the longevity of their love. Til death did they part…next!

    The Morgans will triumph over Freaky Franco, after all, they have survived Nasty Nico, Maniac Manny, Aristocratic Alicia (and monetarily challenged mom)

    December 1, 2011 at 3:08 am

  2. Carol

    It is funny how 3 minute scenes can reveal so much. Carly just doesnt get that sometimes it is NOT all about her. She should notice Jason is reacting differently to Franco this time but as always Carly has to have all the attention.
    Poor Sam….I think she just wants to kick someones ass right now just to feel powerful again.
    I don’t know how long or what it is going to take, but I am confident JaSam will move forward from their Franco ordeal and be stronger than ever.
    Thanks once again for sharing your insight to all things GH.

    December 1, 2011 at 10:44 am

  3. I am most definitely IN!!!! Thanks, Angelique……………..it’s a LOVE
    story, after all!

    December 1, 2011 at 12:11 pm

  4. Traveler

    You know you can always count on me!! I’m so in!!!
    Between Robin and JaSam… My heart is breaking.. *Tears* *Sniffles* and more *Tears*…
    Just thinking that Robin may die, breaks my heart. And to be fair, most days Im not even that big of a Robin fan. But as a LONG time viewer, She has been a part to my life since the day she came to Port Charles. If this is the way they write her out. My heart will break!!
    *Sighs* Watching JaSam going thru all these emotions. Ouch, just hurts my JaSam Lovin Heart. Its the hard times that make me appreciate the good times. I have faith JaSam will have MANY MORE good times together!!
    Thanks for today’s Blog… Totally made me tear up!!

    December 1, 2011 at 7:45 pm

  5. alwaysaromantic

    Hi Jasammers,
    I am mostly definitely In!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Watching Jason and Sam through this s/l I feel Paralyzed!My has Molly grown up! I am wondering when will Alexis find out what happened to her eldest daughter!I guess the writers have their reasons that Alexis has not checked up on the Newlyweds,or at least Sam! Will Alexis go for the jugular thinking that this is Jason fault? Or will her progress with this relationship that she fought for so long?!
    I am hoping they do not let Robin die from HIV! But it sure does feel as if thats what will happen! I know this is a little selfish but will Robin get the chance to meet Jason Sams Twins?!!!!!!!!!

    December 1, 2011 at 8:03 pm

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