Guilt and The Guilty
My 7th Grade English private school teacher, whom I tortured with my daily journal entries – which she used to say “read like a soap opera” (Hmmm…Is it really such a surprise that I’m writing this blog?), once wrote in my journal: “Guilt is regret for what we’ve done. Regret is guilt for what we didn’t do.” (I bet you’re really intrigued about what I was writing in 7th grade that would inspire her to such depth, but Sister, if you’re reading this, you know life back then really was like a soap opera.) If only Mrs. Chapman knew that I’ve never forgotten her tidbit of wisdom.
In fact, that quote ran through my head as I watched Thursday’s General Hospital, because it seems that each of our Port Charles residents is dealing with one of the many faces of guilt and regret.
Liz feels so guilty about sleeping with The Brothers that she’s a threat to patients’ safety and wellbeing, and now she obviously has a death wish. I say that because that ‘s the only reason I could think of for Liz to backtalk Epiphany and then, be nasty to her on top of it. Epiphany’s no joke! But, alas, in swooped Big Brother, Steve, who just happens to be the Chief of Staff, to his little sister’s rescue.
Every time those words come out of his mouth, Dr. Webber loses a couple of points with me. You know, the reason that Liz is a self-righteous, holier than thou enigma is because no one calls her out on her crap! Well, let me correct myself…NO ONE OF THE MALE POPULATION. Not Lucky, not Nik, not Jason, and now, not even her brother, who should care more than anyone that his “little sister” is a hot mess! Steve actually confronts Nik about their affair in his very zen way, and when Nik says he can’t just walk away, Steve asks, “When was the last time you heard Elizabeth laugh?”
Ummm…..give me a sec………
Dr. Webber! Your “little sister” is cheating on her fiance, you know the one who forgave her after her ongoing affair with Jason, after she lied to him for over a year about the paternity of the son he thought was his. The same guy who has loved and taken care of both her bastard boys as if they were his own. And you’re worried about the last time she laughed?
Tickle her ass and get over it, Steve! Your “little sister” is a lying, cheating, conniving, manipulating and selfish woman who has very little, if any, concern for Lucky or even Nik, for that matter. I’d slap her myself if I saw her smiling, much less LAUGHING! Uuuuggggggghhhhhh!
Still drowning in guilt and regret is Maxie. She wants to find a way to make things right with Spinelli, and in her twisted little mind she believes that if she can convince him to transgress in the same way she did, her mission will be accomplished. Sam sagely pointed out to the both of them that infidelity can’t be equalized, and no one knows that better than Sam. I loved the moment when Sam “went there” and talked about her own personal failures, because it once again reminded us how far she and Jason have come. I believe Spinelli will be able to help Maxie deal with her regrets, and I even believe they’ll be okay…but I am a bit of a romantic, so that is NOT a spoiler. 🙂
Struggling with both guilt and regret is Jason. Now that he knows that Franco knows about Michael killing Claudia, he is back to feeling the weight of the world on his shoulders. Back to wondering about every choice he’s ever made for Michael. Poor Jason…he just can’t catch a break! He goes to Sonny’s and tried to get some support and Sonny basically questioned his every move so far, and acted as though it was all Jason’s fault. Jason walked out and said, “I’ll take care of it”, and Sonny didn’t even offer any help! What he did do was call Dominic to check up on Jason…wow! It’s no wonder Sam has become his go-to person. Sam is the only one that reassures Jason when he second-guesses himself, and reassure him she should, as Jason is the only one who gets things done!
Even Rebecca’s Revenge took a backseat to a bit of a guilty conscience, I think. When it came down to it, I think Rebecca realized just what family really means to Lucky, and she struggled with blowing it out of the water for him. So it appears that the “guilty” will continue to go unpunished for a while longer.
The guilt and regrets of our favorite Port Charles characters provide us with some fabulous distractions from our daily troubles, and sometimes, the lessons we learn onscreen are the catalyst which keep us from actions that might leave us with regret and guilt of our own.
And that, dear friends, is just a little part of The Beauty of GH!