Sometimes, Words Fail Us…
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Good JaSam Wedding Morning!
I have to tell you, my dear, dear friends and fellow GH enthusiasts, that there are times when I watch and re-watch GH, am full of emotions and feelings, and still find that…Sometimes Words Fail Us.
Even at the most crucial moments of our lives.
Such is the case with me after watching Wednesday’s incredible episode of General Hospital.
First, I just want to take a moment to commend the real fans of our beloved soap. Those of you who’ve done your part to support General Hospital in the ways that matter. Those who watch, and try to get others to watch. Those of you who send tweets, emails, facebook likes and comments, snail mails, and wedding cards. 🙂 Those of you who check youtube for the latest interviews, sneak peeks, and vids. Those who use their energy to be positive and spread LOVE! If you fit into any of those categories, and especially if you fit into all of them, I commend you. GH is still on the air, and that, in part, is because of you.
It’s because of you that we are enjoying the beginning of another exciting story arc, instead of watching the beginning of the end, as our sister soaps are doing. Every time I hear from one of you about sending your support in a tangible way, I am overjoyed! I am by nature a fan of teamwork, and it warms my JaSam heart when I see us all come together for “the greater good”. 😉
I just want to let you all know that I am proud to know all of you, and to call you my Bella Mafia Family.
I apologize to everyone, but I just cannot focus enough tonight to comment on anything else but our JaSam Wedding preparations. After having watched the JaSam scenes about 2 dozen times, and after making everyone who ever claimed to love me watch them at least twice, (with me watching over their shoulder) I have nothing but JaSam on the brain.
That’s not to say I didn’t think today’s episode was a solidly great show, because I did. It’s just that I have been waiting for all of this JaSam Fabulosity since Jason and Sam laid eyes on each other at Jake’s in October 2003.
I can’t help myself…
I thought the episode got off to a great start with Maxie and the growing list of pre-wedding disasters. That Kirsten Storms plays Maxie like no one else ever could, and a little comedic relief is always welcome when all of us are in such heightened states of emotion, don’t you think? (I know we all hope Ms. Storms is feeling better by the minute, and back before we can miss her!)
It was brilliant to have Edward stop by to visit Jason, seemingly to try to change his mind about the wedding somehow. I loved that both Spin and Jason made it clear to Edward that nothing could change Jason’s mind about the wedding. I loved Edward’s answer even more. “Good! I like Sam. She’s a strong, independent lady. Perfectly suited to you. Lila would have approved.” Awww! Edward has always, always liked Sam, and has always thought she would be good for him. It’s one of the reasons I love Edward so… I could only love him more when he asked Jason to reconsider the wedding rings they’d already picked, and give Sam the ring he’d given Lila on their wedding night. Of course, Jason thought he couldn’t possibly take such a special part of their history from them, but Edward insisted. “She’d want you to have it,” he said. “Please give it to Sam. Maybe you could pass it on to your own children someday.” Were any of you crying, as I was? For those of us who’ve watched long enough to appreciate just how special the relationship Jason had with his grandmother was, we understand that nothing could be more appropriate than Jason having her ring to place on the finger of The Love Of His Life. Mr. Wolf, thank you so much for making our GH History such a special part of the most important day of Jason’s life. I loved that it ended with Jason just staring at his grandfather. Sometimes, Words Fail Us.
Across town, Sam got a surprise visit from her new mother-in-law to be, and was genuinely happy to see Monica. As luck would have it, the timing could not be anymore perfect, as it was the exact moment that Maxie opened up the ring boxes only to find that Jason’s and Sam’s rings were truly Jack’s and Sarah’s. What to do without wedding bands the day before the wedding? What I thought was so pivotal about Monica immediately realizing that she could have the solution is that it showed us that Monica knows exactly how Jason feels about Sam. I can tell you that as a mother and a wife who has a long and beautiful Love Story of her own, I could never even imagine some far off day where I parted with my husband’s wedding ring, unless I expected one of my children to find a love that huge and that real. Monica didn’t hesitate, and it’s because since that first time Sam came looking for her to help Jason at the safehouse, she saw the love that Sam had for her son, and she trusted it. Not easy for a mom to do. Over the years, Monica has looked on as Jason and Sam have taken their turns sitting at each other’s bedsides during illness and tragedy. She has seen that each of them has deeply struggled with the thought of life without the other. Monica recognizes that Jason’s heart is in good hands, and as precious as Alan’s ring is, Monica knows that if she can trust Jason’s heart to Sam’s keeping, trusting the ring to their marriage is easy in comparison. Whoa. How powerful. Again, I cried, and for a moment, I thought I was crying so hard that I missed Sam’s “thank you,” when I heard Monica say, “You’re welcome.” Then I realized that I hadn’t missed it, after all. In the enormity of the moment, Sam was at a complete loss for words. Sometimes, Words Fail Us.
Sam’s visitors didn’t end there. Carly came by to take responsibility for the tension between them, and of course, Sam was gracious and understanding. Carly acknowledged just how much Sam meant to Jason, so she got some points from me on that, but I wish Carly had kept her cynicism to herself. Telling Sam on the day before her wedding that opening oneself up for love also means opening oneself up for loss was not exactly thoughtful. Ugh. What could Sam say to that? Sometimes, Words Fail Us.
We also finally got to see some Maxie and Davis Girls scenes, as the mother of the bride and the wedding party converged upon the nervous bride. I loved that Alexis and Molly were willing to do whatever needed to be done, and I adored that Sam played a bit with Maxie’s mind over the maid of honor thing, but honestly, I am thrilled that Sam asked Maxie. I remember Maxie and Sam sitting on that very couch back in 2008, after Jason rescued Sam from Jerry’s boat. Maxie challenged Sam back then to carefully examine her feelings about Jason, and whether it was just the danger, or the proximity to Jason that had her all hot and bothered. The rest, shall we say, is history. 😉 To prove that Maxie is worthy of her role, she opens up a box of what should be baby blue Cartullos for Sam to wear with her wedding dress, only to find leopard print booties! Oh, Maxie! *wipes tears of laughter* Sometimes, Words Fail Us.
The steady stream of visitors continued at the penthouse, when Liz knocked on Jason’s door for a last-minute visit to the groom-to-be. While I found it so typical of Liz that she would think it awkward to visit Jason’s hospital room, probably because Sam would be there, she thought it was better to visit him at his home, a day before his wedding, with the probability being that Sam, the bride-to-be, would be off, preparing. Hmmm. Anyhoo, in the end it really doesn’t signify. You see, Liz mused at how nothing slows Jason down, and Jason answered, “Not when it’s something I want.” To which Liz had to admit that she knew how much Jason loves Sam, and wants to be with her. So far so good. Liz was anxious about apologizing to Jason about nearly killing him in the car accident. She went on and on about her bad choices, and she’d been making a lot of those since losing Jake. And she mentioned once again how she blamed herself for not watching Jake. Of course, Jason tried to ease her guilt, but Liz acknowledged that her “mistakes seem to cost more than others.” Since the only mistakes she could possibly be referring to were the accident and Jake’s death, I thought Jason’s response was befitting. Jason said they have to believe that this was where they were supposed to be right now. Living without their son. Involved in an accident, but alive. In other words, Jason was telling Liz that nothing really happens just by accident, so it wasn’t for her, or anyone, to take the blame for. Everything that happened led to that moment, and there was no taking it back. I got it. I don’t think Liz did. I think she heard it as though Jason was trying to save her from her guilt, whereas I think that Jake’s death has made this one of Jason’s fundamental beliefs: Things happen, and all the second guessing in the world won’t change them. Liz told Jason he could only play hero to one woman at a time. To which Jason said nothing. What was there to say to someone who thinks he is getting married in order to be Sam’s hero? He can, and has, played hero to everyone in town. That doesn’t require a marriage license! I said this on Twitter as soon as the scene played out, and I’ll say it again, because I really do believe it. I think Jason heard in that statement the basic and primary reason that he and Liz didn’t work. Liz is holding out for a hero. It’s what she thinks a relationship is based on. Liz still looks to men to save her from whatever the big, bad threat of the moment is, even when it’s just her boredom. Jason also heard the difference, and we all saw the contrast, between what his relationship with Sam is based on, and what his relationship with Liz was based on. It was no wonder that Jason didn’t have a response to what Liz said. Realizing the very same thing as the Jason of Liz’s fantasy – which is that he’s not, and never was, what Liz needs, he could do nothing but let her leave, her misconceptions about what he has to offer a woman intact. Sometimes, Words Fail Us.
You see, I think it became even more clear to Jason at that moment that Sam isn’t holding out for a hero in him. She isn’t looking to Jason to save her from anyone or anything. She doesn’t rely on him to swoop in and protect her. Sam is holding out for the chance to finally share her life with the man she loves. Sam looks to Jason for the reflection of the love she feels for him. She relies only on the strength she gains knowing how Jason loves her unconditionally, and protects her from her own fears. In return, Sam has strengthened Jason with his own dose of unconditional love, and protects him from ever doubting all that he has to offer someone in love and in life. Their relationship is perfectly balanced, and what one gives, the other returns. I cannot think of a better foundation for marriage, can you?
I imagine that those realizations are what drove Jason to search out his bride. Every visit served as an affirmation that he had finally chosen to share his life with someone for all the right reasons, and without any delusions about what he and Sam share. Of course Jason would want to give Sam a wedding that exceeded her expectations, because Sam has never once made Jason feel that he failed to meet hers.
That is just EPIC.
You could see the way that Sam affects Jason just by watching him as he enters her apartment and calls out her name, and hears her call out his. His body relaxes, his smile shows itself, and the love he feels takes on the color of his eyes. It’s a rather spectacular thing to observe.
Yet nothing could have prepared me for the moments that followed.
Sam is standing in her wedding dress, and though she shares her concern with Jason that it might be bad luck for him to see her in her wedding dress, Jason is sure about one thing: there’s no way he’s leaving now.
So, he reminds her that he is going to see her anyway, and Sam concedes, and turns to face him.
I must confess that the minute I caught my first glimpse of Sam in her dress, looking as beautiful as I’ve ever seen her, and wearing the gown she picked out for her wedding to Jason, I wept. Not cried. Not got teary. Wept. And this was before we could see Jason’s reaction to her. Like Sam, I didn’t realize how important this was – to see Sam in a white dress, looking the part of the bride, even if it was just them. In that moment, I realized that I had been waiting for that very moment with more anticipation than I’d imagined. It was well worth the wait. Sam was stunning. What more can I say? Sometimes, Words Fail Us.
When Jason saw her; when he took in every detail of the woman he loves, and was literally rendered speechless by his Fair Samantha in her wedding dress, I wept again. Sometimes, Words Fail Us.
It was important for Sam that Jason was finally able to summon his words, and that he was able to verbalize his reaction to her, even though it wasn’t his most steady of proclamations. That moment where Jason looks away for a fraction of a second really got me, because it was as if it was too much for him to take in. *sigh* Sam said she didn’t realize how important it was to see that look on his face, but trust me, those words he uttered to her, past the lump in his throat, and the tears in his eyes, will be forever seared into her memory. That is what the magic of the wedding day is all about…the moment the eyes of the man you love look at you in a way they’ve never done before.
Like Sam, I am so thankful that it was just the two of them, their song playing in the background. Thank you, GH Writers. Jason and Sam rarely get a moment alone. To have this moment be a moment they could share and take in alone was a beautiful thing.
The enormity of the emotions I felt nearly overwhelmed me, as they must have done for Sam as well.
“I don’t think I can do this,” Sam admitted to Jason.
Sometimes, Words Fail Us.
I hope that everyone took the time to thank the writers and TPTB for the wedding gifts we’ve gotten so far, and the ones we have yet to receive.
I believe now, more than ever, our positivity and gratitude is needed as a guiding light for those making decisions for our soap.
Be honest, be gracious, be positive. Let’s enjoy each of JaSam’s moments as they are happening.
Let’s leave tomorrow’s worries for tomorrow…or next month. Let’s take in right now. We’ve waited too long to let is pass us by while we are focusing on something else…
Take a moment and let TPTB know what your favorite moment of JaSam Wedding Week has been thus far!
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